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Dags att l\u00e4gga sig f\u00f6r den h\u00e4r gubben. Jo han som var tr\u00f6tt redan vid tv\u00e5tiden tidigare idag. En ren eftergift f\u00f6r \u00e5lderdomen. Aldrig att jag tidigare skulle gett mig s\u00e5h\u00e4r tidigt om flytet finns d\u00e4r. Ja och det g\u00f6r det nu. Men man f\u00f6rfaller. Orkar inte som f\u00f6rr. \u00c4nd\u00e5 inte lastgammal. Eller jo kanske. Men man undrar hur det skall bli f\u00f6r\u00f6ver. Orka rman ens g\u00e5 ner f\u00f6r trapporna?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Tr\u00f6sten \u00e4r att m\u00e5nga yngre ger sig innan. Sover nu. Vad en s\u00e5dan tr\u00f6st nu skall kallas. Ynklighetens tr\u00f6st. Kanske \u00e4r de unga helt enkelt smartare. Snabbare. Ja troligen. V\u00e4rlden tillh\u00f6r de unga. Det tror jag p\u00e5. Men vi som aldrig ger upp m\u00e5ste f\u00e5 h\u00e4nga med lite p\u00e5 det d\u00e4r ocks\u00e5. Om d\u00e5 endast f\u00f6r att vi \u00e4r sv\u00e5ra att bli av med. Biter oss fast. H\u00e4nger i den sista rottr\u00e5den \u00f6ver stupet.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

D\u00e5lig bok ligger och v\u00e4ntar bredvid s\u00e4ngen. Drar inte i mig som en bra g\u00f6r. Man somnar efter ett kapitel. Lockas inte att l\u00e4sa tre till trots utmattning intill d\u00f6d. Men ibland f\u00e5r man ta sig igenom ocks\u00e5 det som inte \u00e4r “j\u00e4vligt bra<\/em>“. Nyanser \u00e4r viktigt. N\u00f6dv\u00e4ndiga f\u00f6r att f\u00f6rst. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

23:35 denna kv\u00e4ll slutar allts\u00e5 min arbetsdag. Eftersom jag varit p\u00e5 resande fot ocks\u00e5 under dagen s\u00e5 b\u00f6rjade den inte vid \u00e5tta i morse som vanligt utan ist\u00e4llet strax efter ett idag p\u00e5 eftermiddagen. En halvdag allts\u00e5. Fusk. Sl\u00f6het. Smitning. Men man hoppas p\u00e5 ny dag imorgon. Med piggare huvud. F\u00e5r man det s\u00e5 ner igen och p\u00e5 uppgiften igen. Aldrig ge upp. En panna som sl\u00e5s g\u00e5ng p\u00e5 g\u00e5ng mot stenmuren. Blod som sprutar och skv\u00e4tter. Men aldrig ge upp. Inte innan muren faller. Eller pannan. S\u00e5 \u00e4r det. Det galna. Det hoppl\u00f6sa. Underbara. Ibland vackra.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

God natt!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Dags att l\u00e4gga sig f\u00f6r den h\u00e4r gubben. Jo han som var tr\u00f6tt redan vid tv\u00e5tiden tidigare idag. En ren eftergift f\u00f6r \u00e5lderdomen. Aldrig att jag tidigare skulle gett mig s\u00e5h\u00e4r tidigt om flytet finns d\u00e4r. Ja och det g\u00f6r det nu. Men man f\u00f6rfaller. Orkar inte som f\u00f6rr. \u00c4nd\u00e5 inte lastgammal. Eller jo kanske. 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