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Nope det \u00e4r inte T\u00f6rnrosa som \u00e4r tr\u00f6ttast idag, det \u00e4r jag. Ja och r\u00e4ddande prinsar undanbedes i alla dess varianter. F\u00f6r att r\u00e5da bot p\u00e5 det d\u00e4r s\u00e5 sover jag en timme p\u00e5 soffan h\u00e4r p\u00e5 eftermiddagen. F\u00f6rhoppningen \u00e4r att den \u00e5tg\u00e4rden skall ta mig upp ur detta t\u00f6rnrosas\u00f6mnaktiga tillst\u00e5nd jag befinner mig i. K\u00e4nns i alla fall som ett vettigt f\u00f6rs\u00f6k.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Annars, allt gott. Katterna verkar glada att se oss hemma igen. Aldrig har de varit mer keliga \u00e4n nu. Japp, det blev lite l\u00e4ngre bortavaro \u00e4n vad som \u00e4r riktigt och vettigt. Ja rent utav olagligt enligt djurskyddslagarna. Men ibland st\u00f6r tvungenheten och n\u00f6den \u00f6ver lagen. Det vet till och med varje domstol och varje domare som inte \u00e4r dummare \u00e4n en sten. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Varje g\u00e5ng borta fr\u00e5n kontoret \u00e4r det musiken som saknas mig mest. Det blir helt enkelt ingen musik ute p\u00e5 v\u00e4garna. Jo radio. Men “musik<\/em>” allts\u00e5 \u00e4r det jag pratar om. Den sl\u00e4tstrukna sm\u00f6rja som radion f\u00f6r det mesta presterar nu f\u00f6r tiden f\u00e5r liksom aldrig ig\u00e5ng h\u00f6gerf\u00f6tter alls. Ett minimikrav om du fr\u00e5gar mig. S\u00e5 nu k\u00f6r vi h\u00f6gerfotsstimulerandemusik p\u00e5 h\u00f6g volym s\u00e5 att man h\u00f6r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Doktorn svarar brevledes idag att alla prov \u00e4r normala. Man f\u00e5r allts\u00e5 lita p\u00e5 det \u00e4ven om “socker<\/em>” d\u00e5 ligger under l\u00e4gsta “normala<\/em>” niv\u00e5n precis som kolesterolen. Det \u00e4r han som \u00e4r expert. D\u00f6r man av orsaken till det d\u00e4r g\u00f6r man s\u00e4kert en avvikelseanm\u00e4lan. D\u00e4rmed f\u00e5r man k\u00e4nna sig n\u00f6jd och \u00e5terg\u00e5 till sitt lugn.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Femhundra sp\u00e4nn blir det f\u00f6r blodprov och f\u00f6r att klippa bort den d\u00e4r utv\u00e4xten p\u00e5 ryggen. Det \u00e4r iof billigt d\u00e4r jag befinner mig idag, men hade varit dyrt och en trolig anledning till att hoppa \u00f6ver det d\u00e4r f\u00f6r bara n\u00e5gra \u00e5r sedan. Tycker det \u00e4r J\u00c4VLIGT<\/strong> synd att avgifterna smyger sig in i en “fri v\u00e5rd<\/em>“. Det demonteras utav bara helvete just nu det \u00e4r som \u00e4r bra och viktigt. “Jag<\/em>” har tagit \u00f6ver “vi<\/em>” liksom<\/strong>. Personligen tycker jag “vi<\/em>” \u00e4r f\u00f6rbannat mycket vackrare \u00e4n “jag<\/em>“. “Vi<\/em>” som i VICTORY<\/strong> liksom. Men s\u00e4g det till en jag-\u00e4lskare. Hen fattar ingenting, tror att “vi<\/em>” hotas av “dom<\/em>“. “Dom<\/em>” som \u00e4r “vi<\/em>” allts\u00e5, och alltid varit det.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Har en ny l\u00e5t som ligger och puttar. Skulle v\u00e4l egentligen g\u00f6ra den klar. Borde. Inte f\u00f6r att det spelar n\u00e5gon roll alls f\u00f6r m\u00e4nskligheten och inte ens f\u00f6r mig. Men l\u00e5tar vill liksom bli klara, de har egna k\u00e4nslor och vilja p\u00e5 det viset. Sj\u00e4lv f\u00f6ljer man med. Slav under hantverket. N\u00e4r en l\u00e5t \u00e4r klar b\u00f6rjar arbetet med n\u00e4sta. Slut bara n\u00e4r man ligger d\u00e4r d\u00f6d.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men jag har kod att skriva. Det \u00e4r v\u00e4l ungef\u00e4r samma sak med den som med musikmakeriet. Det finns alltid mer att g\u00f6ra. Varf\u00f6r<\/strong> (?) pl\u00e5gar mig ocks\u00e5 en hel del. Men troligen kommer jag aldrig finna svaret p\u00e5 den fr\u00e5gan men vandrar vidare (pl\u00e5gad) \u00e4nd\u00e5.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Liksom<\/strong>.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Nope det \u00e4r inte T\u00f6rnrosa som \u00e4r tr\u00f6ttast idag, det \u00e4r jag. Ja och r\u00e4ddande prinsar undanbedes i alla dess varianter. F\u00f6r att r\u00e5da bot p\u00e5 det d\u00e4r s\u00e5 sover jag en timme p\u00e5 soffan h\u00e4r p\u00e5 eftermiddagen. F\u00f6rhoppningen \u00e4r att den \u00e5tg\u00e4rden skall ta mig upp ur detta t\u00f6rnrosas\u00f6mnaktiga tillst\u00e5nd jag befinner mig i. 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