{"id":46661,"date":"2023-12-10T20:49:14","date_gmt":"2023-12-10T19:49:14","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=46661"},"modified":"2023-12-10T20:49:14","modified_gmt":"2023-12-10T19:49:14","slug":"i-armligheten","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=46661","title":{"rendered":"I \u00c4rmligheten"},"content":{"rendered":"
\n
\"close
Photo by RDNE Stock project on Pexels.com<\/a><\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<\/div>\n\n\n

Lite \u00e4rmlig idag. Ja ig\u00e5r ocks\u00e5. Skulle egentligen st\u00f6dg\u00e5tt p\u00e5 kyrkokonsert som god kamrat h\u00e5ller i men det fick bli st\u00f6ds\u00f6mn ist\u00e4llet. K\u00e4nner helt klart ett motst\u00e5nd mot den kyrkliga v\u00e4rlden \u00e4nd\u00e5. Det d\u00e4r \u00e4r Edsbyns fel. F\u00f6r mycket kyrkor. F\u00f6r mycket religi\u00f6sa m\u00e4nniskor. F\u00f6r mycket ondska i k\u00e4rleksreligionens namn. Klarar inte av det d\u00e4r. Troligen g\u00f6r inte han\/hon\/det\/gud det heller. Men till skillnad fr\u00e5n pr\u00e4stuslingar t\u00e4nker inte jag f\u00f6rs\u00f6ka f\u00f6ra han\/hon\/det’s\/gud’s talan i den fr\u00e5gan eller n\u00e5gon annan fr\u00e5ga. “I guds namn f\u00f6rl\u00e5ter jag eder<\/em>“. Herregud s\u00e5dant storhetsvansinne en m\u00e4nniska m\u00e5ste besitta f\u00f6r att kunna s\u00e4ga det med n\u00e5gon slags \u00f6vertygelse.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Det blir allts\u00e5 en synnerligen lugn helg h\u00e4r p\u00e5 kullen. De enda anstr\u00e4ngningarna \u00e4r sn\u00f6skottning och pelletsfyllande som alltid m\u00e5ste klaras av oavsett m\u00e5ende. Men i allt det andra allts\u00e5. Inga st\u00f6rre svettdroppar uts\u00f6ndrade fr\u00e5n den h\u00e4r kroppen.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Nu har lill-katten och jag f\u00f6rflyttat oss ner till kontoret.?Vi m\u00e5ste f\u00f6rs\u00f6ka lite \u00e4nd\u00e5. Men s\u00e5 mycket blir det inte. Lill-katten har f\u00f6rresten redan somnat. Jag g\u00f6r v\u00e4l det jag snart med.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men nya tag imorgon. Varf\u00f6r inte. S\u00e5 l\u00e4nge man finns och lever. Nya tag. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Lite \u00e4rmlig idag. Ja ig\u00e5r ocks\u00e5. Skulle egentligen st\u00f6dg\u00e5tt p\u00e5 kyrkokonsert som god kamrat h\u00e5ller i men det fick bli st\u00f6ds\u00f6mn ist\u00e4llet. K\u00e4nner helt klart ett motst\u00e5nd mot den kyrkliga v\u00e4rlden \u00e4nd\u00e5. Det d\u00e4r \u00e4r Edsbyns fel. F\u00f6r mycket kyrkor. F\u00f6r mycket religi\u00f6sa m\u00e4nniskor. F\u00f6r mycket ondska i k\u00e4rleksreligionens namn. Klarar inte av det d\u00e4r. […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":24,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_crdt_document":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[24],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-46661","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-betraktelser"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":11462,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=11462","url_meta":{"origin":46661,"position":0},"title":"Om han\/hon\/det\/gud","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2013-12-19","format":false,"excerpt":"Man kan tro p\u00e5 mycket. Kan bli h\u00e5nad f\u00f6r det man tro p\u00e5 eller f\u00e5 efterf\u00f6ljare som vill tro p\u00e5 samma sak. Har man ingenting s\u00e5 \u00e4r man ingenting heller. Jag har upplevt gudsf\u00f6rnekare som ropar p\u00e5 gud och ber om n\u00e5d n\u00e4r cancersm\u00e4rtorna s\u00e4tter in. L\u00e4ngre r\u00e4cker oftast inte\u2026","rel":"","context":"In "Betraktelser & Ber\u00e4ttelse"","block_context":{"text":"Betraktelser & Ber\u00e4ttelse","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?cat=24"},"img":{"alt_text":"stj\u00e4rna","src":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/12\/stj%C3%A4rna.jpg?resize=350%2C200","width":350,"height":200},"classes":[]},{"id":9656,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=9656","url_meta":{"origin":46661,"position":1},"title":"Diskutera lite med hon\/han\/det\/gud s\u00e5h\u00e4r p\u00e5 eftermiddagen","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2013-09-11","format":false,"excerpt":"Kanske \u00e4r det bara n\u00e4r man ligger d\u00e4r och skriker av sm\u00e4rta eller n\u00e4r v\u00e4rlden rasar fullst\u00e4ndigt som hon\/han\/det\/gud verkligen sitter d\u00e4r bredvid en och vill resonera. Resten av tiden har han\/hon\/det\/gud inte riktigt tid med oss vanliga. Har fullt upp med de som dr\u00e4per, krigar, pl\u00e5gar och v\u00e5ldtar i\u2026","rel":"","context":"In "Betraktelser & Ber\u00e4ttelse"","block_context":{"text":"Betraktelser & Ber\u00e4ttelse","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?cat=24"},"img":{"alt_text":"horisont","src":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/08\/horisont.jpg?resize=350%2C200","width":350,"height":200,"srcset":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/08\/horisont.jpg?resize=350%2C200 1x, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/08\/horisont.jpg?resize=525%2C300 1.5x"},"classes":[]},{"id":22905,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=22905","url_meta":{"origin":46661,"position":2},"title":"En cello och d\u00f6den","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2017-01-17","format":false,"excerpt":"En cellist som tar samma ton rej\u00e4lt falskt vid varje passage f\u00e5r de att sk\u00e4ra sig i mig som om kockknivar strimlade huden p\u00e5 mina armar och g\u00f6r det o\u00e4ndligt l\u00e5ngsamt och jag f\u00f6rbannar ett absolut geh\u00f6r. Det \u00e4r inget litet felspel (eller \u00e4r det en felst\u00e4md str\u00e4ng?) och hon\u2026","rel":"","context":"In "Betraktelser & Ber\u00e4ttelse"","block_context":{"text":"Betraktelser & Ber\u00e4ttelse","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?cat=24"},"img":{"alt_text":"","src":"","width":0,"height":0},"classes":[]},{"id":11682,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=11682","url_meta":{"origin":46661,"position":3},"title":"\u00c4ntligen pratar det\/han\/hon\/gud till mig","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2014-01-16","format":false,"excerpt":"Jag st\u00e5r d\u00e4r bredvid han\/hon\/det\/gud. Han\/hon\/det\/gud som aldrig n\u00e5gonsin har velat f\u00f6ra en dialog med mig tidigare. Jod\u00e5, nog i helvete har jag f\u00f6rs\u00f6kt f\u00e5 ig\u00e5ng den d\u00e4r dialogen. Vi \u00e4r s\u00e5klart d\u00e4r och f\u00f6rs\u00f6ker finna tr\u00f6st vi otrogna ocks\u00e5 bara livet blir tillr\u00e4ckligt j\u00e4vligt. N\u00e4r kroppen v\u00e4rker utan gr\u00e4ns,\u2026","rel":"","context":"In "Betraktelser & Ber\u00e4ttelse"","block_context":{"text":"Betraktelser & Ber\u00e4ttelse","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?cat=24"},"img":{"alt_text":"gud-skapade-manniskan-1285149345","src":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/01\/gud-skapade-manniskan-1285149345.jpg?resize=350%2C200","width":350,"height":200},"classes":[]},{"id":45610,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=45610","url_meta":{"origin":46661,"position":4},"title":"Gud","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2023-07-31","format":false,"excerpt":"Photo by Spoortesh Honey on Pexels.com Gud tror jag bara p\u00e5 n\u00e4r det g\u00e5r \u00e5t helvete. D\u00e5 faller jag p\u00e5 kn\u00e4, kn\u00e4pper h\u00e4nderna, b\u00f6jer huvudet och ber (innerligt) om n\u00e5d. Ja om en l\u00f6sning ocks\u00e5 kanske. Om jag tror det finns n\u00e5gon s\u00e5dan. Lite l\u00e4mpligt s\u00e5d\u00e4r. Kn\u00e4ppta h\u00e4nder p\u00e5 amerikansk\u2026","rel":"","context":"In "Swedish"","block_context":{"text":"Swedish","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?cat=2"},"img":{"alt_text":"photo of monumental sculpture","src":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/07\/pexels-photo-3810915.jpeg?resize=350%2C200&ssl=1","width":350,"height":200,"srcset":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/07\/pexels-photo-3810915.jpeg?resize=350%2C200&ssl=1 1x, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/07\/pexels-photo-3810915.jpeg?resize=525%2C300&ssl=1 1.5x, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/07\/pexels-photo-3810915.jpeg?resize=700%2C400&ssl=1 2x"},"classes":[]},{"id":16194,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=16194","url_meta":{"origin":46661,"position":5},"title":"IS krigare och han den d\u00e4r Ulf Lundell","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2015-01-18","format":false,"excerpt":"En helg som \u00e4r till enda snart. Jag sover l\u00e4nge i soffan p\u00e5 morgonen. Vaknar f\u00f6rst halv \u00e5tta och tror att klockan \u00e4r tre. Halvsover, \u00e4ter frukost, sl\u00f6tittar p\u00e5 morgontv.\u00a0 Tar igen det d\u00e4r beh\u00f6vliga allts\u00e5 som nattens obrutna s\u00f6mn tydligen inte gett mig. L\u00e4ser en stund och somnar sedan\u2026","rel":"","context":"In "Betraktelser & Ber\u00e4ttelse"","block_context":{"text":"Betraktelser & Ber\u00e4ttelse","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?cat=24"},"img":{"alt_text":"014","src":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/12\/014-1024x768.jpg?resize=350%2C200","width":350,"height":200,"srcset":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/12\/014-1024x768.jpg?resize=350%2C200 1x, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/12\/014-1024x768.jpg?resize=525%2C300 1.5x"},"classes":[]}],"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p68PL2-c8B","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/46661","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/24"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=46661"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/46661\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":46663,"href":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/46661\/revisions\/46663"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=46661"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=46661"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=46661"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}