{"id":49995,"date":"2025-07-09T17:26:14","date_gmt":"2025-07-09T16:26:14","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=49995"},"modified":"2025-07-09T17:26:14","modified_gmt":"2025-07-09T16:26:14","slug":"jag-praktiserar-som-gud","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=49995","title":{"rendered":"Jag praktiserar som Gud."},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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Jag klipper gr\u00e4set. Praktiserar som han\/hon\/det\/gud i den mindre skalan av en gr\u00e4smatta i en tr\u00e4dg\u00e5rd. Det \u00e4r allts\u00e5 jag som avg\u00f6r vem om skall f\u00e5 v\u00e4xa vidare, vem som skall d\u00f6, och vem som inte skall f\u00e5 det. Miljarder gr\u00e4sstr\u00e5n. Miljoner blommor. Humlor. Skalbaggar. Myror. En padda. Ja allehanda ting. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Varje gr\u00e4s \u00e4r ett k\u00e4rt barn. En \u00e4lskad make\/maka. En mormor eller en farfar. Om man nu allts\u00e5 t\u00e4nker s\u00e5. Det enda jag \u00f6nskar i min praktik som han\/hon\/det\/gud denna dag \u00e4r att f\u00e5 en v\u00e4lansad gr\u00e4smatta. De m\u00e5 be hur mycket som helst de d\u00e4r gr\u00e4sstr\u00e5nen. Jag har sv\u00e5rt att se dem som individuella individer d\u00e4r jag g\u00e5r fram med mitt burrande vidunder till tropisk storm. Jag kapar dem ‘en mass’. Ja och om de nu \u00e4r ett k\u00e4rt barn, en \u00e4lskad make\/maka, en mormor eller en farfar s\u00e5 skapar jag sorg d\u00e4r i gr\u00e4smattan. Hur mycket sorg som helst. Och naturligtvis g\u00e5r jag d\u00e4r och \u00e4r inte dummare att jag f\u00f6rst\u00e5r att det l\u00e4r vara urj\u00e4vligt sv\u00e5rt att ha jobbet som han\/hon\/det\/gud n\u00e4r gr\u00e4smattan ist\u00e4llet \u00e4r hela universum och alla individuella individer som finns d\u00e4r. F\u00f6rbannat sv\u00e5rt f\u00f6rst\u00e5r man att det \u00e4r faktiskt. S\u00e5 sv\u00e5rt att man inte ens borde g\u00f6ra ett halvhj\u00e4rtat f\u00f6rs\u00f6k att \u00e5beropa han\/hon\/det\/gud en enda g\u00e5ng rent utav n\u00e4r behov liksom uppst\u00e5r i de m\u00f6rkaste av stunder. T\u00e4nk alla r\u00f6ster som befinner sig d\u00e4r samtidigt i ett universum. Bara gr\u00e4sstr\u00e5na borde skapa en r\u00e4tt h\u00f6gljudd k\u00f6r. S\u00e5klart \u00e4r det d\u00e5 \u00e4n mindre mening med att v\u00e4nda sig till en pr\u00e4stusling f\u00f6r st\u00f6d. F\u00f6retr\u00e4dare f\u00f6r han\/hon\/det\/gud. S\u00e5 f\u00f6rm\u00e4tet.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

N\u00e5ja. Det blir i alla fall roligare att klippa en gr\u00e4smatta om man filosoferar lite. I alla fall om man inte \u00e4r nobelprisaspirant.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Annars har dagen bjudit p\u00e5 v\u00e4rme och en himmel utan moln. En tallrik thaimat har ocks\u00e5 intagits, en vegetarisk s\u00e5dan som dessutom var helt perfekt. Sen har jag \u00e4nnu en g\u00e5ng f\u00e5tt onda \u00f6gat kastat p\u00e5 mig n\u00e4r vi skulle k\u00f6ra \u00f6ver en bro fr\u00e5n matst\u00e4llet p\u00e5 v\u00e4g hem\u00e5t. L\u00e4gger hundskr\u00e4mmar till \u00f6vriga neds\u00e4ttande attribut som kastas efter mig. Kunde ha blivit hund\u00f6verk\u00f6rare. En ny erfarenhet i s\u00e5 fall som fick l\u00e4ggas till \u00e4lg, r\u00e5djur, hare, mm<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Semestern fortg\u00e5r allts\u00e5. Livet \u00e4r gott ocks\u00e5 utan att knappa sig tr\u00f6tt framf\u00f6r datorn. Just nu k\u00e4nns det som om det h\u00e4r lediga livet bara kan forts\u00e4tta och forts\u00e4tta…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Amen<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Jag klipper gr\u00e4set. Praktiserar som han\/hon\/det\/gud i den mindre skalan av en gr\u00e4smatta i en tr\u00e4dg\u00e5rd. Det \u00e4r allts\u00e5 jag som avg\u00f6r vem om skall f\u00e5 v\u00e4xa vidare, vem som skall d\u00f6, och vem som inte skall f\u00e5 det. Miljarder gr\u00e4sstr\u00e5n. Miljoner blommor. Humlor. Skalbaggar. Myror. En padda. Ja allehanda ting. Varje gr\u00e4s \u00e4r ett […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":24,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_feature_clip_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2},"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[24],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-49995","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-betraktelser"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":21109,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=21109","url_meta":{"origin":49995,"position":0},"title":"Min gud och “Det kommer nya grannar, kycklingar och mor\u00f6tter.”","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2016-07-20","format":false,"excerpt":"Svenska kyrkan har en helsida i en av gratistidningarna som dimper ner h\u00e4r i l\u00e5dan med j\u00e4mna mellanrum. 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