{"id":49296,"date":"2025-03-17T13:58:55","date_gmt":"2025-03-17T12:58:55","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=49296"},"modified":"2025-03-17T13:58:55","modified_gmt":"2025-03-17T12:58:55","slug":"sodermanland","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=49296","title":{"rendered":"S\u00f6dermanland"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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Gubbe. Som tar igen sig. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Gubbe som burit och sl\u00e4pat hela helgen. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Gubbe som k\u00f6rt m\u00e5nga mil med fullastat stort sl\u00e4p.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Jag. Gubben. Tr\u00f6tter. Men f\u00f6rs\u00f6ker jobba, tv\u00e4tta, vattna blommor, b\u00e4ra pellets. Bit f\u00f6r bit hitta tillbaks.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Nu sitter jag h\u00e4r. Har ont i f\u00f6tterna. Ja det har jag alltid numera. F\u00f6r tung antagligen. Har lovat de stackars uppb\u00e4rarna d\u00e4r l\u00e4ngst nere att fixa det d\u00e4r alltf\u00f6r l\u00e4nge utan att lyckas. M\u00e5ste faktiskt sk\u00e4rpa mig. Avst\u00e5 fr\u00e5n semlorna. Vad det nu blir f\u00f6r mening med livet d\u00e5? Men s\u00e5 k\u00e4ndes det s\u00e5klart n\u00e4r man r\u00f6kte ocks\u00e5. Skulle det \u00f6ver huvud taget g\u00e5 att sluta? Och varf\u00f6r? Men det gick. S\u00e5 att ta sig n\u00e5gra kilo ned\u00e5t borde v\u00e4l ocks\u00e5 g\u00e5. Om man best\u00e4mmer sig och h\u00e5ller i och ut. Tycker man. Man borde allts\u00e5 f\u00f6rs\u00f6ka. F\u00f6r att f\u00e5 veta…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Att befinna sig i S\u00f6rmland \u00e4r inte s\u00e5 dumt. Mycket mer v\u00e5r d\u00e4r. Inte en sn\u00f6flinga eller rest. Det \u00e4r sv\u00e5rt att komma hem till vinter igen. Man borde ha stannat kvar. V\u00e4grat att \u00e5ka hem. Fast hem m\u00e5ste man ju. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

V\u00e4l hemma stupar man rakl\u00e5ng ner s\u00e4ngen. Vaknar skaplig tid. Hinner sitta i soffan en stund. Sen ut och lassa ur sl\u00e4pet. Bubba och b\u00e4ra. Muskler man inte visste man hade skriker sig hesa. Men tar man en sak i taget och g\u00e5r v\u00e4nda efter v\u00e4nda s\u00e5 t\u00f6mmer man till slut b\u00e5de bil och sl\u00e4p.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men sen Ljusdal. Sl\u00e4pet skall \u00e5terl\u00e4mnas. T\u00e4nker att man borde g\u00e5tt ihop n\u00e5gra stycken om ett sl\u00e4p placerat i Los. Man beh\u00f6ver ju inte s\u00e5 ofta. Men kommer sen ih\u00e5g att samarbeta har man sv\u00e5rt f\u00f6r h\u00e4r. L\u00e4gger ner tanken precis som s\u00e5 m\u00e5nga s\u00e5dana tankar efter den linjen innan den.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Med sl\u00e4p \u00e5terl\u00e4mnat, lite Vietnamesisk mat. Gott som sjutton. Rent av gott som arton. Efter en sista sv\u00e4lj hem\u00e5t. Kaffe. Soffa. Filt. Bok. Sen sover jag s\u00f6tt. Ja s\u00e5 s\u00f6tt en gammal gubbe nu kan sova. Vi \u00e4r v\u00e4l som b\u00e4st avskr\u00e4ckande.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Nu \u00e4r huset fyllt med hundra l\u00e5dor med skrot. Ja, grejer. Vi som egentligen borde skicka ut 100 l\u00e5dor. D\u00f6st\u00e4da. Men vi har ju ett stort hus. F\u00e5r plats med lite mer hela tiden. Fast jag tror \u00e4nd\u00e5 inte p\u00e5 det d\u00e4r att den som har mest med grejer n\u00e4r han d\u00f6r \u00e4r segraren. Det borde vara minst. N\u00e5ja det \u00e4r som det \u00e4r. En del \u00e4r anv\u00e4ndbart. En del till barnen. En del till Erikshj\u00e4lpen. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Nu sitter jag och dricker min dagliga kaffekopp. Njuter. F\u00e5r sitta. Lyx. Men k\u00e4nner att om jag lutar mig bak\u00e5t en stund s\u00e5 kommer jag att somna h\u00e4r i stolen. Har h\u00e4nt tidigare n\u00e5gra g\u00e5nger. Men det g\u00f6r ju inget. Har aldrig gjort. Man reder sig sj\u00e4lv. Ja och katten somnade f\u00f6r en timme sedan. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

P\u00e5 onsdag b\u00e4r det s\u00f6derut igen. Sextio ner och sextio tillbaks. Morgon till natt. Sn\u00f6, till f\u00f6rsommar, till sn\u00f6. Det \u00e4r bara de sista tre milen d t \u00e4r vinterv\u00e4glag. Tre mil d\u00e4r man konstaterar missmodigt att man har hamnat p\u00e5 fel plats i v\u00e4rlden. Inget fel p\u00e5 platsen s\u00e5klart. Felet \u00e4r hit\u00e5t. Som vanligt. Insikter och sm\u00e4llar man f\u00e5r ta.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Gubbe. Som tar igen sig. Gubbe som burit och sl\u00e4pat hela helgen. Gubbe som k\u00f6rt m\u00e5nga mil med fullastat stort sl\u00e4p. Jag. Gubben. Tr\u00f6tter. Men f\u00f6rs\u00f6ker jobba, tv\u00e4tta, vattna blommor, b\u00e4ra pellets. Bit f\u00f6r bit hitta tillbaks. Nu sitter jag h\u00e4r. Har ont i f\u00f6tterna. Ja det har jag alltid numera. F\u00f6r tung antagligen. 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