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Jag var v\u00e4l tolv eller tretton. Ja n\u00e5got s\u00e5dant. Ett ensamt barn har jag f\u00f6rst\u00e5tt. Fast det aldrig k\u00e4ndes s\u00e5 f\u00f6r mig. L\u00e4ste n\u00e5gonstans att frekvens och massa \u00e4r ekvivalenter. Universella konstanter trollar mellan dem. Att man kunde se p\u00e5 v\u00e4rlden som vibrerande ickeobjekt eller se den p\u00e5 det mer traditionella s\u00e4ttet , det vi vant oss vid som m\u00e4nniskor, som objekt vi kan ta p\u00e5. Att tingen upptr\u00e4der s\u00e5d\u00e4r samtidigt. Den d\u00e4r tanken grep liksom tag i min barnhj\u00e4rna. Jag var helt enkelt tvungen att cykla ut i skogen, ut till n\u00e5gra flyttblock som var kvar sedan istiden, \u00e5ngb\u00e5tarna kallades de lokalt, sitta d\u00e4r ute uppe p\u00e5 en av dem ute i ingenstans och se p\u00e5 v\u00e4rlden p\u00e5 det d\u00e4r, f\u00f6r mig, nya s\u00e4ttet att se. Det d\u00e4r knockade huvudet av mig helt enkelt. Och jag satt d\u00e4r \u00e4nda till kv\u00e4llen n\u00e4r det var dags att cykla hem igen. Upplyft. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Jag kan fortfarande f\u00f6rundras \u00f6ver materien. Att man kan sl\u00e5 handen i v\u00e4ggen och att det tar emot, k\u00e4nns h\u00e5rt och fast, trotts att det mest \u00e4r tomrum man sl\u00e5r handen emot. Eller att man kan se igenom en glasruta men inte genom en masonitskiva. Alla dessa lagar som universum \u00e4r uppbygt av och som vi l\u00e5ngsamt men metodiskt uppt\u00e4cker och f\u00f6rst\u00e5r bit f\u00f6r bit av. Sp\u00e5ren av Gud. Eller Gud sj\u00e4lv kanske. Matematiken \u00e4r \u00e4nd\u00e5 Gudarnas spr\u00e5k. Men tala inte om det f\u00f6r n\u00e4rmaste pr\u00e4st. Hen kommer aldrig f\u00f6rst\u00e5. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Jag l\u00e4ste fysik senare. Naturligt kanske. Ljuvliga guld\u00e5r i Uppsala. Men aldrig sj\u00e4lvklart f\u00f6r en s\u00e5dan som jag. I Edsbyn fanns inget av det d\u00e4r. Jag k\u00e4nde ingen som var intresserad av de mer djupa mysterierna annat \u00e4n som tungom\u00e5ltalande i en kristen gruppering. Det fanns inga l\u00e4rare som uppmuntrade vetgirighet. Ingen som visade v\u00e4gen bort och upp mot n\u00e5got mer berikande som f\u00f6red\u00f6mmen och inspirat\u00f6rer.

Men biblioteket. Tanterna d\u00e4r. Man fick l\u00e5na hur mycket b\u00f6cker man ville. Oj vad jag \u00e4lskade det. Jag sl\u00e4pade hem kassar. Tanterna log. Jag nj\u00f6t. Och min f\u00f6rundran \u00f6ver v\u00e4rldens mysterier har aldrig l\u00e4mnat mig. Jag kan fortfarande st\u00e5 d\u00e4r med den d\u00e4r WOW-k\u00e4nslan i huvudet och se ut \u00f6ver platsen d\u00e4r jag st\u00e5r och ibland n\u00e4stan f\u00f6rst\u00e5. K\u00e4nna att d\u00e4r fick jag n\u00e4stan tag i …<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Jag var v\u00e4l tolv eller tretton. Ja n\u00e5got s\u00e5dant. Ett ensamt barn har jag f\u00f6rst\u00e5tt. Fast det aldrig k\u00e4ndes s\u00e5 f\u00f6r mig. L\u00e4ste n\u00e5gonstans att frekvens och massa \u00e4r ekvivalenter. Universella konstanter trollar mellan dem. Att man kunde se p\u00e5 v\u00e4rlden som vibrerande ickeobjekt eller se den p\u00e5 det mer traditionella s\u00e4ttet , det vi […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":24,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_crdt_document":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[24,41],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-48774","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-betraktelser","category-vetenskap"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":20269,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=20269","url_meta":{"origin":48774,"position":0},"title":"Trettio \u00e5r, precis idag","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2016-05-01","format":false,"excerpt":"Idag. 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