{"id":42589,"date":"2022-08-22T20:18:27","date_gmt":"2022-08-22T19:18:27","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=42589"},"modified":"2022-08-28T21:34:45","modified_gmt":"2022-08-28T20:34:45","slug":"inget-for-mig","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=42589","title":{"rendered":"Inget f\u00f6r mig"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Alla man tr\u00e4ffar fr\u00e5n f\u00f6rr pratar n\u00e4stan alltid om&#8230; ja just det f\u00f6rr. Jo, m\u00f6jligen ocks\u00e5 genomg\u00e5ngna operationer och sjukdomar, barnbarn och barn. Det finns inte s\u00e5 mycket att lyssna p\u00e5 l\u00e4ngre. <strong>NU<\/strong> existerar inte l\u00e4ngre. Eller dr\u00f6mmar f\u00f6r den delen.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-full\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"580\" height=\"371\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/08\/ake1.jpeg?resize=580%2C371&#038;ssl=1\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-42590\" srcset=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/08\/ake1.jpeg?w=641&amp;ssl=1 641w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/08\/ake1.jpeg?resize=300%2C192&amp;ssl=1 300w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 580px) 100vw, 580px\" \/><figcaption class=\"wp-element-caption\"><strong>Foto<\/strong>: Christer Nilsson, Ljusdals Posten<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Blir tr\u00f6tt p\u00e5 det d\u00e4r.  Skulle kunna blivit tr\u00f6ttare. Men \u00e4r redan fullt tr\u00f6tt &#8220;<em>by age<\/em>&#8220;. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Men man f\u00e5r sl\u00e5 d\u00f6v\u00f6rat till och s\u00e4ga ja och nej med mellanrum och automatik och t\u00e4nka p\u00e5 annat. Imorgon t.ex. Eller hur man tar sig ur det d\u00e4r samtalet p\u00e5 snabbaste s\u00e4tt och drar vidare.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u00c4nd\u00e5 \u00e4r det ju roligt ocks\u00e5 att tr\u00e4ffa kamrater fr\u00e5n f\u00f6rr. \u00c5tminstone d\u00e5 under de inledande kramarna och ryggdunkandet. Efter det borde allt vara avklarat och man skulle nicka hej och vandra iv\u00e4g i varsin riktning.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">V\u00e4rst \u00e4r s\u00e5klart dom som \u00e4r b\u00e4sta kompisar nu men inte var det f\u00f6rr. Man vill bara s\u00e4ga l\u00e5t mig vara ifred. Men \u00e4r f\u00f6r v\u00e4luppfostrad f\u00f6r det.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Dock, har varit p\u00e5 en reuinion faktiskt. H\u00f6gstadiet. Det tog cirka tio minuter f\u00f6r alla att ramla in i sina gamla roller. De som hade sin primetime under den d\u00e4r tiden nj\u00f6t s\u00e5klart i fulla drag. Vi som har haft liv efter h\u00f6gstadiet gjorde inte det. Nej, Nej, och <strong>NEJ<\/strong> har svaret varit p\u00e5 andra f\u00f6rslag om dylikt. Inget f\u00f6r mig. <strong>ALDRIG<\/strong>!<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Bloggen har haft n\u00e5got slags all time high under en tid. Mest handlar det d\u00e4r om elm\u00e4tare. Det andra jag skriver pumpar p\u00e5 som vanligt ungef\u00e4r. F\u00f6da f\u00f6r folk utan annat liv. Ja <strong>du<\/strong>!  Eller f\u00f6r er som inte har r\u00e5d med annat l\u00e4sbart.  Stackar. Men ett tack \u00e4r ni v\u00e4l \u00e4nd\u00e5 v\u00e4rda s\u00e5h\u00e4r p\u00e5 kv\u00e4llen. Hur skulle det annars varit med sj\u00e4lvk\u00e4nslan. Nu bevarad eftersom jag inte h\u00f6r era ojjanden och &#8220;<em>vad dumt<\/em>&#8220;. 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Men alla de d\u00e4r som \u00e4gnar sig \u00e5t det d\u00e4r \u00e4r r\u00e4tt gamla sj\u00e4lva. Det \u00e4r &#8220;<em>Bonde s\u00f6ker fru<\/em>&#8220;-generationen som blir pension\u00e4rer nu. Men \u00e4nnu har v\u00e4l 40-talisterna lite makt. Men den \u00e4r definitivt \u00f6verg\u00e5ende nu n\u00e4r ocks\u00e5 de sista i den generationen b\u00f6rjar inta servicehem och \u00e5lderdomshem och k\u00f6per fler rullatorer \u00e4n elgitarrer.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\"><strong>Rock&#8217;n Roll.<\/strong> Det nya 30 \u00e4r v\u00e4l \u00e5ttiofem nu om man skall lyssna p\u00e5 dom. Om n\u00e5gon nu g\u00f6r det l\u00e4ngre. Fl\u00e4skberget kallade. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">V\u00e4rlden tillh\u00f6r ungdomen. Vi gamla har som uppgift att flytta oss ur v\u00e4gen. 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