{"id":51455,"date":"2026-03-20T18:31:35","date_gmt":"2026-03-20T17:31:35","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=51455"},"modified":"2026-03-20T18:31:35","modified_gmt":"2026-03-20T17:31:35","slug":"inte-som-forr-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=51455","title":{"rendered":"Inte som f\u00f6rr"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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Fredag, man b\u00f6rjar n\u00e4rma sig slutet. Tror det \u00e4r pizza idag. Hemgjord. Gott. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Tv\u00e5 bitar f\u00e5r man i sig numera. F\u00f6rr kunde man l\u00e4tt \u00e4tit en hel pl\u00e5t. Om man f\u00e5tt och inte beh\u00f6vt dela med andra. Men ocks\u00e5 jag ut\/av-vecklas. Glupsk \u00e4r jag fortfarande. Men inte lika glupsk som f\u00f6rr. Sk\u00f6nt ord f\u00f6rresten. Smaka p\u00e5 “glupsk” liksom.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men efter tv\u00e5 bitar och en intensiv vecka mellan tangentbord och sk\u00e4rm s\u00e5 sl\u00e5r den stora tr\u00f6ttheten till s\u00e5 fort som man sl\u00e5r sig ner i gr\u00f6n IKEA-soffa. Poof s\u00e4ger det bara sen g\u00e5r all luft ur en. N\u00e4r det var “P\u00e5 sp\u00e5ret<\/em>” kunde man luta sig tillbaks medans K tittade och samlade po\u00e4ng. Ibland kunde jag bidra fr\u00e5n min horisontella position, men oftast snarkade jag in en timme d\u00e4r s\u00e5 att man kunde anv\u00e4nda \u00e5tminstone tv\u00e5 timmar sen till n\u00e5gon skaplig film. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Nu n\u00e4r inget p\u00e5 sp\u00e5ret rullar, d\u00e5 f\u00e5r man leta upp n\u00e5gon serie. Eller film. Tvinga sig att titta i tv\u00e5 timmar med avtagande medvetandegrad. Vid tio \u00e4r man helt f\u00e4rdig. Ber p\u00e5 sina bara kn\u00e4n om att f\u00e5 g\u00e5 och l\u00e4gga sig. Ja det slutar oftast s\u00e5. F\u00f6rfall.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

F\u00f6rr, ja d\u00e5 var det andra tider. Vid tio var man som piggast. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fast det d\u00e4r g\u00e4ller mest fredagar. B\u00e4ttre andra dagar turligt nog. N\u00e4r jag s\u00e4tter mig framf\u00f6r projekten s\u00e5 kommer n\u00e4stan alltid ocks\u00e5 energin. Ibland \u00e4r det helt magiskt. Fats jag vet ocks\u00e5 att den d\u00e4r energin f\u00e5r ljuset att brinna i b\u00e5da \u00e4ndarna. Kr\u00e4ver \u00e5terbetalning i form av \u00e5terh\u00e4mtning till slut. Fredag kv\u00e4ll och l\u00f6rdag f\u00f6rmiddag har alltid varit payback-time.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Har ni f\u00f6rresten kollat in Hundarna p\u00e5 SVT. Riktigt bra faktiskt. Eller vad\u00e5 “faktiskt<\/em>“? Bra!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

N\u00e4sta vecka ter sig vara r\u00e4tt om\u00e4rkt. Inga st\u00f6rre saker som pockar p\u00e5 uppm\u00e4rksamhet. Allts\u00e5 kan jag ge mig h\u00e4n. Dyka ner i det jag vill dyka ner i. S\u00e5dana veckor \u00e4r som sm\u00e5 presenter. Ja och man tackar f\u00f6r var och en av dem som kommer i ens v\u00e4g.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

T\u00e4nk att man inte burit en enda s\u00e4ck pellets i \u00e5r. Att saker fungerat \u00e4nd\u00e5. \u00c4nnu mer att k\u00e4nna tacksamhet \u00f6ver.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Eid idag. Festligt v\u00e4rre. Men fr\u00e5gan \u00e4r om man f\u00e5r fira n\u00e4r man inte \u00e4gnat sig \u00e5t sj\u00e4lva fastan. Troligen inte. \u00c5tminstone inte med gott samvete. Men uppskattar tankes\u00e4ttet d\u00e4r. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

N\u00e5ja, man \u00e4r inte s\u00e5 religi\u00f6st lagd. Troligen \u00e4r det bra. K\u00e4nner \u00e4nd\u00e5 det. K\u00e4nner v\u00f6rdnad f\u00f6r existensen. Om alltet nu \u00e4r Gud s\u00e5 blir man v\u00e4l religi\u00f6s p\u00e5 n\u00e5got s\u00e4tt \u00e4nd\u00e5. Kan bara konstatera att jag inte vet. Respekterar liv. K\u00e4nner f\u00f6rundran \u00f6ver allt som existerar. Beh\u00f6ver ingen att h\u00e5lla i hand. \u00c5tminstone inte idag. \u00c5terkommer s\u00e4kert n\u00e5gon dag fram\u00f6ver. N\u00e4r fan blir gammal blir hen religi\u00f6s. Jag har h\u00f6rt folk ropa p\u00e5 gud som jag aldrig trodde skulle g\u00f6ra det. Insikten sk\u00e4nker \u00f6dmjukhet.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Nu skall jag g\u00e5 upp och kolla pizzal\u00e4get…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Fredag, man b\u00f6rjar n\u00e4rma sig slutet. Tror det \u00e4r pizza idag. Hemgjord. Gott. Tv\u00e5 bitar f\u00e5r man i sig numera. F\u00f6rr kunde man l\u00e4tt \u00e4tit en hel pl\u00e5t. Om man f\u00e5tt och inte beh\u00f6vt dela med andra. Men ocks\u00e5 jag ut\/av-vecklas. Glupsk \u00e4r jag fortfarande. Men inte lika glupsk som f\u00f6rr. Sk\u00f6nt ord f\u00f6rresten. Smaka […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":24,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_crdt_document":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[24],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-51455","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-betraktelser"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":19461,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=19461","url_meta":{"origin":51455,"position":0},"title":"Vinter i paradiset","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2016-01-13","format":false,"excerpt":"Temperaturen sjunker d\u00e4r ute. 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