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Ute vid garaget. D\u00f6den. Flinande som vanligt. \u00c4ter fisksoppa med god aptit ur ett s\u00e5dant d\u00e4r kinamatseng\u00e5ngspaket av energi\u00e5tervinningsbart fettindr\u00e4nkt papper. Det \u00e4r inte d\u00f6den som f\u00e5r mig att reagera n\u00e4mnv\u00e4rt. Hon och jag har k\u00e4nt varandra l\u00e4nge. Mycket l\u00e4nge. Det \u00e4r fisksoppan. Den \u00e4r ovanlig. Annars brukar det vara illaluktande roadkill som slinker ner d\u00e4r vid garaget. En gr\u00e4vling i uppl\u00f6sningstillst\u00e5nd att tugga p\u00e5. En platt hare \u00f6verk\u00f6rd av tre tusen bilar och d\u00e4rf\u00f6r mycket m\u00f6r. Ja det som hon hittat p\u00e5 v\u00e4gen hit helt enkelt. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men fisksoppa idag allts\u00e5. Kanske g\u00e5r det tolka in saker i det. \u00d6stersj\u00f6ns d\u00f6d. Eller \u00e4nnu v\u00e4rre. V\u00e4rldshavens underg\u00e5ng. Men mest troligt \u00e4r det \u00e4nd\u00e5 att d\u00f6den just denna tisdag r\u00e5kar vara sugen p\u00e5 just fisksoppa. Man m\u00e5ste vara f\u00f6rsiktig med att \u00f6vertolka. Den l\u00e4xan har jag l\u00e4rt mig sen l\u00e4nge.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Jag orkar inte g\u00e5 ut och resonera med henne idag. G\u00f6r det ibland. Det finn satt prata om. L\u00e5ter henne st\u00e5 d\u00e4r ute och flina vid garaget med sitt blonda svallande h\u00e5r f\u00f6ljsamt f\u00f6ljande vinden h\u00e4r p\u00e5 kullen som en buddhistisk b\u00f6n om fred i v\u00e4rlden. Hon brukar n\u00e4mligen ge sig efter en stund. Drypa av. Det finns andra att st\u00e5 och flina hos. De som tar henne mer p\u00e5 allvar. B\u00f6rjar darra. S\u00e5dana som blir f\u00f6rv\u00e5nade \u00f6ver att hon \u00e4r en hon. Fan, Ingmar, varf\u00f6r har du skapat bilden av att det skall vara lie och k\u00e5pa och allvarlig uppsyn, m\u00e4n som man spelar schack p\u00e5 en strand. Inte blonda kvinnor som st\u00e5r och flinar, eftersom de har all tid i v\u00e4rlden, vet att de tar en till slut, kommer tillbaks d\u00e5 n\u00e4r dedt \u00e4r dags. Men skapar man “vargtimmen”han man v\u00e4l precis som jag haft \u00e5tskilliga bes\u00f6k s\u00e5klart. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fast det folk inte vet \u00e4r att d\u00f6den kommer i alla m\u00f6jliga olika former. Det har hon ber\u00e4ttat f\u00f6r mig. Det finns b\u00e5de manliga, kvinnliga ledsagare till d\u00f6dsriket Var tror ni galna iden om strypsex kommit ifr\u00e5n egentligen. Men h\u00e4star, myggor och domherrar ocks\u00e5 s\u00e5klart. V\u00e4ntar du dig en l\u00e5ng och blek man med vitt allvarligt ansikte, en som b\u00e4r p\u00e5 en lie och \u00e4r kl\u00e4dd i svart k\u00e5pa n\u00e4r det blir dags f\u00f6r dig s\u00e5 kanske du blir f\u00f6rv\u00e5nad om det ist\u00e4llet \u00e4r en k\u00e4nguru som har just det jobbet den dan. Man f\u00e5r vara beredd p\u00e5 att \u00e4ndra sin v\u00e4rldsbild. Hela tiden.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Annars \u00e4r det sig likt h\u00e4r p\u00e5 kullen. Bra. En misslyckad gammal man ser ut \u00f6ver v\u00e4rlden. Ser d\u00f6den. Ja och \u00e4nd\u00e5 \u00e4r det bra. K\u00e4nns bra. Man b\u00f6r f\u00f6rst\u00e5 av det att andra dagar d\u00e4rf\u00f6r \u00e4r \u00e4nnu b\u00e4ttre. Men upplevde Uppsala i helgen. S\u00e5g studentikosa insparkslekar. Drogs tillbaks till det egna intr\u00e4det i den d\u00e4r v\u00e4rlden h\u00f6sten 1980. Men inga insparkslekar f\u00f6r oss. F\u00f6rsta dan en uppr\u00e4kning av namn. Sen tre timmar analys. F\u00f6rel\u00e4saren k\u00f6rde ig\u00e5ng. Jag fattade ingenting. Noll, verkligen noll. Gick hem satt hela kv\u00e4llen och f\u00f6rs\u00f6kte f\u00f6rst\u00e5. Ja och s\u00e5 h\u00f6ll det p\u00e5. Klarade tentan. Andades ut. Nya kurser. Men en stor lycka fanns det d\u00e4r. En revansch mot allt gammalt. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Jag skall nog g\u00e5 ut och fr\u00e5ga hur fisksoppan smakade \u00e4nd\u00e5. Kanske bjuda p\u00e5 en kaffe. Se om hon har sm\u00e5dj\u00e4vlarna med sig.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Ute vid garaget. D\u00f6den. Flinande som vanligt. \u00c4ter fisksoppa med god aptit ur ett s\u00e5dant d\u00e4r kinamatseng\u00e5ngspaket av energi\u00e5tervinningsbart fettindr\u00e4nkt papper. Det \u00e4r inte d\u00f6den som f\u00e5r mig att reagera n\u00e4mnv\u00e4rt. Hon och jag har k\u00e4nt varandra l\u00e4nge. Mycket l\u00e4nge. Det \u00e4r fisksoppan. Den \u00e4r ovanlig. 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