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Jag t\u00e4nker “tisdag<\/em>” fast det \u00e4r “onsdag”. Men det \u00e4r v\u00e4l inte s\u00e5 noga. Man \u00e4r pension\u00e4r. Det kunde vara l\u00f6rdag ocks\u00e5 utan att det spelade n\u00e5gon roll. Egentligen. Liksom<\/strong>.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

K\u00e4mpar mycket med synen just nu. De d\u00e4r gr\u00e5 fonterna som er\u00f6vrade v\u00e4rlden f\u00f6re den f\u00f6rra operationen \u00e4r tillbaks igen. “Varf\u00f6r i helvete anv\u00e4nder alla gr\u00e5 fonter<\/em>” mumlar jag f\u00f6r mig sj\u00e4lv. Nu som d\u00e5. Fast skillnaden nu \u00e4r att jag minns hur det var dagen efter operationen n\u00e4r jag kom ner till kontoret. F\u00e4rger och inte en gr\u00e5 font p\u00e5 vit bakgrund s\u00e5 l\u00e5ngt \u00f6gat n\u00e5dde. Ja till och med huset var omm\u00e5lat gult och fint.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men det \u00e4r drygt att f\u00f6rs\u00f6ka se n\u00e4r just behovet av att se \u00e4r en stor del av arbetsdagen. L\u00e4sandet av tidning p\u00e5 morgonen \u00e4r t.ex. helt borta nu. F\u00f6r jobbigt. Sk\u00e4rmarna fungerar d\u00e5 allts\u00e5 \u00e4nd\u00e5. Men jag har f\u00e5tt s\u00e4tta upp fontstorlekar och kontrast men bl\u00e4ndas av allt som \u00e4r ljust. Ja och blir tr\u00f6tt. S\u00e5 tr\u00f6tt, eftersom jag f\u00e5r anstr\u00e4nga mig. Lite av ett \u00e5r till \u00e4r det h\u00e4r som \u00e4r halvt bortkastat f\u00f6r att man f\u00e5r st\u00e5 i k\u00f6 och st\u00e5 i k\u00f6 och st\u00e5 i k\u00f6. Men n\u00e4sta m\u00e5nad har jag tid. Hoppet st\u00e5r till den tiden. Har man otur inneb\u00e4r det bara mer v\u00e4ntan.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fast man skall v\u00e4l vara glad \u00f6ver Svensk sjukv\u00e5rd. S\u00e5klart skall man det. Utm\u00e4rkt f\u00f6r det mesta men tyv\u00e4rr ocks\u00e5 sl\u00e4pph\u00e4nt mot alla dem som skriker h\u00f6gt. Behov borde s\u00e5klart och sj\u00e4lvklart styra. Inte r\u00f6ststyrka (och pengar i fickan).<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ja gammal m\u00e4nniska och sjukdomar. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sorry! Det finns inget tr\u00e5kigare att lyssna p\u00e5 f\u00f6r andra. Jag vet. F\u00f6rv\u00e4ntar mig inga sympatier. \u00c5tminstone det f\u00e5r du som l\u00e4sare h\u00e5lla till min f\u00f6rdel. Min kamp. Ingen annans. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Trotts ovanst\u00e5ende har det varit en r\u00e4tt bra dag idag. Nu h\u00e5ller iof \u00f6gonen p\u00e5 att trilla ur sina fattningar. Men det \u00e4r fortfarande n\u00e5gra timmar kvar tills det \u00e4r dags f\u00f6r deras vila. Vi k\u00e4mpar p\u00e5 tillsammans min kropp och jag. Eller jo och ja och visst. Vi \u00e4r ett och samma. S\u00e5klart \u00e4r vi det. Men k\u00e4mpa p\u00e5 g\u00e4ller lik f\u00f6rbannat. En bit till. Ett steg till. En dag till.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Jag t\u00e4nker “tisdag” fast det \u00e4r “onsdag”. Men det \u00e4r v\u00e4l inte s\u00e5 noga. Man \u00e4r pension\u00e4r. Det kunde vara l\u00f6rdag ocks\u00e5 utan att det spelade n\u00e5gon roll. Egentligen. Liksom. K\u00e4mpar mycket med synen just nu. De d\u00e4r gr\u00e5 fonterna som er\u00f6vrade v\u00e4rlden f\u00f6re den f\u00f6rra operationen \u00e4r tillbaks igen. “Varf\u00f6r i helvete anv\u00e4nder alla […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":24,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2},"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[24],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-46060","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-betraktelser"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":21532,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=21532","url_meta":{"origin":46060,"position":0},"title":"Utsl\u00e4ppt","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2016-09-15","format":false,"excerpt":"\u00a0 \"HAR DU INTE VARIT SM\u00c4RTFRI N\u00c5GON G\u00c5NG SEDAN OPERATIONEN!!!!\" skriker \u00f6verl\u00e4karen. \"nej\" svarar jag s\u00e5klart lite f\u00f6rsiktigt. 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