{"id":45627,"date":"2023-08-01T17:23:36","date_gmt":"2023-08-01T16:23:36","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=45627"},"modified":"2023-08-01T17:23:36","modified_gmt":"2023-08-01T16:23:36","slug":"skyll-dig-sjalv","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=45627","title":{"rendered":"Skyll dig sj\u00e4lv"},"content":{"rendered":"
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Allts\u00e5, andra riktiga arbetsdagen. Ingen j\u00e4ttesucc\u00e9. En massa musiker ramlar in och st\u00f6r. S\u00e5dana har ingen som helst f\u00f6rst\u00e5else f\u00f6r att gamla ocoola gubbar beh\u00f6ver jobba. N\u00e4r jag k\u00f6rt dem p\u00e5 porten \u00e4r det en journalist som skall underh\u00e5llas och efter hen beh\u00f6ver katten lite uppm\u00e4rksamhet. Det \u00e4r inte l\u00e4tt att vara ocool gubbe i tider som dessa inte.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men man f\u00e5r s\u00e5klart skylla sig sj\u00e4lv. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Som alltid. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Egentligen f\u00f6rs\u00f6ker jag allts\u00e5 hitta tr\u00e5den jag l\u00e4mnade l\u00f6s och ledig f\u00f6r sis\u00e5d\u00e4r fyra veckor sedan. Den som nu slitit sig d\u00e4r den d\u00e5 l\u00e5g tryggt och stadigt p\u00e5 sin plattform. Fast k\u00e4nner ingen st\u00f6rre oro. Det f\u00e5r ta den tid det tar. Till slut f\u00e5r jag tag p\u00e5 den. Som alltid.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Annars h\u00e4nder inte mycket h\u00e4r idag. N\u00e5gra tv\u00e4ttmaskiner skall t\u00f6mmas och tv\u00e4tt h\u00e4ngas. Det \u00e4r v\u00e4l allt. Inte ens post kommer det denna dag. Den nya tiden har slagit till d\u00e4r med. Men ute faller postapokalyptiskt regn i ett f\u00f6rs\u00f6k till tr\u00f6st. Men \u00e4nd\u00e5 ingen ide att vandra tre varv kring huset heller s\u00e5ledes. D\u00e5 blir man bl\u00f6t. I min \u00e5lder vill man bli det s\u00e5 s\u00e4llan som det g\u00e5r. En del av f\u00f6rfallet och k\u00e4nslighetens sp\u00f6kerier.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Det \u00e4r skolbarnens tid det h\u00e4r. De samlas i centralorterna och tr\u00e4ffas igen efter sommaren. Lek och ung k\u00e4rlek och en och annan uppeldad skola (av misstag) f\u00f6ljer i samlingarnas sp\u00e5r. De onda magarnas tid ocks\u00e5 s\u00e5klart. F\u00f6r barnen som inte h\u00f6r till. Dem vi alla borde r\u00e4dda f\u00f6r att vi lever i en v\u00e4rld som borde vara b\u00e4ttre och fri fr\u00e5n barn med onda magar eftersom olika \u00e4nd\u00e5 \u00e4r b\u00e4st. Men tiden \u00e4r deras. Innan allvaret tar tag och leder in i likformarmaskineriet.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

N\u00e4sta h\u00f6jdpunkt i en ocool gubbes liv \u00e4r v\u00e4l sj\u00e4lva fr\u00e5nf\u00e4llet. \u00c4r v\u00e4l inte v\u00e4rre \u00e4n sista skolavslutningen, lumpen, universitetet, etc. Allt det d\u00e4r ledde in i det ok\u00e4nda. F\u00f6rgicks av viss nervositet. Men man klarade av det. Man \u00e4r allts\u00e5 van och vet att saker blir som dom blir. Dessutom har man ju b\u00e5de kamrater och annat folk som redan hanterat den d\u00e4r sista showen och gjort det bra. Ja det finns v\u00e4l inte en enda en egentligen som inte gjort bra ifr\u00e5n sig i det fallet. Alla har lyckats s\u00e5 varf\u00f6r skulle man sj\u00e4lv misslyckas som den f\u00f6rste… n\u00e5ja andre… han, Jesus misslyckades ju \u00e5 det gr\u00f6vsta. Det \u00e4r alltid n\u00e5gon. Undrar g\u00f6r jag om han hade ont i magen.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Kanske.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Kanske inte.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Allts\u00e5, andra riktiga arbetsdagen. Ingen j\u00e4ttesucc\u00e9. En massa musiker ramlar in och st\u00f6r. S\u00e5dana har ingen som helst f\u00f6rst\u00e5else f\u00f6r att gamla ocoola gubbar beh\u00f6ver jobba. N\u00e4r jag k\u00f6rt dem p\u00e5 porten \u00e4r det en journalist som skall underh\u00e5llas och efter hen beh\u00f6ver katten lite uppm\u00e4rksamhet. Det \u00e4r inte l\u00e4tt att vara ocool gubbe i […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":24,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_feature_clip_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2},"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[2],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-45627","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-swedish"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":40573,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=40573","url_meta":{"origin":45627,"position":0},"title":"Hantverkst\u00e5lamod","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2021-12-09","format":false,"excerpt":"Photo by Anthony Shkraba on Pexels.com Problemet med hantverkare \u00e4r att det \u00e4r s\u00e5 f\u00f6rbaskat sv\u00e5rt att f\u00e5 dom att hantverka. 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