{"id":45570,"date":"2023-07-18T12:00:46","date_gmt":"2023-07-18T11:00:46","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=45570"},"modified":"2023-07-18T12:00:46","modified_gmt":"2023-07-18T11:00:46","slug":"nm","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=45570","title":{"rendered":"n+m"},"content":{"rendered":"
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Dag n+m av en l\u00e5ng semester. Det har precis handlats lite mat. Den skall strax \u00e4tas. Men fastnar lite h\u00e4r nere p\u00e5 kontoret. I v\u00e4ntan p\u00e5 matklockan. V\u00e5rrullar. Kan man \u00e4ta det till lunch? Jo s\u00e4kert. I alla fall de utan delar av d\u00f6da svin.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Oregn idag. \u00c5tminstone just nu. Det \u00e4r sk\u00f6nt det med. Regnandet under den senaste tiden har s\u00e4kert gjort gott det med. Inga katastrofer. S\u00f6derut \u00e4r det hett. Underg\u00e5ngen \u00e4r n\u00e4ra. Katastrofer hela tiden. Varje regnv\u00e4der \u00e4r en underg\u00e5ng. Varje v\u00e4rmeb\u00f6lja en “varg<\/em>“. Vi tittar p\u00e5 med \u00f6ppna munnar och sorterar v\u00e5r plast och n\u00e5gra s\u00e4ger “hemskt”.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Studiotid ig\u00e5r. D\u00e4r finns ofta lyckan. Men ig\u00e5r gick det tr\u00f6gt som gammal sirap i en kork. Blev inte s\u00e5 mycket. Fl\u00f6t inte p\u00e5. Vandrade upp f\u00f6r trapporna och s\u00e5g en gammal film ist\u00e4llet. Hatar att vara den mottagande. M\u00e5ste ha det kreativa i livet. Skapandet. Annars \u00e4r det ingen ide att leva. Fast vet att det kommer. Och g\u00f6r den\/t inte det…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men jag gissar att en hj\u00e4rna kan m\u00e5 bra av en s\u00e5dan h\u00e4r vegeterande tillvaro \u00e4nd\u00e5. Att den \u00e5terh\u00e4mtar sig. Att suget byggs upp. Att det \u00e4r bra. Fast skr\u00e4ms av tanken att \u00e5lderdom skall tvinga in mig i en slutet av livet tid som ser ut s\u00e5h\u00e4r. Man hoppas att andra hastigt terminerande medicinska sp\u00f6ken tar en innan dess. Eller att man tar sig upp p\u00e5 \u00d6rnberget innan dom skjutsar iv\u00e4g en och hinner kasta sig ut i stupet iv\u00e4g mot friheten.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Kasta sig ut fr\u00e5n ett stup handlar om mod. Man kan imponeras av dem som klarar avstampet. Men i min hj\u00e4rna \u00e4r det sj\u00e4lva landningen och allt kladd som f\u00f6ljer med i den som st\u00f6r och som hindrar. Jod\u00e5. N\u00e5gra sekunders flygtur. S\u00e4kert en upplevelse. Men landningen. Och sekunden innan den. Nej, jag tror jag avst\u00e5r. I alla fall tills alternativen \u00e4r f\u00e4rre.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fast dra iv\u00e4g s\u00f6derut borde man kanske. S\u00e4tta sig i bilen, tanka fullt, och bara dra iv\u00e4g. Ja, man kanske skulle satsa p\u00e5 det en onsdag denna vecka. Bara dra. Sitta d\u00e4r och tro att man \u00e4r fri n\u00e4r man sv\u00e4nger ut fr\u00e5n tomten. Tro att det finns n\u00e5got kvar att se i v\u00e4rlden som \u00e4rt v\u00e4rt att se. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ja temefan om man inte skulle det…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Dag n+m av en l\u00e5ng semester. Det har precis handlats lite mat. Den skall strax \u00e4tas. Men fastnar lite h\u00e4r nere p\u00e5 kontoret. I v\u00e4ntan p\u00e5 matklockan. V\u00e5rrullar. Kan man \u00e4ta det till lunch? Jo s\u00e4kert. I alla fall de utan delar av d\u00f6da svin. Oregn idag. \u00c5tminstone just nu. Det \u00e4r sk\u00f6nt det med. 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