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Somnar i soffan efter lunch. Ja, jag la mig ju d\u00e4r f\u00f6rst. Fick tanken att g\u00f6ra det i huvudet n\u00e4r en bit lasagne lassades in i munnen. Men somnade allts\u00e5. Lite kn\u00f6ven idag liksom. Allt det d\u00e4r kan ocks\u00e5 vara ren sl\u00f6het. Men funderar inte s\u00e5 mycket p\u00e5 det. Jag har ingen chef som vakar \u00f6ver mig. Inga krav p\u00e5 mig. Inget att bevisa. Det finns ingenting. Vill jag sova en stund mitt p\u00e5 dagen s\u00e5 g\u00f6r jag det. Man lever lyxliv. \u00c4r fri. Tror jag…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Vaknar efter en timme. Lillkatten ligger och sover i en soffa bredvid. Vi g\u00f6r det mesta tillsammans hon och jag. \u00c4r b\u00e4sta v\u00e4nner. H\u00e4mtar posten. Provnummer av kv\u00e4llsposten. Hmmmm… Hur hamnade det i v\u00e5r l\u00e5da? Men numera helt utan sociala medier kommer jag v\u00e4l l\u00e4sa den ocks\u00e5. Men gud… ja vi har v\u00e4l ingen n\u00e4rmare relation vi tv\u00e5. Hen tror inte p\u00e5 mig och jag \u00e4r lite tveksam p\u00e5 om den store guden \u00e4r bara en eller ens existerar. Men om s\u00e5. F\u00f6rst\u00e5r arbetsbelastningen. Men j\u00e4vligt besviken p\u00e5 arbetsresultatet. Var finns k\u00e4rleken? Knatte, Fnatte och Tjatte skulle nog klara biffen b\u00e4ttre. Men vem vet. Kanske klarar det gudomliga sk\u00f6tseln av v\u00e4rlden perfekt p\u00e5 n\u00e5gon annan plats i universum. En plats d\u00e4r folk \u00e4lskar varandra. Bryr sig om varandra. Kramas.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Studio i helgen. N\u00e5ja “studio<\/em>“. G\u00f6r “musik<\/em>” och \u00e4lskar det. Men ju mer jag skruvar p\u00e5 rattarna desto s\u00e4mre l\u00e5ter det. Idag som v\u00e4rst n\u00e4r jag f\u00f6rs\u00f6ker skruva \u00e4nnu lite mer. F\u00e5r ta den h\u00e4r l\u00e5ten en v\u00e4nda till tror jag. Rensa bort och b\u00f6rja om . “G\u00f6r om – g\u00f6r r\u00e4tt<\/em>” som en arbetskamrat brukade s\u00e4ga p\u00e5 80-talet. Men \u00e4lskar de d\u00e4r stunderna jag befinner mig i det d\u00e4r. Japp \u00c4-L-S-K-A-R<\/strong>. Jod\u00e5 jag \u00e4lskar s\u00e5 mycket annat ocks\u00e5. Men just i musiken h\u00e4nder n\u00e5got alldeles extra i min sj\u00e4l. Det \u00e4r kanske d\u00e4r hon\/han\/det gud befinner sig. Ja, det \u00e4r lite religi\u00f6st. De \u00f6gonblick n\u00e4r jag \u00e4r som lyckligast.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u00e5 varf\u00f6r sitter jag inte d\u00e4r j\u00e4mt s\u00e5?. Jo, jag \u00e4lskar ju annat ocks\u00e5. Att koda t.ex. Det \u00e4r v\u00e4l \u00e4nd\u00e5 ocks\u00e5 min grej. Den jag \u00e4r. Utan det skulle jag inte orkat leva. Och release just nu. Mer \u00e4n tv\u00e5 \u00e5r har jag tryckt p\u00e5 tangenter f\u00f6r att ta mig hit mot en release. Tjugofem \u00e5r om man r\u00e4knar hela projektet. Ger bort rubbet. Allts\u00e5 ren och sk\u00e4r galenskap alltsammans. Ja och det \u00e4r v\u00e4l d\u00e4rf\u00f6r det passar mig s\u00e5 bra. Galenskapen och passionen \u00e4r nu \u00e4nd\u00e5 systrar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

N\u00e5ja. M\u00e5ndag \u00e4nd\u00e5. Jag hoppas p\u00e5 den h\u00e4r veckan. Att jag f\u00e5r ut en release av det senaste till slut. Inte “musik<\/em>” d\u00e5 men kanske kan jag skruva lite p\u00e5 min nya l\u00e5t ocks\u00e5. Hursomhelst s\u00e5 \u00e4r livet gott nog idag ocks\u00e5, i alla fall f\u00f6r en gammal gubbe p\u00e5 en kulle som inte vet b\u00e4ttre.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Somnar i soffan efter lunch. Ja, jag la mig ju d\u00e4r f\u00f6rst. Fick tanken att g\u00f6ra det i huvudet n\u00e4r en bit lasagne lassades in i munnen. Men somnade allts\u00e5. Lite kn\u00f6ven idag liksom. Allt det d\u00e4r kan ocks\u00e5 vara ren sl\u00f6het. Men funderar inte s\u00e5 mycket p\u00e5 det. Jag har ingen chef som vakar […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":24,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_crdt_document":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[24],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-49078","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-betraktelser"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":28669,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=28669","url_meta":{"origin":49078,"position":0},"title":"Fabriken","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2018-05-28","format":false,"excerpt":"Det ryker fortfarande ur den runda h\u00f6ga tegelskorstenen. 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