{"id":47342,"date":"2024-03-17T17:33:37","date_gmt":"2024-03-17T16:33:37","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=47342"},"modified":"2024-03-17T17:33:37","modified_gmt":"2024-03-17T16:33:37","slug":"nu-10","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=47342","title":{"rendered":"&#8220;Nu!?&#8221;"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"580\" height=\"435\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/03\/IMG_20240317_1713152.jpg?resize=580%2C435&#038;ssl=1\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-47343\" srcset=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/03\/IMG_20240317_1713152-scaled.jpg?resize=1024%2C768&amp;ssl=1 1024w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/03\/IMG_20240317_1713152-scaled.jpg?resize=300%2C225&amp;ssl=1 300w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/03\/IMG_20240317_1713152-scaled.jpg?resize=768%2C576&amp;ssl=1 768w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/03\/IMG_20240317_1713152-scaled.jpg?resize=1536%2C1152&amp;ssl=1 1536w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/03\/IMG_20240317_1713152-scaled.jpg?resize=2048%2C1536&amp;ssl=1 2048w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/03\/IMG_20240317_1713152-scaled.jpg?resize=1200%2C900&amp;ssl=1 1200w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/03\/IMG_20240317_1713152-scaled.jpg?resize=1980%2C1485&amp;ssl=1 1980w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/03\/IMG_20240317_1713152-scaled.jpg?w=1740&amp;ssl=1 1740w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 580px) 100vw, 580px\" \/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Jag fick den d\u00e4r bilden som sitter p\u00e5 muren i &#8220;<em>studion<\/em>&#8221; av v\u00e5r trummis &#8220;<em>follan<\/em>&#8221; f\u00f6r en massa \u00e5r sedan. Ett minne fr\u00e5n f\u00f6rr som har f\u00e5tt h\u00e4nga med fram till &#8220;<em>nu<\/em>&#8220;. Det har funnits tider i livet n\u00e4r jag f\u00e5tt f\u00f6r mig att jag var lyckligare d\u00e5 \u00e4n &#8220;<em>nu<\/em>&#8220;. Men n\u00e4r jag har gett mig tid att t\u00e4nka p\u00e5 saken s\u00e5 har jag alltid kommit fram till att s\u00e5 \u00e4r det s\u00e5klart inte. &#8220;<em>Nu<\/em>&#8221; \u00e4r den tid n\u00e4r allt h\u00e4nder. &#8220;<em>D\u00e5<\/em>&#8221; vara bara &#8220;<em>d\u00e5<\/em>&#8220;. Lycka kan bara finnas &#8220;<em>nu<\/em>&#8220;. Fast man kanske inbillar sig att den fanns &#8220;<em>d\u00e5<\/em>&#8220;. Slarvar sig in i konstiga labyrinter med sina virrande tankar och hittar aldrig ut igen till verkligheten.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">S\u00e5 det som h\u00e4nder i &#8220;<em>studion<\/em>&#8221; h\u00e4nder &#8220;<em>nu<\/em>&#8220;. Det jag g\u00f6r h\u00e4r g\u00f6r jag inte f\u00f6r att andra skall gilla det. 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