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Jag g\u00e5r ner p\u00e5 kontoret p\u00e5 morgonen och s\u00e4ger n\u00e4stan alltid till mig sj\u00e4lv att h\u00e4r vill jag vara, att h\u00e4r trivs jag. Den d\u00e4r gok\u00e4nslan infinner sig punktligt i magen varje morgon n\u00e4r jag s\u00e4tter p\u00e5 tekokaren, loggar in och b\u00f6rjar l\u00e4sa nattens levererade mail fr\u00e5n v\u00e4rlden.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Jo allt det d\u00e4r \u00e4r r\u00e4tt l\u00f6jligt egentligen. F\u00e5nigt rentutav. F\u00f6r jag har suttit h\u00e4r s\u00e5 m\u00e5nga timmar, m\u00e5nader och \u00e5r. Borde ha tr\u00f6ttnat. Borde inte ha offrat s\u00e5 m\u00e5nga v\u00e4nner och annat liv f\u00f6r f\u00f6rs\u00f6ka realisera galna id\u00e9er. Man skulle v\u00e4l kunna se allt som ett f\u00e4ngelse ocks\u00e5. Los som en plats men befinner sig p\u00e5 i exil. Ibland t\u00e4nker jag att det h\u00e4r \u00e4r min f\u00e4ngelsecell. F\u00e5ngar med l\u00e5nga f\u00e4ngelsestraff hittar ocks\u00e5 ett hem och en trygghet i sina celler. Kanske \u00e4r allt bara ett stor j\u00e4vla straff alltihop. Han hon det gud pekar med hela handen och utd\u00f6mer straffet till en syndare. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ja till och med den d\u00e4r gok\u00e4nslan har ju n\u00e5gra forskare forskat \u00e5t fanders. Det \u00e4r fel p\u00e5 folk som k\u00e4nner s\u00e5. Det “normala<\/em>” \u00e4r att lida om man \u00e4r m\u00e4nniska. Att jag tycker den d\u00e4r forskningens slutsats \u00e4r strunt g\u00f6r mig v\u00e4l antagligen bara mer skadad, onormal, om\u00e4nsklig. Vem vill f\u00f6resten vara “normal”, vem vill ens umg\u00e5s med n\u00e5gon som \u00e4r norm och “normal<\/em>“. Nope, inte jag. Beh\u00f6ver mer av det. Fel. Kr\u00e4ver mer \u00e4n s\u00e5.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Nu t\u00e4nker jag snart vandra iv\u00e4g fr\u00e5n kontoret och det \u00e4r alltid lite “hejd\u00e5 macken<\/em>” \u00f6ver det. Ja jag l\u00e4ngtar hit igen s\u00e5 fort jag st\u00e4nger kontorsd\u00f6rren och g\u00e5r upp f\u00f6r trapporna till l\u00e4genheten. Hoppas p\u00e5 en morgondag. Vet att man inte f\u00e5r hur m\u00e5nga s\u00e5dana som helst s\u00e5 under tiden \u00e4r det b\u00e4st att f\u00f6lja passionen och tro att den d\u00e4r gok\u00e4nslan \u00e4nd\u00e5 \u00e4r v\u00e4gvisare som pekar i r\u00e4tt riktning.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Jag g\u00e5r ner p\u00e5 kontoret p\u00e5 morgonen och s\u00e4ger n\u00e4stan alltid till mig sj\u00e4lv att h\u00e4r vill jag vara, att h\u00e4r trivs jag. Den d\u00e4r gok\u00e4nslan infinner sig punktligt i magen varje morgon n\u00e4r jag s\u00e4tter p\u00e5 tekokaren, loggar in och b\u00f6rjar l\u00e4sa nattens levererade mail fr\u00e5n v\u00e4rlden. Jo allt det d\u00e4r \u00e4r r\u00e4tt l\u00f6jligt […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":24,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_crdt_document":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[24],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-48406","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-betraktelser"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":25289,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=25289","url_meta":{"origin":48406,"position":0},"title":"Man borde l\u00e4ra sig lyssna","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2017-09-06","format":false,"excerpt":"Man har ett l\u00f6jligt liv s\u00e5klart. 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