Fr\u00c3\u00a5n och med\u00c2\u00a0 idag s\u00c3\u00a5 avslutar jag “min firma” mer formellt (eforetaget.se finns kvar klart). Imorgon t\u00c3\u00a4nker jag \u00c3\u00a5ka till Ljusdal och f\u00c3\u00b6r f\u00c3\u00b6rsta g\u00c3\u00a5ngen anm\u00c3\u00a4la mig som arbetsl\u00c3\u00b6s p\u00c3\u00a5 riktigt.<\/p>\n
Det betyder att jag \u00c3\u00a4r utan firma f\u00c3\u00b6r f\u00c3\u00b6rsta g\u00c3\u00a5ngen sedan 1981 eller egentligen 1971 om man skall vara kitslig.<\/p>\n
\u00c3\u201er det sk\u00c3\u00b6nt eller inte?<\/p>\n
Mest skr\u00c3\u00a4mmande faktiskt. Var g\u00c3\u00b6r man av den d\u00c3\u00a4r entrepren\u00c3\u00b6rs delen av sig sj\u00c3\u00a4lv. Stoppar den i en p\u00c3\u00a5se och klappar till. Poff s\u00c3\u00a5 \u00c3\u00a4r den borta. B\u00c3\u00b6rjar kr\u00c3\u00b6ka h\u00c3\u00a5rt s\u00c3\u00a5 att man d\u00c3\u00a4mpar lusten att skapa. Tar livet av sig s\u00c3\u00a5 att det blir om\u00c3\u00b6jligt att k\u00c3\u00a4nna\/l\u00c3\u00a4ngta \u00c3\u00b6verhuvud taget.\u00c2\u00a0 Nja \u00c3\u00a4r nog f\u00c3\u00b6r d\u00c3\u00a5lig p\u00c3\u00a5 det destruktiva f\u00c3\u00b6r att kunna realisera n\u00c3\u00a5got s\u00c3\u00a5dant. VILL leva och k\u00c3\u00a4nna!<\/p>\n
Dock har jag ingen aning vad som h\u00c3\u00a4nder nu. Hittar jag n\u00c3\u00a5gonsin ett jobb s\u00c3\u00a5 kan jag trolla bort skulderna fr\u00c3\u00a5n konkursen 1992 som nu s\u00c3\u00a5 l\u00c3\u00a4nge varit ett ankare kring fotlederna.\u00c2\u00a0 Skuldsanering och fem \u00c3\u00a5r p\u00c3\u00a5 existensminimum sen frihet. Dvs fattig men utan skulder. Existensminimum \u00c3\u00a4r annars inte det som oroar mig. Den niv\u00c3\u00a5n har vi levt under s\u00c3\u00a5 m\u00c3\u00a5nga \u00c3\u00a5r.<\/p>\n
Fem \u00c3\u00a5r \u00c3\u00a4r ju inte s\u00c3\u00a5 v\u00c3\u00a4rst l\u00c3\u00a4nge n\u00c3\u00a4r man passerat femtiostrecket. Men det betyder att man \u00c3\u00a4r fri tidigast n\u00c3\u00a4r man \u00c3\u00a4r 57\/58 \u00c3\u00a5r. N\u00c3\u00a4r man definitivt har blivit s\u00c3\u00a5 tr\u00c3\u00b6tt (ganska tr\u00c3\u00b6tt redan nu) att det \u00c3\u00a4r om\u00c3\u00b6jligt (och oerh\u00c3\u00b6rt dumt) att starta om n\u00c3\u00a5got eget igen. S\u00c3\u00a5 det enda man kan g\u00c3\u00b6ra nu \u00c3\u00a4r att f\u00c3\u00b6rbereda sig f\u00c3\u00b6r d\u00c3\u00b6den. M\u00c3\u00a5 s\u00c3\u00a5 vara att man blir \u00c3\u00a5ttio (vilket skulle f\u00c3\u00b6rv\u00c3\u00a5na mig efter de senaste 15 \u00c3\u00a5ren) det \u00c3\u00a4r \u00c3\u00a4nd\u00c3\u00a5 s\u00c3\u00a5 det k\u00c3\u00a4nns och det \u00c3\u00a4r ju lite sorgligt att t\u00c3\u00a4nka s\u00c3\u00a5. Men fakta \u00c3\u00a4r det och det g\u00c3\u00b6r mig ledsen.<\/p>\n
Nu finns det s\u00c3\u00a5klart mycket kvar att g\u00c3\u00b6ra. Som jag skrev tidigare s\u00c3\u00a5 g\u00c3\u00a4ller det p\u00c3\u00a5 Fredag om min SweetBox g\u00c3\u00a5r vidare. Det avg\u00c3\u00b6r hur mycket tid jag kommer att l\u00c3\u00a4gga p\u00c3\u00a5 VSCP (p\u00c3\u00a5 hobby niv\u00c3\u00a5 from idag). G\u00c3\u00a5r designen inte vidare s\u00c3\u00a5 f\u00c3\u00a5r vi se om jag ens forts\u00c3\u00a4tter annat \u00c3\u00a4n f\u00c3\u00b6r eget bruk. Dags att till slut inse att ingen vill ha det is\u00c3\u00a5fall.<\/p>\n
Men det finns ju musik och annan terapi f\u00c3\u00b6r oss gamlingar s\u00c3\u00a5 livet skall nog g\u00c3\u00a5 vidare. Jag menar, klippa gr\u00c3\u00a4smattan \u00c3\u00a4r ju \u00c3\u00a4nd\u00c3\u00a5 r\u00c3\u00a4tt roligt i min \u00c3\u00a5lder… ;-\/<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Fr\u00c3\u00a5n och med\u00c2\u00a0 idag s\u00c3\u00a5 avslutar jag “min firma” mer formellt (eforetaget.se finns kvar klart). Imorgon t\u00c3\u00a4nker jag \u00c3\u00a5ka till Ljusdal och f\u00c3\u00b6r f\u00c3\u00b6rsta g\u00c3\u00a5ngen anm\u00c3\u00a4la mig som arbetsl\u00c3\u00b6s p\u00c3\u00a5 riktigt. Det betyder att jag \u00c3\u00a4r utan firma f\u00c3\u00b6r f\u00c3\u00b6rsta g\u00c3\u00a5ngen sedan 1981 eller egentligen 1971 om man skall vara kitslig. \u00c3\u201er det sk\u00c3\u00b6nt eller […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":24,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_crdt_document":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":false,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[2],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-600","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-swedish"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":639,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=639","url_meta":{"origin":600,"position":0},"title":"F\u00c3\u00b6rsta skoldagen","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2008-08-19","format":false,"excerpt":"Idag \u00c3\u00a4r det f\u00c3\u00b6rsta skoldagen i Uppsala f\u00c3\u00b6r Niklas. 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