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Det enda hoppet om ljusning just nu \u00e4r semeldagen imorgon. Fast nu n\u00e4r Backa-Jan inte \u00e4r med oss l\u00e4ngre s\u00e5 \u00e4r v\u00e4l det ocks\u00e5 ett f\u00e5f\u00e4ngt hopp. Annars kunde man vara s\u00e4ker p\u00e5 att han d\u00f6k upp med en p\u00e5se eller l\u00e5da som var fylld med l\u00e4ckerheter. “Karin skall ha en hon ocks\u00e5…”. Fast \u00e5 andra sidan blev det semlor i plural i helgen s\u00e5 jag har inget alls att klaga p\u00e5. Ja utom p\u00e5 “hoppet<\/em>” d\u00e5 som verkar ha f\u00f6rsvunnit all v\u00e4rldens v\u00e4g.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Det k\u00e4nns som en resa l\u00e5ngt bort till en stad som man aldrig varit i skulle vara den enda m\u00f6jliga l\u00f6sningen f\u00f6r att \u00e5terfinna “hoppet<\/em>“. Ibland \u00e4r det liksom det enda som hj\u00e4lper. Att ge sig iv\u00e4g. Se och upplever n\u00e5got annat. H\u00e4mta kraft ur det ok\u00e4nda.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fast m\u00e5ndag \u00e4r det ju. Den b\u00e4sta av dagar normalt. F\u00f6rs\u00f6ker intala mig det men just denna m\u00e5ndag hj\u00e4lper inte ens det.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Noterade att flera personer lyfte och hejade p\u00e5 Engmans Kapell under l\u00f6rdagen utan att de ens hade h\u00f6rt l\u00e5ten.?En skitl\u00e5t som f\u00f6rtj\u00e4nade den d\u00e4r jumboplatsen f\u00f6r att det var och \u00e4r just en skitl\u00e5t. Nope det inneb\u00e4r inte att Engmans \u00e4r ett skitband. F\u00f6r det \u00e4r dom inte. Inte m\u00e4nniskorna det best\u00e5r av heller som \u00e4r mycket duktiga musiker. Men l\u00e5ten, om man nu ger sig tid att lyssna p\u00e5 den, \u00e4r en kalkon och inget annat. Nu h\u00f6r jag de sura spyorna – “men dina l\u00e5tar d\u00e5, \u00e4r de b\u00e4ttre?<\/em>“. Nope, s\u00e4kert inte. Men det har inget med saken att g\u00f6ra. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fast av det d\u00e4r tappar jag helt f\u00f6rtroendet f\u00f6r m\u00e4nskligheten. Fyfan f\u00f6r m\u00e4nsklig dumhet!<\/em><\/strong> Inte ens kommunens musiker v\u00e5gar s\u00e4ga sina innersta tankar om skitl\u00e5ten med n\u00e5gon slags missriktad kollegialitet. ALLA (utan undantag) jamsar med. Blir en del av en m\u00e4nsklighet man k\u00e4nner missmod \u00f6ver, eller kanske \u00e4r de bara fega kr\u00e4k som vanligt.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Skit samma. Fast det g\u00e5r liksom inte riktigt att kasta av sig dumhetens gegga. Den liksom klibbar sig fast i hj\u00e4rnan p\u00e5 en s\u00e5dan som mig som nybl\u00f6dd kletig k\u00e5da. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Kanske \u00e4r l\u00f6sningen att g\u00e5 upp f\u00f6r trapporna, l\u00e4gga sig i soffan, och somna in. Ligga d\u00e4r och hoppas att v\u00e4rlden \u00e4r b\u00e4ttre n\u00e4r man vaknar upp igen. Men sannolikheten… l\u00e5g p\u00e5 sin h\u00f6jd. \u00c4nnu mer troligt helt obefintlig. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fast s\u00f6kande efter “hoppet<\/em>” d\u00e5. Men man skulle kunna st\u00e4da kontoret. Det beh\u00f6vs<\/span>. Eller skruva ihop en dator.?Ja eller bara forts\u00e4tta att sitta h\u00e4r och stirra…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Det enda hoppet om ljusning just nu \u00e4r semeldagen imorgon. Fast nu n\u00e4r Backa-Jan inte \u00e4r med oss l\u00e4ngre s\u00e5 \u00e4r v\u00e4l det ocks\u00e5 ett f\u00e5f\u00e4ngt hopp. Annars kunde man vara s\u00e4ker p\u00e5 att han d\u00f6k upp med en p\u00e5se eller l\u00e5da som var fylld med l\u00e4ckerheter. “Karin skall ha en hon ocks\u00e5…”. 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