{"id":44182,"date":"2023-01-31T08:22:41","date_gmt":"2023-01-31T07:22:41","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=44182"},"modified":"2023-01-31T08:22:41","modified_gmt":"2023-01-31T07:22:41","slug":"tidigt-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=44182","title":{"rendered":"Tidigt"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-full\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"580\" height=\"371\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/09\/ake4.jpeg?resize=580%2C371&#038;ssl=1\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-42768\" srcset=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/09\/ake4.jpeg?w=641&amp;ssl=1 641w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/09\/ake4.jpeg?resize=300%2C192&amp;ssl=1 300w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 580px) 100vw, 580px\" \/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Hulken v\u00e4cker mig vid sex. Ja och jo och javisst, det \u00e4r mobiltelefonen som v\u00e4cker mig med sitt <span style=\"text-decoration: underline;\">Hulken-har-stannat-alarm<\/span>, men i grunden, ursprunget \u00e4r nu \u00e4nd\u00e5 den store gr\u00f6ne d\u00e4r i k\u00e4llaren som ropar i sin n\u00f6d.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Jag h\u00f6rsammar s\u00e5klart.  Det beh\u00f6vs duschvatten p\u00e5 morgonen. Passar p\u00e5 att sota och underh\u00e5lla och piskar sen h\u00e5rt och utan medk\u00e4nsla ig\u00e5ng den store tr\u00f6tte som lite motvilligt startar. Jo, tr\u00f6star med n\u00e5gra sn\u00e4lla ord om sommarens n\u00e4rmande innan jag l\u00e4mnar pannrummet. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Vindarna drar fram som vilda fria h\u00e4star p\u00e5 kullen denna morgon ocks\u00e5. Gissar att de slipar och polerar och skapar isbanor d\u00e4r ute i full maskopi med akutmottagningarnas gipsleverant\u00f6rer. Man f\u00e5r h\u00e5lla sig inne. Om man kan. Det kan man inte. 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