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Allt det d\u00e4r. T\u00e4nker man. N\u00e4r man knappar p\u00e5. Men ocks\u00e5. Eller ox\u00e5. N\u00e4r man skriver kortmeningar. Det g\u00e4ller att kunna ta in kortmeningar som l\u00e4sare. Rytm. F\u00f6rst\u00e5 den. Eller \u00e5tminstone f\u00f6rs\u00f6ka. F\u00f6rst\u00e5.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men jag knappar p\u00e5 s\u00e5klart. Vad skulle jag annars g\u00f6ra? Mitt liv. Ja med lite musik till d\u00e5 s\u00e5klart. Och n\u00e5gra ord. Jag. H\u00e4r. Nu. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Vann ett pris en g\u00e5ng. I Stockholm. Tiotusen och mer. Historiska. Nerv\u00f6st. Fick stor check och blommor. Diskuterade med h\u00f6jdare p\u00e5 SEB som gjorde ner mig och mitt projekt totalt. Men jag har l\u00e4tt f\u00f6r den sortens folk. Kan arbeta med. Det man ger f\u00e5r man. S\u00e5 t\u00e4nker jag. Jag \u00e4r inte r\u00e4dd f\u00f6r h\u00f6jdare.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Grabbarna fr\u00e5n Handels som undrade och fr\u00e5gade. Kanske bara f\u00f6r att vara sn\u00e4lla. Har s\u00e4kert tj\u00e4nat sin f\u00f6rsta miljard allesammans nu. Ville ha med mig p\u00e5 efterfest p\u00e5 n\u00e5gon krog. “Tyv\u00e4rr sa jag<\/em>“. \u00c4r f\u00f6r fattig f\u00f6r det men det sa jag inte.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Annars utanf\u00f6r som vanligt. H\u00e4r var alla fina m\u00e4nniskor i Stockholm. Innerstad. Djursholm. Innan jag gav mig hem mot hotellet som jag betalt med v\u00e5ra sista pengar gav jag blomkvasten jag fick till n\u00e5gra av de d\u00e4r fina m\u00e4nniskorna. Synd att den skulle f\u00f6rst\u00f6ras p\u00e5 promenaden hem till hotellet i m\u00e5nga vinterminus t\u00e4nkte jag. Men borde kanske ha stoppat i en papperskorg sj\u00e4lv. Men fel i mitt hj\u00e4rta att sl\u00e4nga n\u00e5gra hundringar som kan komm an\u00e5gon annan till nytta. Ocks\u00e5 n\u00e5gon som har pengar att k\u00f6pa sj\u00e4lv. Ja alltid. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Den promenaden hem till hotellet. Ensammast i v\u00e4rlden som vanligt. K\u00f6pte chips och en cola p\u00e5 en natt\u00f6ppen aff\u00e4r. Lushotell p\u00e5 odenplan. Ringa hem. F\u00f6rs\u00f6ka sm\u00e4lta sen. Hem dan efter. L\u00f6sa in pengarna. Stolthet \u00e4nd\u00e5. Till vilken nytta vet jag inte.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Det d\u00e4r kommer till mig h\u00e4r p\u00e5 morgonen. Har inte t\u00e4nkt p\u00e5 det p\u00e5 m\u00e5nga \u00e5r trotts att checken sitter uppklistrad h\u00e4r p\u00e5 en v\u00e4gg. Minnen \u00e4r som bubblor d\u00e4r i huvudet. Poppar upp som dom vill och f\u00f6rsvinner igen.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Ute kryper temperaturen ner\u00e5t. F\u00e5r skrapa rutorna n\u00e4r jag skjutsar ner K till keramikkurs. Den f\u00f6rsta skrapningen av m\u00e5nga den h\u00e4r vintern t\u00e4nker man. Vet man. Sv\u00e4r man ramsor \u00e5t. Gilla icke. Inte ens lite. Hur skulle man kunna g\u00f6ra det?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I J\u00e4rvs\u00f6 och \u00c5re och i andra skidorter ropar man Halleluja<\/strong> och Hurra<\/strong> s\u00e5klart. Nu kan sn\u00f6kanonerna dundra iv\u00e4g och ig\u00e5ng. \u00c5tminstone om man befinner sig i elomr\u00e5de ett eller tv\u00e5. Sv\u00e5rare l\u00e4ngre s\u00f6derut kan man gissa. Men d\u00e4r kanske inte minusgraderna finns heller. D\u00e5 l\u00f6ser sig allt till det b\u00e4sta.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Mommons tid \u00e4r h\u00e4r, det m\u00e4rker man i inkorgen. Singles day. Black Friday. Cyber Monday som blir till veckor och f\u00f6re och efter och mer och mer och s\u00e5\u00e5\u00e5\u00e5\u00e5\u00e5 tr\u00f6ttande.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

K\u00e4nner att jag m\u00e5ste le lite f\u00f6r mig sj\u00e4lv \u00e5t den d\u00e4r k\u00e4nslan av ensammast i v\u00e4rlden som jag k\u00e4nt i s\u00e5 m\u00e5nga st\u00e4der runt om i v\u00e4rlden och beskriver ovan. Kanske lika bra att jag stannar h\u00e4r p\u00e5 min kulle i forts\u00e4ttningen. Sitter still liksom<\/strong>. D\u00e4r kan jag \u00e5tminstone njuta av det d\u00e4r solit\u00e4ra. Tycka synd om sig sj\u00e4lv, ja det \u00e4r v\u00e4l \u00e4nd\u00e5 blaha, blaha som inte leder n\u00e5gonstans alls. Man vill skrika “ryck upp dig din j\u00e4vlel<\/em>“. \u00c5t sig sj\u00e4lv allts\u00e5 i en annan tid. T\u00e4nk om man gjort det? Rykt upp sig i tid… Vad hade h\u00e4nt d\u00e5? <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Thanksgiving n\u00e4sta torsdag. Fin tradition egentligen. Men handlar mest om pengar och d\u00e5liga samveten numera allts\u00e5. F\u00f6r m\u00e5nga. Som inte har r\u00e5d med resor och stor kalkon. Lika bra vi slipper det d\u00e4r h\u00e4r allts\u00e5. Det och det delade Amerika som h\u00e5ller p\u00e5 att bryta s\u00f6nder den d\u00e4r sm\u00e4ltdegeln p\u00e5 andra sidan vattnet.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

N\u00e5ja. kan inte bara skriva och skriva och skriva skit h\u00e4r. M\u00e5ste jobba ocks\u00e5. Det skall jag nu allts\u00e5. “Arbete ger frihet<\/em>” sa n\u00e5gra f\u00f6rr, det \u00e4r lika osant nu som d\u00e5. Nu dikterar samma m\u00e4nniskor fast i en annan tid villkoren i v\u00e5rt styre h\u00e4r. Galenskapen.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Allt det d\u00e4r. T\u00e4nker man. N\u00e4r man knappar p\u00e5. Men ocks\u00e5. Eller ox\u00e5. N\u00e4r man skriver kortmeningar. Det g\u00e4ller att kunna ta in kortmeningar som l\u00e4sare. Rytm. F\u00f6rst\u00e5 den. Eller \u00e5tminstone f\u00f6rs\u00f6ka. F\u00f6rst\u00e5. Men jag knappar p\u00e5 s\u00e5klart. Vad skulle jag annars g\u00f6ra? Mitt liv. Ja med lite musik till d\u00e5 s\u00e5klart. Och n\u00e5gra ord. 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