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S\u00e5 man lever. Tar igen lite os\u00f6mn fr\u00e5n natten i gr\u00f6n IKEA soffa under eftermiddagen. S\u00e4llskap av fru. Hon i annan del av soffa. Katt i mitten. Det \u00e4r gott liv. Men fryser s\u00e5klart. Hela Sverige fryser. I alla fall om man inte \u00e4r en d\u00f6d svensk.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Halvtid i semester. Har inga problem med semester alls i \u00e5r heller. Det f\u00f6rv\u00e5nar mig. Kanske \u00e4r det all tr\u00e4ning som pension\u00e4r som l\u00e4gger grunden till den d\u00e4r k\u00e4nslan. Men l\u00e4ngtar lite till h\u00f6sten ocks\u00e5. H\u00f6sten \u00e4r liksom projektstartstider. Den d\u00e4r k\u00e4nslan av att dra ig\u00e5ng med l\u00e5nga obrutna veckor f\u00f6r\u00f6ver \u00e4r sv\u00e5rslagen. Gillar mycket.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bilen inne p\u00e5 37600 kilometer. Skall ut p\u00e5 en l\u00e4ngre pr\u00f6vning n\u00e4sta vecka. Antagligen den sista l\u00e4ngre innan den ocks\u00e5 f\u00e5r sin pension och f\u00e5r ett nytt liv som bl\u00e4nkande konservburkar eller armeringsj\u00e4rn i vackert bygge. Ser p\u00e5 bilden att jag nog borde sk\u00e4mmas \u00f6ver det insidiga st\u00e4dl\u00e4get. Kanske skulle ta mig ann en sista puts innan avresa. Utsidan har aldrig sett en biltv\u00e4tt under v\u00e5ra femton \u00e5r som \u00e4gare. Ja regn s\u00e5klart.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Semesterl\u00e5t ett b\u00f6rjar n\u00e4rma sig “klar”. G\u00e5rdagskv\u00e4llen gjordes modigt f\u00f6rs\u00f6k att m\u00e5 dit men sen d\u00f6k lillkatten upp och vill sova p\u00e5 tangentbordet och vill hon det har jag hittat min \u00f6verman. Man fick ge sig. Men roligt. OJ!!!! s\u00e5 roligt jag har d\u00e4r nere i studion. Roligare kan ingen ha. Nya h\u00f6rlurarna \u00e4r levererade och de gav en helt annan ljudbild. Precis som f\u00f6rv\u00e4ntat. L\u00e4mnar inte s\u00e5 svarta plastflagor p\u00e5 hals och kinder heller s\u00e5 man t\u00f6rs g\u00e5 ut utan att folk rusar bort fr\u00e5n en skrikandes “svarta febern”. Ja nya \u00e4r t\u00e4mligen begagnade s\u00e5klart. Men syns p\u00e5 dom det g\u00f6r det inte. Perfekt f\u00f6r mig.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men musik. Valla Open t\u00e4nkte man sig. Men dyrt och regnv\u00e4der och elitistiskt. Skippar. G\u00f6r n\u00e5gra hamburgare och tittar p\u00e5 en film ist\u00e4llet.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fast stort behov av avlyssnad livemusik f\u00f6religger. M\u00e5ste \u00e5tg\u00e4rdas.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u00e5 jod\u00e5. N\u00f6jd med liv. Kan inte beg\u00e4ra mer. Imorgon b\u00f6rjar Loosveckan. Folkvandringar ut mot skogen f\u00f6rv\u00e4ntas. Mest pr\u00e4ster och gammalt. Folk skall ha vad folk vill ha. Ett tillf\u00e4lle att samlas tillsammans och fundera \u00f6ver hur d\u00e5ligt allt \u00e4r… Sj\u00e4lv \u00e5ker jag allts\u00e5 femtio mil s\u00f6derut f\u00f6r att slippa h\u00f6ra gn\u00e4llet.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Folk d\u00f6r. H\u00e4r i byn ocks\u00e5. M\u00e4nniskor som “alltid funnits” och som man delat n\u00e5gra ord med. Men varje persons d\u00f6d \u00e4r bara en krusning p\u00e5 ytan om man inte \u00e4r n\u00e4rst\u00e5ende. Det st\u00f6r mig. F\u00f6r s\u00e5 blir det n\u00e4r man sj\u00e4lv ocks\u00e5 l\u00e4mnar. Speciellt jag d\u00e5 som inget \u00e4r. Men en dag \u00e4r man borta. Det g\u00e5r en krusning genom samh\u00e4llet. Svag. En d\u00f6d till konstateras. Sen g\u00e5r man vidare med sitt. T\u00e4nker att man kanske m\u00e5ste ha den d\u00e4r d\u00f6dsannonsen \u00e4nd\u00e5. Den som \u00e4r \u00f6verprisad s\u00e5 att till och med helvetet k\u00e4nns paradisiskt. Ja f\u00f6r att klara av den d\u00e4r krusningen p ett v\u00e4rdigt s\u00e4tt liksom. Passera genom folks medvetanden en sista g\u00e5ng. Min dr\u00f6m att bli str\u00f6dd i Voxnan och f\u00e5 passera Voxna, Edsbyn, Bolln\u00e4s etc i fl\u00f6det p\u00e5 min v\u00e4g mot havet vet jag inte om den \u00e4r till\u00e5ten. Fast tystnaden. Blogg. Spotify. Github. Osv, Kanske r\u00e4cker det. Ja och \u00e4r billigare. Var tog han v\u00e4gen liksom?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Nu skall jag s\u00e4tta mig i studion en timme. Unna mig. Lillkatten \u00e4r d\u00e4r uppe s\u00e5 med lite tur borde jag kunna f\u00e5 n\u00e5got gjort.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

S\u00e5 man lever. Tar igen lite os\u00f6mn fr\u00e5n natten i gr\u00f6n IKEA soffa under eftermiddagen. S\u00e4llskap av fru. Hon i annan del av soffa. Katt i mitten. Det \u00e4r gott liv. Men fryser s\u00e5klart. Hela Sverige fryser. I alla fall om man inte \u00e4r en d\u00f6d svensk. Halvtid i semester. 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