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Den fj\u00e4rde april dennes. Dagen \u00e4r en tragedi. Tur att det \u00e4r den femte april idag. Kanske finns det hopp. Men ig\u00e5r. Tr\u00f6tt. S\u00c5<\/strong> tr\u00f6tt. Det blir liksom ingen riktig fart p\u00e5 n\u00e5gonting. Jo lite. I m\u00e4ngd som vilken anst\u00e4lld som helst kanske. Men inspiration och flyt befinner sig hur l\u00e5ngt bort som helst. Mekaniskt knallar det p\u00e5.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Man hoppas p\u00e5 denna dag allts\u00e5. Nu n\u00e4r man sitter h\u00e4r med tekoppen bredvid sig ser det d\u00e4r lovande ut. Men det gjorde det iof ig\u00e5r ocks\u00e5.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men s\u00e5dana d\u00e4r dagar (som ig\u00e5r) vill jag \u00e5ka till Grekland. Gr\u00e4nsla en vespa. \u00c5ka iv\u00e4g till en strand som ingen annan har hittat. Stanna d\u00e4r tills solen g\u00e5r ner. Mest s\u00e5klart f\u00f6r att jag aldrig varit i Grekland. Borde man inte ha varit?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Det \u00e4r det d\u00e4r solit\u00e4ra som \u00e4ter sig in i en vissa dagar. Att man sitter d\u00e4r sj\u00e4lv. Mest jobbar. Det \u00e4r INTE meningen med livet det d\u00e4r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Har jag en l\u00e5g dag s\u00e5 har den inre karakt\u00e4ren en \u00e4nnu l\u00e4gre dag som alltid. Finns det godis s\u00e5 ryker det. Finns det inte s\u00e5 inhandlas det. Man \u00c4R<\/strong> en missbruksperson. Men kanske \u00e4r \u00e4nd\u00e5 godis b\u00e4ttre \u00e4n alkohol och droger \u00e4nd\u00e5. \u00c4nnu har jag inte passerat den gr\u00e4nsen, men skulle l\u00e4tt kunna g\u00f6ra det om jag bara \u00e4ntrat den scenen. Fast “gott” inmundigas \u00e5 andra sidan. Kopi\u00f6sa m\u00e4ngder. Det d\u00e5liga samvetet efter i munnen instoppad sk\u00e5l finns d\u00e4r ocks\u00e5 s\u00e5klart. D\u00f6vas b\u00e4st med att fylla p\u00e5 i sk\u00e5len. Helt enligt k\u00e4nt missbrukarmaner.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men en skitdag i allt annat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men det kan s\u00e5klart vara v\u00e4rre.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fast jag undrar. Varf\u00f6r g\u00e5r jag inte och bara l\u00e4gger mig p\u00e5 soffan med en god bok en s\u00e5dan d\u00e4r dag? Ingen skulle klaga p\u00e5 ett s\u00e5dant (n\u00e5got depraverat) beteendet. Man \u00c4R<\/strong> pension\u00e4r. Jo han p\u00e5 h\u00f6ger axel skulle klaga h\u00f6gljutt s\u00e5klart. Men han klagar \u00e5 andra sidan alltid \u00e4nd\u00e5. F\u00f6rs\u00f6ker f\u00e5 mig att f\u00f6rst\u00e5 hur j\u00e4vla d\u00e5lig jag \u00e4r p\u00e5 allt. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

En syssla som jag ger mig h\u00e4n \u00e5t under d\u00e5liga dagar \u00e4r att vanka omkring i lokalerna. Se d\u00e4r en f\u00f6rdel med 250 m2<\/sup><\/sub> kontor. Runt runt. D\u00e4r i det d\u00e4r h\u00e4nder det att jag hittar n\u00e5got som borde fixas. N\u00e5got synnerligen praktiskt. D\u00e5 och d\u00e4r brukar de bli fixade de d\u00e4r praktiska grejerna. Praktiska saker \u00e4r medicin s\u00e5dana d\u00e4r dagar. S\u00e5 egentligen skulle man v\u00e4l plocka fram dammsugaren. Men s\u00e5\u00e5\u00e5\u00e5\u00e5\u00e5… l\u00e5ngt skall vi nu inte g\u00e5 intalar man sig sj\u00e4lv. L\u00e5ter lorten ligga kvar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Studion \u00e4r annat som drar tankar till sig. Temperaturerna b\u00f6rjar r\u00f6ra sig \u00e5t r\u00e4tt h\u00e5ll d\u00e4r ute ocks\u00e5. “Men under en bra arbetsdag<\/em>” s\u00e4ger han p\u00e5 h\u00f6geraxeln. Och fast det nu inte \u00e4r en “bra arbetsdag<\/em>” s\u00e5 lyssnar man. Ger sig inte h\u00e4n. Skit ocks\u00e5. Liksom<\/strong>.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men att h\u00f6ra till. Det \u00e4r v\u00e4l inte min grej helt enkelt. I n\u00e4sta liv kanske. Som fj\u00e4ril.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

L\u00e4ser en gn\u00e4llande ins\u00e4ndare i tidningen. Den l\u00e5ter exakt som sm\u00e5ungar brukar g\u00f6ra. “Men hen f\u00e5r ju!” Ni vet s\u00e5d\u00e4r barnsligt som ungar f\u00f6rs\u00f6ker h\u00e4vda r\u00e4ttvisan. Har n\u00e5gon enda n\u00e5gonsin lyssnat p\u00e5 det d\u00e4r? Ja kanske. Men inte utan stor irritation. Men h\u00e4r i Los l\u00e5ter det alltid s\u00e5. Det \u00e4r ALLTID argumentet. “Men Ljusdal f\u00e5r ju….<\/em>“, “J\u00e4rvs\u00f6 f\u00e5r ju…<\/em>“. Det d\u00e4r \u00c4R<\/strong> gn\u00e4ll mina v\u00e4nner. Inte konstruktivt p\u00e5 n\u00e5got enda s\u00e4tt. Det enda det resulterar i \u00e4r att den som borde lyssna p\u00e5 det an s\u00e4ger slutar att lyssna. Man m\u00e5ste vara smartare. Positivare. G\u00f6ra lite sj\u00e4lv. Utan att gn\u00e4lla. L\u00e5ta folk f\u00f6rst\u00e5 saker utan att skriva det p\u00e5 deras n\u00e4sor.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fast vad vet jag om s\u00e5dant. Jag gn\u00e4ller v\u00e4l jag med. Ofta. Fast pratar skit om folk g\u00f6r jag s\u00e4llan. \u00c5tminstone f\u00f6rs\u00f6ker jag l\u00e5ta bli. Jag har l\u00e4rt mig den l\u00e4xan. De som delar med sig av kritik till en om en tredje person kan man vara helt s\u00e4ker p\u00e5 pratar om en sj\u00e4lv p\u00e5 samma s\u00e4tt n\u00e4r man inte \u00e4r med. HELT S\u00c4KERT!<\/strong> Utan ett enda undantag. Det d\u00e4r skitpratet leder liksom ingenstans i alla fall. Inget bra kommer ur det, NOLL ingenting. Fast b\u00e4st \u00e4r man ju sj\u00e4lv. Men det tycker varenda kotte. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Nu f\u00f6rs\u00f6ker vi hitta en tr\u00e5d in i \u00c5kes v\u00e4rld med f\u00f6rhoppningen om att denna dag blir b\u00e4ttre \u00e4n g\u00e5rdagen.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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