{"id":9985,"date":"2013-09-21T12:44:22","date_gmt":"2013-09-21T11:44:22","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/?p=9985"},"modified":"2013-09-21T16:41:07","modified_gmt":"2013-09-21T15:41:07","slug":"den-forsta-o-ljus-natten","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=9985","title":{"rendered":"Den f\u00f6rsta o-ljus natten."},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/09\/12878_8082d157.jpg\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-9986\" alt=\"12878_8082d157\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/09\/12878_8082d157.jpg?resize=531%2C293\" width=\"531\" height=\"293\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>Hur f\u00f6rklarar man f\u00f6r honom som bor d\u00e4r mitt inne i staden? D\u00e4r, d\u00e4r ljusen fl\u00f6dar dygnet runt. Klockan \u00e4r tre. Det borde egentligen vara svart natt ute, men det \u00e4r ljust. Jag ser dragspelarens gr\u00e5a hus upplyst genom f\u00f6nstret n\u00e4r jag s\u00f6mnigt dricker lite vatten. Funderar om v\u00e5r brolampa lyser s\u00e5 starkt. Ser efter, men den \u00e4r sl\u00e4ckt.<\/p>\n<p>I \u00f6sterf\u00f6nstret, det jag brukar st\u00e5 i p\u00e5 n\u00e4tterna vid den h\u00e4r tiden, samma ljus. Silvrigt har n\u00e5gon beskrivit det som i dikterna, en v\u00e4l anv\u00e4nd klyscha sen dess. Men inte fan \u00e4r det silver i detta. Det \u00e4r ljus och m\u00f6rker p\u00e5 samma g\u00e5ng. Det d\u00e4r silvriga kommer kanske senare n\u00e4r sn\u00f6n ligger, men nog fasiken \u00e4r det oljus det h\u00e4r d\u00e5 ocks\u00e5 precis som nu. Det silvriga kommer sig mer av gnistrande diamanter d\u00e4r i sn\u00f6n och inte fasiken liknar de silver de heller, precis som ingen endaste \u00e4delsten g\u00f6r det. Bl\u00e5ljus heter det d\u00e5. N\u00e5got helt annat.<\/p>\n<p>S\u00e5 f\u00f6r en o-cool gubbe \u00e4r det o-ljus d\u00e4r ute. S\u00e5nt man vill vandra i sj\u00e4lv och l\u00e4nge p\u00e5 \u00f6dsliga stigar som b\u00e4r en djupt in i outforskade skogar. Om man bara var o-cool gubbe och inte far och make s\u00e5 skulle man sj\u00e4lvklart f\u00f6lja de d\u00e4r stigarna dit, dit de b\u00e4r. F\u00f6r o-ljuset lockar och drar i en n\u00e4stan lika h\u00e5rt som havet brukar g\u00f6ra dag f\u00f6r dag f\u00f6r dag f\u00f6r dag. Jag tror det \u00e4r vargen inom mig som vill ge sig ut i det d\u00e4r. S\u00f6ka sina likar men s\u00e5klart finna att f\u00f6r ensamvargen finns inga likar, det som o-ljus lika obarmh\u00e4rtigt avsl\u00f6jar som \u00e5ttaminutersljuset. S\u00e5 jag stannar inne, ser p\u00e5. H\u00e5ller kvar i livsl\u00f6gnen av att vara n\u00e5gon eller om inte de h\u00e5ller, n\u00e5got.<\/p>\n<p>Tr\u00f6ttheten finns kvar inom mig. Gamla gubbar med prostataproblem l\u00e4r sig att vandra upp n\u00e5gra g\u00e5nger om natten utan att sl\u00e4ppa upp sinnet i det helt vakna. S\u00e5 kanske dr\u00f6mmer jag bara n\u00e4r jag st\u00e5r d\u00e4r i f\u00f6nstret. I s\u00e4ngen en halv minut senare undrar jag men bara flyktigt. B\u00f6rjar man fundera s\u00e5 ligger man snart d\u00e4r och stirrar klarvaket. Han i stan kommer \u00e4nd\u00e5 aldrig fatta. Kommer han ut hit i o-ljuset s\u00e5 \u00e4r det bara en bagatell bland alla andra bagateller i alla fall. Han bor i staden i det konstgjorda och \u00f6vertydliga. Tror att det \u00e4r det som \u00e4r verkligheten. \u00c5tminstone d\u00e4r har han fel hinner jag t\u00e4nka innan jag somnar in igen denna f\u00f6rsta o-ljusnatt.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Hur f\u00f6rklarar man f\u00f6r honom som bor d\u00e4r mitt inne i staden? D\u00e4r, d\u00e4r ljusen fl\u00f6dar dygnet runt. Klockan \u00e4r tre. Det borde egentligen vara svart natt ute, men det \u00e4r ljust. Jag ser dragspelarens gr\u00e5a hus upplyst genom f\u00f6nstret n\u00e4r jag s\u00f6mnigt dricker lite vatten. Funderar om v\u00e5r brolampa lyser s\u00e5 starkt. 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