{"id":49159,"date":"2025-02-19T18:30:09","date_gmt":"2025-02-19T17:30:09","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=49159"},"modified":"2025-02-19T18:30:09","modified_gmt":"2025-02-19T17:30:09","slug":"det-gar-bra-nu-fortfarande","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=49159","title":{"rendered":"Det g\u00e5r bra nu\/fortfarande"},"content":{"rendered":"
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Alla kurvor pekar ned\u00e5t. Man borde v\u00e4l gr\u00e5ta. Men ler. Ja och d\u00e5 har man v\u00e4l \u00e4nd\u00e5 tagit sig n\u00e5gonstans. Kan man tycka. Sandkonst. Hur kan det k\u00e4nnas s\u00e5 njutningsfullt?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Nu tror ju s\u00e5klart ingen p\u00e5 det d\u00e4r. Att man inte deppar. Jag vet inte vad det \u00e4r med m\u00e4nniskor egentligen. Den d\u00e4r t\u00e4vlingen som p\u00e5g\u00e5r. Jag har alltid kommit sist, men inte fan har det k\u00e4nts s\u00e5 j\u00e4vla illa \u00e4nd\u00e5. F\u00f6r det mesta. Obruten. \u00c4nnu. Om det h\u00e5ller hela v\u00e4gen…? Nope, det vet man icke.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men saknar v\u00e4l t\u00e4vlingsinstinkten. Den man b\u00f6r ha. F\u00f6r att bli framg\u00e5ngsrik som m\u00e4nniska. F\u00f6r att vinna. F\u00e5 kurvor som pekar upp\u00e5t. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

OK<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men bor man i “Los<\/em>” s\u00e5 f\u00e5r man ganska ofta fr\u00e5gan fr\u00e5n Engelsktalande om var man bor. Ja och d\u00e5 svarar man “Lose<\/em>” och dom har liksom stenkoll p\u00e5 en redan r\u00e5n b\u00f6rjan. “Oh, yes, and in Hellsingland<\/code><\/em>” medf ett leende, sen “really!?”. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

OK<\/strong> igen.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Hursomhelst…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Kodar n\u00e4ra h\u00e5rdvaran idag. Njuter allts\u00e5. OJ<\/strong>! vad jag har l\u00e4ngtat efter detta n\u00e4r jag befunnit mig i h\u00f6gniv\u00e5v\u00e4rlden nu under alltf\u00f6r l\u00e5ng tid. Det \u00e4r \u00e4nd\u00e5 h\u00e4r jag h\u00f6r hemma. Jag m\u00e5 bo p\u00e5 en kulle, men l\u00e5ngt ner vill jag allts\u00e5 helst befinna mig i arbetet. L\u00f6dr\u00f6k och assembler. Fluss \u00e4nda ner till t\u00e5rna.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fast lite sugen p\u00e5 “musik<\/em>” igen. Att sitta d\u00e4r i studion lite mer. Skall f\u00f6rs\u00f6ka ta mer s\u00e5dan tid. Tvinga mig dit. St\u00e4mma gitarrerna ibland. Bara f\u00f6r att g\u00f6ra annat. Bara f\u00f6r att det \u00e4r skoj. Men skit kommer det ju ut som det man g\u00f6r. F\u00f6resatsen \u00e4r ju alltid en annan. Som den senaste l\u00e5ten. Gillar den.<\/strong> Men n\u00e4r jag suttit d\u00e4r och rattat ett tag s\u00e5 l\u00e5ter det illa som fan. Ja och man f\u00e5r finna sig i det eftersom h\u00e4r \u00e4r det bara jag. Solit\u00e4ren. Ja och jag kan inte b\u00e4ttre. Trodde ett tag att det gick att l\u00e4ra sig. Men har inte sett n\u00e5gra f\u00f6rb\u00e4ttringar \u00e4nnu. Snarare f\u00f6rfall.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Jo man kan hyra in folk s\u00e4ger de med st\u00e5larna… Ja och jag h\u00f6r vad dom s\u00e4ger.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men det d\u00e4r solit\u00e4ra st\u00e4ller till med mycket. Det finns ju i programmeringen ocks\u00e5. \u00c4r det ingen annan som g\u00f6r grejerna s\u00e5 m\u00e5ste man fixa det sj\u00e4lv. Fast \u00e4nnu mer p\u00e5verkar det s\u00e5klart “musiken<\/em>“. Ett svagt \u00f6gonblick lovande jag att g\u00f6ra en livespelning i sommar. Ja, ett avslut liksom. Det vore kul. Men det g\u00e5r liksom inte. F\u00f6r m\u00e5nga yttre parametrar och f\u00f6r m\u00e5nga kukar att suga av f\u00f6r att f\u00e5 till det. Klarar inte av det. Nope, det \u00e4r \u00f6ver. \u00c5tminstone det d\u00e4r. M\u00e5ngen med k\u00e4nslig sj\u00e4l runt Edsbyn tackar s\u00e4kert f\u00f6r det. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fast synd. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Nu \u00e4r det dags f\u00f6r mat igen. Det \u00e4ts en massa h\u00e4r i huset. Flera g\u00e5nger om dan stoppas det in saker i munnen. G\u00e5r skapligt med hj\u00e4lp av intaget pankreapulver fr\u00e5n n\u00e5gra stackare till grisar. Enzymer. R\u00f6vare i tarmkanaler. Ja sen skall produktionen ut genom r\u00f6ven med lagom frekvens och konsistens. M\u00e5let. Det \u00e4r inte alltid det h\u00e5ller. Men man skall lida. D\u00e5 lever man visst.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Semlor \u00e4r det f.\u00f6. alldeles f\u00f6r f\u00e5 som kommer \u00f6ver min l\u00e4ngtande mun nu f\u00f6r tiden. Detta faktum b\u00f6r \u00e5tg\u00e4rdas… <\/p>\n\n\n\n

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