{"id":44974,"date":"2023-05-01T17:10:54","date_gmt":"2023-05-01T16:10:54","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=44974"},"modified":"2023-05-01T17:10:54","modified_gmt":"2023-05-01T16:10:54","slug":"en-fjattrad-fjaril-pa-vag-i-tiden","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=44974","title":{"rendered":"En fj\u00e4ttrad fj\u00e4ril p\u00e5 v\u00e4g i tiden"},"content":{"rendered":"
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Edsbyn. Finns inget annat d\u00e4r l\u00e4ngre \u00e4n gamla minne. \u00c5ker f\u00f6rbi. Som varje g\u00e5ng numera. F\u00f6rr drog man ett varv efter minnenas aveny. Folkets hem, Brokiosken. Skolan. Bron. Edsbyhem, Edmarks, Elvens. S\u00f6dra skolan. Minnen man v\u00e4ltrade sig i som en gris i dynga. Skit i minnen t\u00e4nker jag nu. Har inte tid med f\u00f6r mycket tillbakablickar. F\u00f6r lite liv kvar f\u00f6r det idag. S\u00e5 jag \u00e5ker f\u00f6rbi. Vidare. Jag skall till Bolln\u00e4s.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Alfta, p\u00e5 v\u00e4gen, har v\u00e4l ocks\u00e5 sina minnen. N\u00e5gon flicka. F\u00f6rsta bandet. Senare pendlingsort. Nitton mil i gammal bil varje dag i veckan. Fattar inte hur man orkade nu idag. D\u00e5 inte ens ett litet problem. S\u00e4tta sig i bilen och k\u00f6ra bara.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bolln\u00e4s. F\u00f6rsta pizzan \u00e5ts h\u00e4r. Tidigt sjuttiotal. Men m\u00e5nga g\u00e5nger innan dess – hamburgerbrickor. Vi \u00e5kte hit bara f\u00f6r dom. En jordgubbsmilkshake och en hamburgerbricka med tv\u00e5 sm\u00e5 hamburgare. Jo pommes ocks\u00e5. Tror jag. Det gick i. Rap. Sen hem igen. Kanske f\u00f6rst n\u00e5gon runda p\u00e5 stan. F\u00f6rs\u00f6ka minnas h\u00f6gerregeln.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men Bolln\u00e4s var v\u00e4l oftare l\u00f6rdagsturer till systembolaget i full fart. Det g\u00e4llde att hinna fram innan dom st\u00e4ngde. Viktiga ink\u00f6p f\u00f6r en lyckad helg. Alltid n\u00e5gon i bekantskapskretsen som hade det behovet och fick st\u00e5 f\u00f6r bensinen. Men ibland bio. N\u00e5gon film som inte hade kommit till “byn”. Man drog till Bolln\u00e4s f\u00f6r att se den. Ok\u00e4nt land den tiden p\u00e5 kv\u00e4llen.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Nu \u00e4r det bara ett st\u00e4lle d\u00e4r man handlar en g\u00e5ng i m\u00e5naden. Kanske fikar vi och \u00e4ter n\u00e5got ocks\u00e5. Men Bolln\u00e4s kunde vara vilken stad som helst. Staden r\u00e5kar bara ligga d\u00e4r den ligger och har det den har. Mora fungerar ju ocks\u00e5. Tr\u00f6ttnar vi drar vi dit ist\u00e4llet. Bes\u00f6ker samma st\u00e4llen. G\u00f6r samma saker. Beh\u00f6ver vi mer utbud g\u00e4ller G\u00e4vle, Sundvall eller Borl\u00e4nge. Tjugo mil efter asfalterade v\u00e4gar till alla. Bara att v\u00e4lja. G\u00e5r att ta \u00d6stersund ocks\u00e5. Tjugo asfalterade mil dit med. Annars finns ju Stockholm. Paris i London om det kniper. Inga k\u00e4ttingar fj\u00e4ttrar oss i alla fall h\u00e4r p\u00e5 byn. M\u00f6jligen och kanske tyngden av ett hus dock.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fast hem kommer man alltid. \u00c5tminstone hittills. Och “hemma<\/em>” \u00e4r den h\u00e4r kullen med det stora gula huset Det var s\u00e5 det blev. Hade man lagt hatten p\u00e5 en annan hylla s\u00e5 hade det v\u00e4l blivit d\u00e4r. Priset var h\u00f6gre f\u00f6r att v\u00e4lja den h\u00e4r bostadsorten \u00e4n alla andra som stod d\u00e4r och blinkade “ledigt<\/em>“. Men precis som jag inte gr\u00e4ver ner mig i minnen s\u00e5 gr\u00e4ver jag inte heller ner mig i mina val och vart de f\u00f6rt mig. Man f\u00e5 st\u00e5 sitt kast med t\u00e4rningarna. Gillar man inte s\u00e5 f\u00e5r man f\u00f6rs\u00f6ka \u00e4ndra p\u00e5 det hela. Orkar man inte – ja d\u00e5 \u00e4r det enkelt – det \u00e4r bara att vandra p\u00e5 och gilla l\u00e4get. S\u00e5 det \u00e4r v\u00e4l det vi g\u00f6r de flesta av oss. Vi vandrar p\u00e5.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men det \u00e4r i alla fall m\u00e5ndag idag. Den b\u00e4sta av dagar. Obruten vecka f\u00f6r\u00f6ver att vandra p\u00e5. En h\u00e4rlighet som skapar l\u00e4ngtan likt en kaffe och en bakelse placerad strax under ens haka. Jo, jag tror p\u00e5 storverk den h\u00e4r veckan ocks\u00e5. Som varje annan vecka f\u00f6re den. Gott s\u00e5. Det r\u00e4cker f\u00f6r mig.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Edsbyn. Finns inget annat d\u00e4r l\u00e4ngre \u00e4n gamla minne. \u00c5ker f\u00f6rbi. Som varje g\u00e5ng numera. F\u00f6rr drog man ett varv efter minnenas aveny. Folkets hem, Brokiosken. Skolan. Bron. Edsbyhem, Edmarks, Elvens. S\u00f6dra skolan. Minnen man v\u00e4ltrade sig i som en gris i dynga. Skit i minnen t\u00e4nker jag nu. Har inte tid med f\u00f6r mycket […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":24,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_crdt_document":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[2],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-44974","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-swedish"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":18488,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=18488","url_meta":{"origin":44974,"position":0},"title":"\u00d6sterut och hem igen.","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2015-08-27","format":false,"excerpt":"Bunkring idag. 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