{"id":9367,"date":"2013-09-05T22:26:13","date_gmt":"2013-09-05T21:26:13","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/?p=9367"},"modified":"2013-09-05T22:26:13","modified_gmt":"2013-09-05T21:26:13","slug":"elva","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=9367","title":{"rendered":"Elva"},"content":{"rendered":"

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Jag brukar vara som mest koncentrerad och kreativ den h\u00e4r tiden, klockan \u00e4r bara elva, men den h\u00e4r veckan fungerar det inte, jag \u00e4r bara tr\u00f6tt och oinspirerad. Eftersom det inte finns n\u00e5gon som st\u00e5r bakom mig och peppar och talar om hur j\u00e4vla bra det kommer att bli om jag bara forts\u00e4tter lite, lite till s\u00e5 gr\u00e4ver jag bara min grop djupare och djupare och den stora inspirationen synes bara vara l\u00e4ngre och l\u00e4ngre bort fr\u00e5n mig som beh\u00f6ver den NU, f\u00f6r att orka g\u00e5 de d\u00e4r sista stegen till det man best\u00e4mmer \u00e4r “klart”, “f\u00e4rdigt”, “v\u00e4rt att st\u00e5 f\u00f6r”, “v\u00e4rt att fira”.<\/p>\n

Men det \u00e4r klart, jag unnar mig s\u00e4llan den d\u00e4r festen f\u00f6r “klart” heller, utan springer n\u00e4stan alltid iv\u00e4g p\u00e5 n\u00e4sta varv och mot n\u00e4sta m\u00e5l och n\u00e4sta “klart” och “f\u00e4rdigt” som en annan hamster d\u00e4r i sin bur. S\u00e4ger att jag \u00e4lskar det d\u00e4r men undrar vid s\u00e5dana h\u00e4r tillf\u00e4llen, n\u00e4r inspirationen \u00e4r som ett vattenfall utan vatten, varf\u00f6r man \u00f6ver huvud taget bryr sig. Det finns s\u00e5 mycket annat som vore s\u00e5 mycket enklare. Sitta framf\u00f6r TV’n och zappa, spela poker, dataspel, d\u00f6, tr\u00e4na tills alla tankar bara handlar om att f\u00e5 n\u00e4sta endorfinkick, b\u00f6rja anv\u00e4nda heroin och d\u00f6va sm\u00e4rtorna i den fullst\u00e4ndiga skiten, bli munk, eller vad som helst annat \u00e4n just detta, just nu.<\/p>\n

Men man vet ju att det inte g\u00e5r att sl\u00e4ppa det h\u00e4r. Att man bara m\u00e5ste forts\u00e4tta g\u00e5 och f\u00e5r genomlida den h\u00e4r j\u00e4vla tr\u00f6tta, oinspirerade fasen, som ju g\u00e5r \u00f6ver, alltid har gjort det och som n\u00e4r den g\u00e5r \u00f6ver fyller en med urkraften som tar en fram till m\u00e5let utan minsta lilla anstr\u00e4ngning. Bara man orkar v\u00e4nta p\u00e5 n\u00e4sta v\u00e5g att surfa p\u00e5. ORKA… Orka en g\u00e5ng till. Bara en enda g\u00e5ng till. Men f\u00f6rst sova, gl\u00f6mma och hoppas p\u00e5 att det \u00e4r imorgon det h\u00e4nder. H\u00e5lla en tumme f\u00f6r det under t\u00e4cket n\u00e4r man sl\u00e4cker lampan och sakta somnar in.<\/p>\n

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Jag brukar vara som mest koncentrerad och kreativ den h\u00e4r tiden, klockan \u00e4r bara elva, men den h\u00e4r veckan fungerar det inte, jag \u00e4r bara tr\u00f6tt och oinspirerad. Eftersom det inte finns n\u00e5gon som st\u00e5r bakom mig och peppar och talar om hur j\u00e4vla bra det kommer att bli om jag bara forts\u00e4tter lite, lite […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":24,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_crdt_document":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[24],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-9367","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-betraktelser"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":12708,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=12708","url_meta":{"origin":9367,"position":0},"title":"Det stora gula huset p\u00e5 kullen","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2014-04-05","format":false,"excerpt":"\u00a0 Det stora gula huset p\u00e5 kullen. 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