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Det absolut roligaste i mitt jobb \u00e4r att s\u00e4tta sig med papper och penna och skissa fram n\u00e5got i h\u00e5rdvaruv\u00e4g man vill konstruera och sen s\u00e4tta sig i cad-programmet, cadda p\u00e5*, tills man kan k\u00f6ra en “electric rule test” som s\u00e4ger att, japp, nu verkar allt fungera. D\u00e5 plockar man fram en bild p\u00e5 den “d\u00e4r grejen<\/em>“. Ja och h\u00e4r finns den ju n\u00e4stan p\u00e5 riktigt. S\u00e5 k\u00e4nns det. H\u00e4r i det h\u00e4r tillst\u00e5ndet s\u00e5 \u00e4r den ocks\u00e5 helt perfekt. Allt fungerar. Alla val man gjort \u00e4r dom r\u00e4tta. Lycka kallas k\u00e4nslan. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Andra moment \u00e5terst\u00e5r efter det h\u00e4r. Man skall tillverka kortet i Kina. F\u00e5 det hitskickad. Jod\u00e5 sponsrad nu. Sen n\u00e4r det v\u00e4l \u00e4r h\u00e4r och man beundrande h\u00e5ller sin lilla bebis i handen s\u00e5 skall det monteras. Sen skall programvara l\u00e4ggas till. Hela tiden f\u00f6rfulas det d\u00e4r perfekta som jag allts\u00e5 sitter med idag. Saker blir mindre perfekta. Njuter g\u00f6r man allts\u00e5 h\u00e4r. NU.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Skapande processen \u00e4r f\u00f6rv\u00e5nansv\u00e4rt likartad vad \u00e4n man g\u00f6r. K\u00e4nslan \u00e4r detsamma n\u00e4r man skapar musik, texter eller bygger ett v\u00e4xthus eller en sk\u00e4rbr\u00e4da. En l\u00e5t \u00e4r aldrig s\u00e5 bra som just n\u00e4r man skall b\u00f6rja spela in den. Sen, d\u00e4rifr\u00e5n g\u00e5r det utf\u00f6r. S\u00e5 med allt annat ocks\u00e5. Men driften att g\u00f6ra saker \u00e4r s\u00e5 stark att den borde f\u00e5 ett eget namn. F\u00e5 st\u00e5 d\u00e4r p\u00e5 f\u00f6rstaplatsen och stoltsera mellan andra drifter som tycks kontrollera oss snarare \u00e4n att bli kontrollerade av oss.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

En bra sen kv\u00e4ll ig\u00e5r allts\u00e5 och en bra heldag idag. Det \u00e4r dom h\u00e4r dagarna man lever f\u00f6r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Att grannen lassar in en l\u00e5da semlor (som jag sannolikt inte gjort r\u00e4tt f\u00f6r) genom d\u00f6rren (F\u00c5NGA!<\/strong>) g\u00f6r absolut ingenting s\u00e4mre det heller. Kaffe och lite godis p\u00e5 det blir ett slags pricken \u00f6ver i. Eller pricken \u00f6ver \u00c5(ke) kanske. Allts\u00e5 “Pricken \u00f6ver \u00c5ke<\/em>“. Det borde man kunna ta vidare…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Vindarna \u00e4r upp p\u00e5 “storm<\/em>” och v\u00e4nder idag. V\u00e5r stupr\u00e4nna p\u00e5 framsidan h\u00e4nger och sl\u00e4nger som om den h\u00e4ngde p\u00e5 ett missilpenetrerat hus i Kiev. N\u00e5gon m\u00e5ste upp p\u00e5 en v\u00e4ldigt (V\u00c4LDIGT!) h\u00f6g stege och ordna det d\u00e4r. Men f\u00f6rsta m\u00e5ste sn\u00f6 och is ta hj\u00e4lp av gravitation och ta sig ned\u00e5t. Innan den g\u00f6r det b\u00f6r ingen som \u00e4lskar livet befinna sig d\u00e4runder. Nope!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Katten, jag och K stannar inne. Utom en kortare tur ut f\u00f6r att leverera ett paket, sl\u00e4nga plast, lassa in en pall pellets och h\u00e4mta post. Fast allt utom postinh\u00e4mtning avklarat innan tio. Allts\u00e5 innan storbl\u00e5sten v\u00e4ltrade sig \u00f6ver oss p\u00e5 kullen som en Atlantisk \u00e5ngv\u00e4lt som rullar \u00f6ver J\u00e4mtland (och oss). Men tecken p\u00e5 timing kan noteras.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Nere p\u00e5 byn f\u00f6rresten. Tv\u00e5hundra skotrar. Minst. L\u00e5ter som getingar n\u00e4r de drar iv\u00e4g. Sportlov allts\u00e5. Ett v\u00e5rtecken s\u00e5 gott som n\u00e5got h\u00e4r uppe. Angeldon, sprit och motorer. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Talgoxarna har v\u00e4l i princip gett upp n\u00e4r det g\u00e4ller mig i \u00e5r. Visst havregryn och frityrolja. Det fungerar. Gr\u00f6t. Men VAR \u00c4R<\/strong> solrosfr\u00f6na!? ropar de s\u00e5 fort man visar sig ute. Men det n\u00e4rmaste jag kommit en s\u00e4ck s\u00e5dana i \u00e5r \u00e4r att l\u00e4sa prisskylten. Vi snackar fyra\/femhundra sp\u00e4nn f\u00f6r en s\u00e4ck. Och visst, jag gillar sm\u00e5f\u00e5glar. Men har gr\u00e4nser f\u00f6r min f\u00f6rm\u00e5ga som varande mecenat och idkande v\u00e4lg\u00f6renhet. Talgoxarna visar ingen f\u00f6rst\u00e5else.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Nu \u00e4r klockan fem h\u00e4r. \u00c5terst\u00e5r av veckan g\u00f6r att plocka ihop och checka in lite grejer som man vill bevara. Som vanligt hade jag r\u00e4knat med att f\u00e5 mer gjort den h\u00e4r veckan, precis som under alla andra veckor. Men k\u00e4nner igen det d\u00e4r nu. Jag \u00e4r bara jag. Gammal \u00e4r jag. Det g\u00e5r inte snabbare \u00e4n s\u00e5h\u00e4r. S\u00e5 l\u00e4nge man stapplar fram\u00e5t och inte bak\u00e5t f\u00e5r man v\u00e4l vara n\u00f6jd. Men tr\u00f6ttheten har mig i ett r\u00e4tt bra grepp. Jag \u00e4r r\u00e4dd att mitt m\u00f6te ikv\u00e4ll med en Gr\u00f6n IKEA soffa bara kan sluta p\u00e5 ett enda s\u00e4tt…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Det absolut roligaste i mitt jobb \u00e4r att s\u00e4tta sig med papper och penna och skissa fram n\u00e5got i h\u00e5rdvaruv\u00e4g man vill konstruera och sen s\u00e4tta sig i cad-programmet, cadda p\u00e5*, tills man kan k\u00f6ra en “electric rule test” som s\u00e4ger att, japp, nu verkar allt fungera. 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