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Tvivlet sitter p\u00e5 v\u00e4nster axel. En liten dj\u00e4vul p\u00e5 den h\u00f6gra. B\u00e5da f\u00f6rs\u00f6ker f\u00e5 en att misstr\u00f6sta, och visst h\u00e4nder det ibland att man tappar sugen, fast bara en liten stund, oftast i alla fall, men en sn\u00e4rt med en hastig v\u00e4nsterhandflata upp mot axeln f\u00e5r tyst p\u00e5 den d\u00e4r lilldj\u00e4vulen och tvivlet sitter p\u00e5 den sida d\u00e4r jag har mitt Marshall\u00f6ra och h\u00f6r d\u00e5ligt. Det g\u00e5r att ignorera. Man bara skruvar upp tinnitus lite.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Att f\u00e5 sitta d\u00e4r och se mallig ut p\u00e5 framsidan p\u00e5 den tidning som jag s\u00e4tter h\u00f6gst i landet \u00e4r s\u00e5klart lite roligt och n\u00e5got egot (men inte tvivlet och alla sm\u00e5dj\u00e4vlar) gillar. Men har varit med f\u00f6rr. En morgon f\u00f6r l\u00e4nge sedan kom K in med “tidningen<\/em>“, sj\u00e4lv sov jag den h\u00e5rt arbetandes s\u00f6mn. Men blev abrupt v\u00e4ckt av ett gapflabb och en tidningsframsida i rakt nyllet. Bild i f\u00e4rg p\u00e5 den \u00f6dmjukt undertecknande \u00f6ver hela f\u00f6rsta sidan. D\u00e5 k\u00e4ndes det som om man inte ville g\u00e5 ut p\u00e5 ett tag. Ni vet Jante och det d\u00e4r. Sen har man lugnat sig. Hur mycket man \u00e4n sk\u00e4mmer ut sig s\u00e5 gl\u00f6mmer folk fortare \u00e4n vad en annan hinner s\u00e4ga tjillevipp. Om folk ens noterar att man \u00e4r med. Det spelar ingen roll ens om det \u00e4r hela f\u00f6rsta sidan p\u00e5 en bilaga f\u00f6r vissa. Det ignoreras och ses inte.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fast n\u00e5gra tycker s\u00e5klart att man g\u00f6r sig till och \u00c4R<\/strong> m\u00e4rkv\u00e4rdig. Ja och det \u00e4r man s\u00e5klart n\u00e4r man s\u00e4ger “ja<\/em>” till en journalist som vill skriva. Fast ibland skrivs det ju \u00e4nd\u00e5. Gamle arkivbilder plockas fram. Ja eller 10-\u00e5rs\/20-\u00e5rs\/gud hj\u00e4lpe 30-\u00e5rs \u00e5terblickarna. En g\u00e5ng n\u00e4r vi sa upp oss fr\u00e5n v\u00e5ra jobb s\u00e5 hamnade jag och en arbetskamrat i krigsrubriker p\u00e5 l\u00f6pet. Men vi \u00f6verlevde det ocks\u00e5. Tror faktisk det l\u00f6pet ligger i n\u00e5gon l\u00e5da n\u00e5gonstans. Annars kastar jag det mesta. N\u00e5ja, \u00e5tervinner.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men oftast s\u00e4ger jag “nej<\/em>” nu f\u00f6r tiden till allt s\u00e5dant d\u00e4r. Men alltid “ja<\/em>” om det handlar om VSCP eller n\u00e5got annat projekt jag driver. JAG<\/strong> \u00e4r inte lika viktigt som projekten helt enkelt. Tvivlet och sm\u00e5dj\u00e4vlarna h\u00e5ller med s\u00e5klart. Jag orkar inte ens sl\u00e5 till dem l\u00e4ngre. Fast \u00e5 andra sidan tycker de att projekten kunde brinna upp och aldrig uppst\u00e5 igen ocks\u00e5. Tror att jag skall g\u00e5 upp och l\u00e4gga mig och l\u00e4sa om Island…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Tvivlet sitter p\u00e5 v\u00e4nster axel. En liten dj\u00e4vul p\u00e5 den h\u00f6gra. 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