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Befinner mig i releasetr\u00e4sket. Man vill liksom f\u00e5 ut n\u00e5got genom d\u00f6rren. Men som alla g\u00e5nger tidigare man f\u00f6rs\u00f6kt med det dyker det upp utmaningar. Utmaningar som m\u00e5ste l\u00f6sas. Allts\u00e5 jobbar jag med att l\u00f6sa dessa “utmaningar<\/em>“. Ut genom d\u00f6rren skall grejerna. Till slut. De som ringer eller vill bes\u00f6ka mig just nu har allts\u00e5 f\u00f6ga lycka i sitt v\u00e4rv. ALLTS\u00c5<\/strong>!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men s\u00f6ndag idag. En hel vecka f\u00f6r\u00f6ver. Dock bruten vecka. Tv\u00e5 halvdagar p\u00e5 h\u00e4lleberget. Men ocks\u00e5 s\u00e5dant \u00e4r till f\u00f6r att \u00f6verlevas. Eller hur? Ingen ide att irritera sig \u00f6ver s\u00e5dant.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Hur mycket pengar tj\u00e4nar du p\u00e5 det du g\u00f6r? Hur m\u00e5nga moduler s\u00e4ljer du? Hur m\u00e5nga anv\u00e4ndare finns det? Det \u00e4r s\u00e5dana d\u00e4r fr\u00e5gor som man f\u00e5r. Det skall avg\u00f6ras om man \u00e4r framg\u00e5ngsrik eller ej. Ja och eftersom jag svarar 0,0,1 eller 0,0,? p\u00e5 de d\u00e4r fr\u00e5gorna s\u00e5 bli man s\u00e5klart katalogiserad som ett misslyckande. Ja projekten man h\u00e5ller p\u00e5 med ocks\u00e5 s\u00e5klart. MISSLYCKAD<\/strong>! st\u00e4mplas det d\u00e4r i pannan med synnerligen synligt bl\u00e4ck. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Normalt, vanliga dagar s\u00e5 funderar jag inte s\u00e5 mycket p\u00e5 vad andra tycker. Jag vandrar ner p\u00e5 kontoret, k\u00e4nner efter i magen, och finns den d\u00e4r gok\u00e4nslan kvar d\u00e4r s\u00e5 s\u00e4tter jag mig och k\u00f6r vidare. Det har jag allts\u00e5 gjort i snart tjugofem \u00e5r nu med samma projekt. N\u00e5gon Marcus Persson<\/a> eller Daniel Stenberg<\/a> blir man liksom inte. Men just detta faktum g\u00e4ller faktiskt de flesta av oss. Om dom \u00e4r de d\u00e4r guldf\u00f6rgyllda kugghjulen i maskineriet s\u00e5 \u00e4r vi andra de rostiga. Skall det snurra p\u00e5 beh\u00f6vs alla sorter. Japp rostigt ocks\u00e5.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men jag litar p\u00e5 gok\u00e4nslan i allt jag g\u00f6r. Det har jag gjort hela mitt liv. Just det har f\u00e5tt mig att orka leva med mig sj\u00e4lv. Finns inte den d\u00e4r k\u00e4nslan eller om det skaver p\u00e5 annat s\u00e4tt, ja d\u00e5 drar jag. Som en avl\u00f6pning. Iv\u00e4g bara. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men visst, det har funnits tillf\u00e4llen n\u00e4r jag hoppats p\u00e5 framg\u00e5ngar f\u00f6r VSCP, eller min “musik<\/em>” eller mitt skrivande eller i annat. Men n\u00e4stan alltid har det handlat om att n\u00e5gon annan skall komma och s\u00e4ga “bravo<\/em>“. Idag n\u00e4r jag har gett upp det d\u00e4r. N\u00e4r jag har slickat i mig all sur geggig misstr\u00f6stan d\u00e5 inser jag att det d\u00e4r externa “bra” ‘et inte betyder ett skit egentligen. Gok\u00e4nslan toppar det d\u00e4r. Andra s\u00e4tter upp t\u00e4vlingarna och rangordnar. Sj\u00e4lv kan man n\u00f6ja sig med att r\u00e4kna de bra dagarna i ens liv. Dagar som inte alls beh\u00f6ver vara s\u00e5 m\u00e4rkv\u00e4rdiga. Det kan r\u00e4cka med att bara finnas.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Befinner mig i releasetr\u00e4sket. Man vill liksom f\u00e5 ut n\u00e5got genom d\u00f6rren. Men som alla g\u00e5nger tidigare man f\u00f6rs\u00f6kt med det dyker det upp utmaningar. Utmaningar som m\u00e5ste l\u00f6sas. Allts\u00e5 jobbar jag med att l\u00f6sa dessa “utmaningar“. Ut genom d\u00f6rren skall grejerna. Till slut. De som ringer eller vill bes\u00f6ka mig just nu har allts\u00e5 […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":24,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_crdt_document":"","_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2},"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[24],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-48994","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-betraktelser"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":17160,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=17160","url_meta":{"origin":48994,"position":0},"title":"R\u00e5bocken","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2015-03-20","format":false,"excerpt":"En r\u00e5bock stirrar p\u00e5 mig genom d\u00f6rren n\u00e4r jag g\u00e5r ner och fyller pellets f\u00f6r natten. 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