{"id":48622,"date":"2024-11-01T09:08:35","date_gmt":"2024-11-01T08:08:35","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=48622"},"modified":"2024-11-01T09:08:35","modified_gmt":"2024-11-01T08:08:35","slug":"att-leva","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=48622","title":{"rendered":"Att leva"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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Bilden \u00e4r AI genererad<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n

\u00c4r man gammal som jag, ja d\u00e5 f\u00e5r man en influensaspruta p\u00e5 h\u00f6sten. Man anses vara k\u00e4nslig. Ja och \u00e4r s\u00e4kert det ocks\u00e5. Ja och eftersom den \u00e4r gratis s\u00e5 tar man den. Gratis \u00e4r gott t\u00e4nker jag. Hit med en spruta till. L\u00e5t dom komma, liksom. Saker borde inte bli s\u00e4mre. Ja och skulle de bli det s\u00e5 skit samma.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fast det \u00e4r mycket sjukv\u00e5rd just f\u00f6r tillf\u00e4llet. Nyttjade regionssjukhuset ig\u00e5r och skall nyttja det n\u00e4sta vecka ocks\u00e5. Ett j\u00e4vla spring. Men det har v\u00e4l med \u00e5ldern att g\u00f6ra det d\u00e4r ocks\u00e5. Man kostar som gammal. \u00c4ttestupan var inte en s\u00e5 dum ide tycker s\u00e4kert ensam politiker som sitter och h\u00e5ller p\u00e5 penningarna. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fast man vill ju leva. I alla fall nu. H\u00e4r. Just i denna stund. Hur det bli imorgon, ja det vet man ju inte. Ingen lever f\u00f6r evigt. R\u00e4tt vad \u00e4r s\u00e5 \u00e4r det slut. Men \u00e4nda fram dit, d\u00e4r och d\u00e5 k\u00e4nns det som om man vill leva.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

H\u00f6rde ig\u00e5r att en av de saker flest Svenskar \u00e5ngrar \u00e4r att de inte \u00e4gnat livet \u00e5t det de \u00e4lskar mest. Ja och \u00e5t “de<\/em>” de \u00e4lskar mest. D\u00e4r har jag varit kompromissl\u00f6s i mitt liv. Passionen har f\u00e5r vara ledst\u00e5ngen jag h\u00e5llit mig i. Ja, ja, JA, rik blir man s\u00e5klart s\u00e4llan p\u00e5 den v\u00e4gen. Men \u00e5 andra sidan s\u00e5 har jag gjort precis det jag vill, det jag \u00e4lskar. JA g\u00f6r det nu ocks\u00e5. Varje dag. Varje stund.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Kanske har jag sagt “ja<\/em>” till en spelning i sommar ocks\u00e5. Vet inte om det \u00e4r verklighet faktiskt. Allts\u00e5. om det \u00e4r n\u00e5got som blir av. Men inser att jag har ett halv\u00e5r p\u00e5 mig att f\u00e5 ihop ett kompband i n\u00e5gon form. Hur i helvete skall det g\u00e5 till? Jag som inte k\u00e4nner en enda m\u00e4nniska. Jag menar var man Lars Winnerb\u00e4ck eller Ulf Lundell s\u00e5 hade det d\u00e4r ju inte varit ett problem. Spelkamraterna stod i k\u00f6. Men nu \u00e4r man en ocool gubbe. Vem vill liksom frivilligt sk\u00e4mma ut sig tillsammans med mig p\u00e5 en scen. Hmmm… S\u00e5 t\u00e4nks det nu. Men passion det d\u00e4r ocks\u00e5. Jag \u00e4lskar att g\u00f6ra den d\u00e4r musiken. Kan kanske l\u00e4ra mig att \u00e4lska att upptr\u00e4da en g\u00e5ng till ocks\u00e5. Ja som en man, en gitarr, en scen. Det \u00e4r v\u00e4l det som \u00e5terst\u00e5r. Hemska tanke. Men har man ett lakan \u00f6ver sig borde det d\u00e4r fungera ocks\u00e5.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Hur som helst passionen. Leta den. Mitt r\u00e5d till ung som gammal som kommer i min v\u00e4g.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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