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Fredag. Den fj\u00e4rde. Vi \u00e5ker s\u00f6derut. Startar vid sex. Frukost i bilen. Tuffar p\u00e5. Orsa, Mora, R\u00e4ttvik (marknadsknallar packar upp), Borl\u00e4nge, Norberg, Fagersta. Ja Fagersta d\u00e4r f\u00e5r man en cappuccino. Det \u00e4r lag p\u00e5 det. OK i Fagersta. Jod\u00e5! Vi missar avfarten varje g\u00e5ng. \u00c5ker runt. Tillbaks. Har blivit en tradition. Men macken finns d\u00e4r till slut. Det blir kanelbulle ocks\u00e5 eftersom det nu \u00e4nd\u00e5 \u00e4r kanelbullens dag. Eller tv\u00e5 faktiskt. K vill inte ha. Det \u00e4r bara min mage som skall sv\u00e4lla ocks\u00e5 denna dag.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sen K\u00f6ping. Kungs\u00f6r, v\u00e4garbeten hela v\u00e4gen fram till Katrineholm. V\u00e4lbeh\u00f6vlig v\u00e4gf\u00f6rb\u00e4ttring. Staden. En g\u00e5ng hemma. Fast vi skall inte dit idag. Vi sv\u00e4nger av mot Ving\u00e5ker. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

En avdelning p\u00e5 ett boende. Jag lovade en g\u00e5ng att ringa ibland till mannen vi skall bes\u00f6ka. Hans mor bad mig. Han hade valt det solit\u00e4ra livet och levt det. Ensam i allt. Sj\u00e4lvvalt. M\u00e5nga och l\u00e5nga samtal har vi haft genom \u00e5ren. Mycket skratt. Mycket allvar. Nu \u00e4r hans tal n\u00e4stan borta. Alzheimers. En helvetes sjukdom. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Det tar sex timmar. H\u00e4lsingland till Ving\u00e5ker. M\u00f6r n\u00e4r man \u00e4r framme. Vi hinner tr\u00e4ffas i n\u00e5gra timmar. Vet att det betyder n\u00e5got \u00e4nd\u00e5. Att g\u00f6ra n\u00e5got annat. \u00c4ta en hamburgare. \u00c5ka runt i ett vacker S\u00f6rmland och bara se det som finns. F\u00f6r egentligen \u00e4r S\u00f6rmland vackrare \u00e4n H\u00e4lsingland. Mer l\u00e4ttillg\u00e4ngligt. L\u00e4ttare att ta till sig. K\u00e4rlek vid f\u00f6rsta \u00f6gonkastet. S\u00e5 k\u00e4nner jag nu. S\u00e5 k\u00e4nde jag d\u00e5 n\u00e4r jag bodde h\u00e4r n\u00e5gra \u00e5r. Fast riktigt lika hemma som H\u00e4lsingland blev det s\u00e5klart aldrig.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Institutionerna skr\u00e4mmer mig. M\u00e4nniskorna m\u00e5 vara hur trevliga som helst d\u00e4r. Men individen, jaget, liksom trollas bort. En sko med trasigt skosn\u00f6re g\u00f6r mig ledsen.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men n\u00e5gra timmar \u00e4r allts\u00e5 vad som hinns med. Vi skall hem igen. Hej d\u00e5. Kram. Hej igen. Vi ses igen. F\u00f6r\u00e4ndringen p\u00e5g\u00e5r i vardagen och blir s\u00e5 abrupt n\u00e4r man upplever eftersom vi inte kan h\u00e4lsa p\u00e5 s\u00e5 ofta. Tid \u00e4r bristvara. Pengar \u00e4r en bristvara. Ocks\u00e5 vi har liv som skall levas. D\u00e5liga samveten den st\u00e4ndige f\u00f6ljeslagaren.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00d6rebro. En l\u00e4ngre v\u00e4g hem men en annan v\u00e4g. F\u00f6r omv\u00e4xlingens skull. Jag \u00e4r s\u00e5 tr\u00f6tt n\u00e4rt vi kommer fram till \u00d6rebro att jag inte fattar hur jag skall orka \u00e5ka vidare. \u00d6gonlock med blybel\u00e4ggning. Men den tredje andningen tar vid just d\u00e4r. Det d\u00e4r magiska som g\u00f6r att man bara kan k\u00f6ra p\u00e5 hur l\u00e5ngt som helst. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Lindesberg, n\u00e4r det b\u00f6rjar m\u00f6rkna. Vi \u00e5ker in i centrum f\u00f6r att f\u00f6rs\u00f6ka hitta en kaffe. Men hittar inget. Orkar inte leta. Forts\u00e4tter. O\u00e4ndliga v\u00e4g genom skog och skog och skog. Mitt i inget h\u00e4nder land. Beh\u00f6ver mat. Dissar Kopparberg. Dissar Gr\u00e4ngesberg. Stannar p\u00e5 Coop i Ludvika och k\u00f6per en varsin macka, slukar, k\u00f6per ocks\u00e5 frukost till l\u00f6rdagen. Lite godis. Dricka. Tankar. Kollar luft i d\u00e4cken. Far vidare. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Borl\u00e4nge, Djurs\u00e5s, Gagnef. Insj\u00f6n, Leksand, R\u00e4ttvik (marknadsknallar sover). N\u00e5gon har k\u00f6rt p\u00e5 ett r\u00e5djur. Bilen st\u00e5r och varningsblinkar. N\u00e5gra hundra meter fram\u00e5t ligger r\u00e5djuret f\u00f6rlamat mitt p\u00e5 v\u00e4gen. T\u00e4nker stanna och dra det av v\u00e4gen. Men \u00e4ndrar mig. Det var f\u00f6r j\u00e4vligt n\u00e4r vi sj\u00e4lva k\u00f6rde p\u00e5 ett i v\u00e5ras. Orkar inte en till g\u00e5ng. Smiter fegt och l\u00e5ter andar ta hand om det d\u00e4r. Bilden av det skadade djuret som en stillbild i huvudet som jag inte blir av med.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sen Mora, Orsa, och s\u00e5 inne p\u00e5 45’an. Alla vaksamma \u00e4lg\u00f6gon p\u00e5kopplade. N\u00e4r vi sv\u00e4nger av mot Los vid V\u00e4stbacka \u00e4nnu mer alert. \u00c4lg, \u00e4lg, \u00e4lg. Hemma strax innan tolv. Stupar i s\u00e4ng och sover den tr\u00f6ttes s\u00f6mn. Dagen efter \u00e4r det som om inget av det d\u00e4r har h\u00e4nt.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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