{"id":9370,"date":"2013-09-06T08:15:01","date_gmt":"2013-09-06T07:15:01","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/?p=9370"},"modified":"2013-09-06T08:15:01","modified_gmt":"2013-09-06T07:15:01","slug":"drommen-om-den-stora-resan","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=9370","title":{"rendered":"Dr\u00f6mmen om den stora resan"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/09\/800px-Roeselare-Franse_begraafplaats_WOI.jpg\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-9371\" alt=\"800px-Roeselare-Franse_begraafplaats_WOI\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/09\/800px-Roeselare-Franse_begraafplaats_WOI.jpg?resize=580%2C435\" width=\"580\" height=\"435\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>Jod\u00e5, \u00e4r vaken om \u00e4n lika tr\u00f6tt som n\u00e4r jag la mig ig\u00e5r. \u00c4r n\u00e5got p\u00e5 g\u00e5ng, virus som st\u00f6kar om och krigar inne i kroppen kanske eller en latent terminerande hj\u00e4rtattack p\u00e5 g\u00e5ng. Hoppas p\u00e5 det f\u00f6rra men skulle v\u00e4l kunna acceptera det andra till n\u00f6ds. Har n\u00e5gra resor kvar som jag s\u00e5 g\u00e4rna skulle vilja g\u00f6ra f\u00f6rst. En till San Francisco m\u00e5ste det bli. Med frun det h\u00e4r bes\u00f6ket, hon fick inte f\u00f6lja med f\u00f6rra g\u00e5ngen. Ta in staden som \u00e4r ett Europa i USA och sen ta caben efter havet till dr\u00f6mmarnas stad. Eller kanske forts\u00e4tta hela v\u00e4gen till New York. Ja, varf\u00f6r inte. Vi f\u00f6rtj\u00e4nar det, hela resan.<\/p>\n<p>Sen har vi den stora Europeiska resan kvar ocks\u00e5, frun och jag. Den gode poeten plockade upp den i huvudet p\u00e5 mig ig\u00e5r igen. Den vi t\u00e4nkt och funderat p\u00e5 i s\u00e5 m\u00e5nga \u00e5r. Den som skall inneh\u00e5lla b\u00e5de gl\u00e4djen och allvaret. F\u00f6rs\u00f6ket att f\u00f6rst\u00e5 det ofattbara \u00f6ver att alla kors och gravstenar i Flandern faktiskt representerar en m\u00e4nniska som var n\u00e5gons pappa\/son en g\u00e5ng och samma sak med de som st\u00e5r p\u00e5 tv\u00e5 kullar efter Frankrikes kust. St\u00e5 d\u00e4r en stund och lyssna i vinden efter orden till den vackraste visan om k\u00e4rleken&#8230; Den som kanske \u00e4nd\u00e5 aldrig var avsedd att komma p\u00e5 pr\u00e4nt.<\/p>\n<p>Det \u00e4r det d\u00e4r man vill t\u00e4nka p\u00e5, som upptar ens tankar liksom\u00a0 en whiskyflaska med det mesta av inneh\u00e5llet finns kvar i. Men flaskan skall jag tulla p\u00e5 senare, om jag inte gl\u00f6mmer bort den som f\u00f6rra veckan Resorna k\u00e4nns fortfarande l\u00e5ngt borta en s\u00e5dan h\u00e4r Septemberfredag. Det \u00e4r de d\u00e4r pengarna som vanligt. Fast det \u00e4r klart jag har ocks\u00e5 prioriterat annat, kunde ha gjort den stora resan flera g\u00e5nger i livet. Man v\u00e4ljer sitt liv \u00e4nd\u00e5. Men den har v\u00e4rde som dr\u00f6m ocks\u00e5. Man m\u00e5ste inse det.<\/p>\n<p>Men k\u00f6randes en fransk bil som n\u00e4rmar sig trettiotusen mil p\u00e5 m\u00e4taren s\u00e5 vore det v\u00e4l en fin avslutning och gest om dess sista resa fick bli hem till Frankrike igen. Den kunde rykande och gnisslande och skramlande f\u00e5 stanna och ge upp d\u00e4r i n\u00e5gon liten by p\u00e5 landsbygden, n\u00e4ra n\u00e5gon liten bar d\u00e4r \u00e4garen med vitt, inte helt rent, f\u00f6rkl\u00e4de kommer ut och fr\u00e5gar om det g\u00e5tt \u00e5t helvete. D\u00e4r han erbjuder oss att v\u00e4nta i baren p\u00e5 b\u00e4rgningsbilen och Pernoden smakar underbart efter croissanten som f\u00f6rst lugnat ner magen. Sen vandra iv\u00e4g efter den Franska byv\u00e4gen kantad av h\u00e4cken som den d\u00e4r g\u00e5ngen 1981, helt fri igen och som en som n\u00f6dv\u00e4ndigtvis inte beh\u00f6ver komma fram till ett m\u00e5l.<\/p>\n<p>Ja det \u00e4r p\u00e5 det d\u00e4r jag vill t\u00e4nka. Men st\u00e4ddag idag. Dammsugaren st\u00e5r och ropar p\u00e5 mig d\u00e4r uppe och n\u00e4r bara min tekopp verkligen \u00e4r drucken \u00e4nda ned i botten s\u00e5 skall jag g\u00e5 upp och besvara dess lockrop. Skr\u00e4mma ut katterna med dess ov\u00e4sen. Dammsugare \u00e4r on\u00f6diga v\u00e4sande monster f\u00f6r dem. G\u00f6r sig b\u00e4st avst\u00e4ngda och insatta i st\u00e4dskrubbar. Syns inte, finns inte \u00e4r katternas inst\u00e4llning till livet. Jag har l\u00e4rt mig att f\u00f6r kr\u00e5kor r\u00e4cker inte det d\u00e4r. Men \u00e5 andra sidan vet dom mindre om dammsugare \u00e4n katter g\u00f6r. 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