{"id":9893,"date":"2013-09-19T08:31:14","date_gmt":"2013-09-19T07:31:14","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/?p=9893"},"modified":"2013-09-19T08:31:48","modified_gmt":"2013-09-19T07:31:48","slug":"ibland-tittar-jag-lite-avundsjukt-pa-poeten-dragspelaren-eller-kamrat-charlie-rocker","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=9893","title":{"rendered":"Ibland tittar jag lite avundsjukt p\u00e5 &#8220;poeten&#8221;, &#8220;dragspelaren&#8221; och kamrat &#8220;Charlie-rocker&#8221;."},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/09\/heart.jpg\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-9894\" alt=\"heart\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/09\/heart.jpg?resize=498%2C750\" width=\"498\" height=\"750\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>Som o-cool gubbe blir man ofta ignorerad p\u00e5 facebook eller n\u00e4r man f\u00f6rs\u00f6ker s\u00e4ga n\u00e5got i ett annat riktigare sammanhang. Man h\u00f6rs liksom inte eller syns inte eller g\u00f6r man det s\u00e5 har det i alla fall lite mindre v\u00e4rde det d\u00e4r man g\u00f6r eller s\u00e4ger eller ger uttryck f\u00f6r. Somliga av oss \u00e4r ju som luft f\u00f6r andra, vi finns inte f\u00f6rr\u00e4n man uppt\u00e4cker att vi inte \u00e4r d\u00e4r l\u00e4ngre. F\u00f6rst d\u00e5 liksom, n\u00e4r det blir sv\u00e5rt att andas f\u00e5r vi v\u00e4rde. V\u00e4rde utifr\u00e5n betraktaren, inte f\u00f6r de vi \u00e4r. Det ing\u00e5r naturligtvis i sj\u00e4lva definitionen av o-cool gubbe det d\u00e4r antar jag. Beige och osynlig hela v\u00e4gen. Man f\u00e5r finna sig i s\u00e5nt.<\/p>\n<p>Ibland tittar jag lite avundsjukt p\u00e5 &#8220;poeten&#8221;, &#8220;dragspelaren&#8221; eller kamrat &#8220;Charlie-rocker&#8221;. De beh\u00f6ver bara ge uttryck f\u00f6r banaliteter som att &#8220;bilen startade idag&#8221; f\u00f6r att alla rusar till och upph\u00f6jer dem till genier. M\u00f6jligen \u00e4r det n\u00e5got jag inte har fattat. Jag tycker iof ocks\u00e5 att de d\u00e4r tre \u00e4r genier men kanske inte just d\u00e5, just d\u00e4r i det \u00f6gonblicket. Vet g\u00f6r jag ju ocks\u00e5 att n\u00e4stan alla de d\u00e4r som ger uttryck f\u00f6r sin k\u00e4rlek och sin beundran egentligen bara \u00e4lskar sig sj\u00e4lva och egentligen bara vill st\u00e5 n\u00e4ra det d\u00e4r stora. Jag menar befinner man sig i n\u00e4rheten av en k\u00e4ndis s\u00e5 \u00e4r man ju n\u00e4stan en sj\u00e4lv.<\/p>\n<p>Trams s\u00e5klart. Synd bara att b\u00e5de &#8220;poeten&#8221;, &#8220;dragspelaren&#8221; och &#8220;Charlie-rocker&#8221; sj\u00e4lva lever av det d\u00e4r i varje fiber. Inte kan leva utan det som \u00e4nd\u00e5 \u00e4r falskt och helt saknar v\u00e4rde. Men de lever s\u00e5klart sina liv precis som en o-cool gubbe f\u00f6rs\u00f6ker leva sitt liter mer osedda. Undrar vilket av de d\u00e4r liven som \u00e4r v\u00e4rst att leva? Det skall jag \u00e4gna dagen till att fundera \u00f6ver.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Som o-cool gubbe blir man ofta ignorerad p\u00e5 facebook eller n\u00e4r man f\u00f6rs\u00f6ker s\u00e4ga n\u00e5got i ett annat riktigare sammanhang. Man h\u00f6rs liksom inte eller syns inte eller g\u00f6r man det s\u00e5 har det i alla fall lite mindre v\u00e4rde det d\u00e4r man g\u00f6r eller s\u00e4ger eller ger uttryck f\u00f6r. Somliga av oss \u00e4r ju [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":24,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_crdt_document":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[24],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-9893","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-betraktelser"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":9436,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=9436","url_meta":{"origin":9893,"position":0},"title":"Somnar jag s\u00e5 somnar jag med ro.","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2013-09-07","format":false,"excerpt":"\u00a0 Sjunde September. 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