{"id":43757,"date":"2022-12-28T14:59:07","date_gmt":"2022-12-28T13:59:07","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=43757"},"modified":"2022-12-29T08:28:26","modified_gmt":"2022-12-29T07:28:26","slug":"julmust-sokes","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=43757","title":{"rendered":"Julmust s\u00f6kes"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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Julslut. Men den r\u00f6da kulan f\u00e5r h\u00e4nga d\u00e4r n\u00e5gra dagar till. Ja b\u00e5da. De kul\u00f6rta lamporna f\u00e5r lysa dom med. Sista \u00e5ret med dom tror jag. Granen, den m\u00f6rdade systern, st\u00e5r d\u00e4r den st\u00e5r. D\u00f6r, ensam, sorgsen och stilla. Mitt samvete, grans\u00e5garens, \u00e4r sargat. Sj\u00e4lv lever man. Till stordelen. Tror jag. M\u00f6jligen i parallellt universum. Fr\u00e5nfallen i annat utan att m\u00e4rka det. Magen svullen och bubblande. Sp\u00e4nner i kl\u00e4derna. Man har \u00e4tit f\u00f6r mycket men \u00e4n finns det mycket kvar p\u00e5 hyllor och i sk\u00e5p s\u00e5 man \u00e4ter p\u00e5. “Varf\u00f6r<\/em>” fr\u00e5gar man suckande sig men f\u00e5r inget svar p\u00e5 den fr\u00e5gan. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men en del i svaret \u00e4r s\u00e5klart att man inte vill kasta mat. Man f\u00f6rs\u00f6ker \u00e4ta upp. I alla fall det som inte g\u00e5r att frysa. Fast “matle” \u00e4r bara f\u00f6rnamnet p\u00e5 det tillst\u00e5nd man tagit sig till. Men har i alla fall inte n\u00e5tt dit d\u00e4r vinterkr\u00e4ksjukan skulle ses som en befrielse. Samarin och Pepcid heter v\u00e4nnerna denna tid p\u00e5 \u00e5ret. De som g\u00f6r allt det h\u00e4r \u00f6verlevnadsbart. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Det blir lugnare till ny\u00e5r. N\u00e5got gott att \u00e4ta. N\u00e5got gott att dricka.L\u00e4sa. Titta p\u00e5 n\u00e5gra filmer. D\u00e4remellan somnar man s\u00e4kert en eller tre eller fyra sm\u00e5 stunder. Ny\u00e5rsl\u00f6ftet \u00e4r sj\u00e4lvklart. “Ut och g\u00e5 med dig gubbj\u00e4vel!<\/em>“. Eller d\u00f6. V\u00e4lj sj\u00e4lv. Allt detta mumlar man.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men k\u00e4nner behov av mer julmust. Men finner icke. K\u00f6per Amerikanskt julmustsubsitut. Coca Cola. Kommer inte ens n\u00e4ra men bubblar och pyser och sp\u00e4nner ut magar den med. Sockerfylla!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Jod\u00e5 jag jobbar. Ja kodar. Finns v\u00e4l inte m\u00e5nga norr om Dal\u00e4lven som ser det h\u00e4r som arbete. Fast n\u00e5got m\u00e5ste man ju kalla det. S\u00e5 jag s\u00e4ger “jobbar” med risk f\u00f6r att bli kallad storl\u00f6gnare. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

En decimeter extra allt sn\u00f6 utlovas imorgon. Det \u00e4r s\u00e5h\u00e4r det skall h\u00e5lla p\u00e5 nu hela v\u00e4gen fram “till p\u00e5ska<\/em>“. Jag skall f\u00f6rfina enhandsskottandet till en sk\u00f6n konst innan dess. Skriva en bok om det hela kanske. “Den enarmade sn\u00f6gubben<\/em>“. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Temperaturerna kastar sig fr\u00e5n m\u00e5nga minus till m\u00e5nga plus. Vintern vet inte riktigt hur den skall spela i \u00e5r. H\u00e5rdrock eller halkmusik. Hulken klagar \u00f6ver obeslutsamheten. Jag \u00f6ver pelletsfakturorna. Frun fryser. Ja jag med. Det spelar ingen roll om det \u00e4r minus eller plus. Kallt \u00e4r det. B\u00e4r upp ved. Sj\u00e4lva b\u00e4randet upp f\u00f6r tre trappor v\u00e4rmer otr\u00e4nade gubbar fr\u00e5n topp till t\u00e5.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Om du har n\u00e5gon j\u00e4vla skam i kroppen l\u00e4ser du detta<\/a>. Ja och s\u00e5 delar du s\u00e5klart. Friheten att s\u00e4ga sin \u00e5sikt utan att straffas \u00e4r en sj\u00e4lvklar r\u00e4ttighet. Orka bry dig! Hur sl\u00f6 som helst f\u00e5r man n\u00e4mligen inte vara…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Julslut. Men den r\u00f6da kulan f\u00e5r h\u00e4nga d\u00e4r n\u00e5gra dagar till. Ja b\u00e5da. De kul\u00f6rta lamporna f\u00e5r lysa dom med. Sista \u00e5ret med dom tror jag. Granen, den m\u00f6rdade systern, st\u00e5r d\u00e4r den st\u00e5r. D\u00f6r, ensam, sorgsen och stilla. Mitt samvete, grans\u00e5garens, \u00e4r sargat. Sj\u00e4lv lever man. Till stordelen. Tror jag. M\u00f6jligen i parallellt universum. 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