{"id":4615,"date":"2013-03-15T10:59:21","date_gmt":"2013-03-15T09:59:21","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.eurosource.se\/akhe\/wordpress\/?p=4615"},"modified":"2013-03-15T14:28:17","modified_gmt":"2013-03-15T13:28:17","slug":"den-ar-min","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=4615","title":{"rendered":"Tavlan \u00e4r min. Ingen annans."},"content":{"rendered":"

\"tavlan\"<\/a><\/p>\n

Dom flesta jag k\u00e4nner bryr sig s\u00e5klart inte om en solstr\u00e5le som lyser upp en liten lapp p\u00e5 en anslagstavla. Speciellt inte om den inte \u00e4r deras. Kanske blir dom nyfiken p\u00e5 det som st\u00e5r p\u00e5 den lilla lappen. Ljusstr\u00e5len \u00e4r ju bara solen, \u00c5tta minuter bort. Den \u00e4r ju d\u00e4r varje dag. Man kan ju se den imorgon ocks\u00e5. F\u00f6r vanlig f\u00f6r att v\u00e4cka genuint intresse.<\/p>\n

P\u00e5 lappen st\u00e5r det “Ha en bra dag. Jag \u00c4lskar dig!” med utropstecken och allt. Bl\u00e5. PostIt kopia. Fastn\u00e5lad p\u00e5 anslagstavlan med ett h\u00e4ftstift som levt sitt liv hos gamla tanter i T\u00e4by. Sitter d\u00e4r bredvid en bild p\u00e5 henne som skrev den. Hon \u00e4r vacker d\u00e5 som nu.<\/p>\n

En d\u00f6d katt – som dock levde och var \u00e4lskad n\u00e4r bilden togs – sitter en bit nedanf\u00f6r. Ett l\u00f6v fr\u00e5n l\u00f6nnen. N\u00e5gra pins. En sorgsen teckning.<\/p>\n

L\u00e4ngst ner p\u00e5 tavlan sitter bilden p\u00e5 mannen med dragspelet. G\u00f6sta. Hans ansikte ser pl\u00e5gat ut. Han \u00e4r gammal. Han som r\u00f6rde sig p\u00e5 Visb\u00e5ten i Stockholm med Jejja och Sid. \u00c4gde karusell p\u00e5 skansen. Hade en r\u00f6d sportbil. M\u00e5lade underbara tavlor. K\u00e4nde depressionernas innersta v\u00e4sen men ocks\u00e5 det maniska i himelsk gl\u00e4dje. Han som sl\u00e4kten upplevde som besv\u00e4rlig. Som jag hade musiken gemensam med. Nu finns bara bilden och tv\u00e5 dragspel i min studio kvar efter honom. Tills min tid ocks\u00e5 \u00e4r ute.<\/p>\n

Allt det d\u00e4r bara sitter d\u00e4r. Bleks av solstr\u00e5len. F\u00f6ljer med \u00e5ren. Kommer att plockas ner en dag n\u00e4r jag \u00e4r borta. Kanske tidigare. Vem vet s\u00e5dant? Kanske sparas ett fotografi. Men troligare \u00e4r att hela rasket hamnar i pappersinsamlingen. Men det \u00e4r v\u00e4l s\u00e5 det skall vara. Tavlan \u00e4r min. Ingen annans. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Dom flesta jag k\u00e4nner bryr sig s\u00e5klart inte om en solstr\u00e5le som lyser upp en liten lapp p\u00e5 en anslagstavla. Speciellt inte om den inte \u00e4r deras. Kanske blir dom nyfiken p\u00e5 det som st\u00e5r p\u00e5 den lilla lappen. Ljusstr\u00e5len \u00e4r ju bara solen, \u00c5tta minuter bort. Den \u00e4r ju d\u00e4r varje dag. 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