{"id":48094,"date":"2024-07-14T13:09:20","date_gmt":"2024-07-14T12:09:20","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=48094"},"modified":"2024-07-14T13:09:20","modified_gmt":"2024-07-14T12:09:20","slug":"blir-det-en-hit","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=48094","title":{"rendered":"“Blir det en hit?”"},"content":{"rendered":"
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En v\u00e4n brukar fr\u00e5ga “blir det en hit?”. Men jag vet aldrig vad man svarar p\u00e5 s\u00e5dant. Har f\u00f6r lite av den d\u00e4r t\u00e4vlingsm\u00e4nniskan i mig som har en stor l\u00e4ngtan av att st\u00e5 h\u00f6gst upp p\u00e5 pallar. Som beh\u00f6ver medaljer om halsen. tidningsrubriker och appl\u00e5der. Jag \u00e4r n\u00f6jd med sekunder, minuter, timmar, halvdagar n\u00e4r jag f\u00e5r g\u00f6ra n\u00e5got som bara \u00e4r mitt och ingen annans. D\u00e4r kravl\u00f6sheten styr. Jag kan bli helt uppfylld av tid i “studion”. Jo av att skriva och av att programmera ocks\u00e5. Men mest av tiden i “studion”. Det h\u00e4nder n\u00e5got med mig d\u00e4r. Har alltid gjort. Tror ibland att det \u00e4r en \u00e4ngel s\u00e4tter sig p\u00e5 min axel n\u00e4r jag sitter d\u00e4r, en som viska saker i mitt \u00f6ra. Det n\u00e4rmaste jag kommer han\/hon\/det\/gud allts\u00e5 i mitt synnerligen oreligi\u00f6sa liv.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u00e5 nope. Nej. Det blir ingen hit. Och skulle n\u00e5gon l\u00e5t bli det s\u00e5 skulle mitt liv bli f\u00f6rst\u00f6rt. Allt det jag gillar skulle bli utbytt mot prestations\u00e5ngest och krav. I min \u00e5lder b\u00f6r man f\u00f6r l\u00e4nge sedan ha insett att det man en g\u00e5ng var beredd att s\u00e4lja sin sj\u00e4l f\u00f6r inte \u00e4r v\u00e4rt ens en enda liten tanke av l\u00e4ngtan. Att det man trodde var guld egentligen bara \u00e4r grus.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

En v\u00e4n brukar fr\u00e5ga “blir det en hit?”. Men jag vet aldrig vad man svarar p\u00e5 s\u00e5dant. Har f\u00f6r lite av den d\u00e4r t\u00e4vlingsm\u00e4nniskan i mig som har en stor l\u00e4ngtan av att st\u00e5 h\u00f6gst upp p\u00e5 pallar. Som beh\u00f6ver medaljer om halsen. tidningsrubriker och appl\u00e5der. Jag \u00e4r n\u00f6jd med sekunder, minuter, timmar, halvdagar n\u00e4r […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":24,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2},"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[24,9],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-48094","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-betraktelser","category-musik"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":36891,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=36891","url_meta":{"origin":48094,"position":0},"title":"N\u00e4r jag g\u00e5r f\u00f6rbi","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2020-11-21","format":false,"excerpt":"Ute, fast inne \u00e4nd\u00e5, i det jag fortfarande kallar \"studion\", h\u00e4nger dom. 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