{"id":42966,"date":"2022-10-06T09:00:00","date_gmt":"2022-10-06T08:00:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=42966"},"modified":"2022-10-06T09:00:00","modified_gmt":"2022-10-06T08:00:00","slug":"dagen-efter","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=42966","title":{"rendered":"Dagen efter"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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Jag st\u00e4ller aldrig n\u00e5gon ringklocka p\u00e5 morgnarna sedan l\u00e4nge. Ja “aldrig<\/em>” \u00e4r som vanligt en \u00f6verdrift. Men det h\u00e4nder s\u00e4llan, h\u00f6gst tv\u00e5 tre g\u00e5nger per \u00e5r. Resten av tiden f\u00f6rlitar jag mig p\u00e5 att K skall upp. Vaknar till det. Fast de sista \u00e5ren har inte ens det beh\u00f6vts. Jag vaknar tidigare och tidigare. Alltid med l\u00e4tthet. F\u00f6rvandlingen fr\u00e5n kv\u00e4lls\/nattm\u00e4nniska som bara p\u00e5g\u00e5r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men idag kommer jag upp f\u00f6rst kvart i \u00e5tta. Vet inte vad som h\u00e4nt. K har g\u00e5tt till jobbet. Ov\u00e4ckt ligger jag d\u00e4r. F\u00f6rv\u00e5nad n\u00e4r jag kommer upp och \u00e4r ensam hemma. Tomt. Tyst. Teatern ig\u00e5r och f\u00f6rs\u00f6ken att f\u00f6rst\u00e5 vad de egentligen menade tog tydligen luften ur mig. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men s\u00e5klart. Det g\u00f6r inget. Jag kan vakna kvart i \u00e5tta varje dag utan att n\u00e5gon s\u00e4ger n\u00e5got om det. Inte ens lillj\u00e4veln p\u00e5 axeln har (elaka) saker att s\u00e4ga d\u00e4r. Det \u00e4r upp till mig. S\u00e5 d\u00e5ligt samvete? – ICKE!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Nu nio sitter jag p\u00e5 kontoret igen. Skall k\u00f6ra ig\u00e5ng Hulken efter att te \u00e4r urdrucket. Ig\u00e5ngk\u00f6rningen \u00e4r en apparat som kr\u00e4ver en del \u00f6vervakning. Spring upp och ner. Speciellt s\u00e5 i \u00e5r n\u00e4r det \u00e4r m\u00e5nga modifieringar. Men allt brukar g\u00e5 bra och man f\u00e5r hoppas p\u00e5 det i \u00e5r ox\u00e5. V\u00e4rme sk\u00f6na inomhusv\u00e4rme kom till mig och ge v\u00e4rmen tillbaks till min hud och mitt hj\u00e4rta.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men med r\u00e4tt stor s\u00e4kerhet v\u00e4ntar allts\u00e5 en dag utan “riktigt arbete<\/em>” igen. Ja en hel vecka har (i princip) blivit bortkastad faktiskt. Alldeles f\u00f6r lite har blivit gjort av det jag ser som viktigt i alldeles f\u00f6r m\u00e5nga dagar. B\u00e4ttring s\u00e4ger lillj\u00e4vlen p\u00e5 axeln. Och f\u00f6r en g\u00e5ngs skull \u00e4r vi helt \u00f6verens.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Annars \u00e4r jag lite l\u00e4t nedst\u00e4md. Men eftersom nedst\u00e4mdhet alltid sammanfaller med kreativiteten s\u00e5 kan jag tolerera det d\u00e4r. Har alltid kunnat. P\u00e5 det hela en present fr\u00e5n han\/hon\/det\/gud s\u00e5klart. Om man nu v\u00e4ljer att se det s\u00e5. Att inte \u00e5ka s\u00e5 l\u00e5ngt ner att man misstr\u00f6star \u00f6ver tillvaron. Ja och inte \u00e5ka s\u00e5 l\u00e5ngt upp att man tror att v\u00e4rlden bara \u00e4r sin och leva livet d\u00e4refter. Manodepressiva \u00e4r vi allesammans. L\u00e5t vara att de flesta av oss inte beh\u00f6ver mediciner f\u00f6r att tygla de svaga upp och nedg\u00e5ngarna. Men bara de som kallar sig friska \u00e4r riktigt sjuka. N\u00e5got som man s\u00e5klart m\u00e5ste vara lite sjuk f\u00f6r att f\u00f6rst\u00e5.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men te urdrucket. Mail genomg\u00e5ngen. Det \u00e4r dags att starta \u00e5rets eldningss\u00e4song. Borde det inte vara fanfarer eller n\u00e5got d\u00e4r?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Jag st\u00e4ller aldrig n\u00e5gon ringklocka p\u00e5 morgnarna sedan l\u00e4nge. Ja “aldrig” \u00e4r som vanligt en \u00f6verdrift. Men det h\u00e4nder s\u00e4llan, h\u00f6gst tv\u00e5 tre g\u00e5nger per \u00e5r. Resten av tiden f\u00f6rlitar jag mig p\u00e5 att K skall upp. Vaknar till det. Fast de sista \u00e5ren har inte ens det beh\u00f6vts. Jag vaknar tidigare och tidigare. 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