Jag g\u00f6r klar den d\u00e4r l\u00e5dan av skr\u00e4pvirke. Fuller den med tv\u00e5 och en halv skottk\u00e4rror kompost. Sen \u00e4r mitt jobb gjort. K f\u00e5r plantera. Det \u00e4r arbetsf\u00f6rdelningen.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Som om jag f\u00f6rtj\u00e4nar det s\u00e4tter jag mig i utem\u00f6blerna. Solen har precis tittat fram efter en dag som mest har spelat i regnligan. D\u00e4r i stolen sluter jag \u00f6gonen och vips s\u00e5 kommer bilden av Nisse fram inom mig. Nisse och Nanny var v\u00e5ra grannar h\u00e4r n\u00e4r vi k\u00f6pte det h\u00e4r huset. V\u00e4nliga och trevliga s\u00e5dana. Pension\u00e4rer d\u00e5 n\u00e4r vi flyttade hit. Nyblivna. \u00c5ldrades under de \u00e5r vi hade sm\u00e5 barn. \u00c5r som g\u00e5r s\u00e5 fort f\u00f6r att det \u00e4r s\u00e5 mycket som skall h\u00e4nda d\u00e5. Nisse med sporten. TV och godis och rykande f\u00e4rsk tidning p\u00e5 helgerna. Och s\u00e5 Nanny. Tr\u00e4dg\u00e5rd. Njuta av solen och en mycket vacker tr\u00e4dg\u00e5rd. Kaffe p\u00e5 verandan som alla som bott efter\u00e5t i det huset ocks\u00e5 njuter av.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
S\u00e5 tog stroken Nanny. F\u00f6rst en g\u00e5ng. Sen en g\u00e5ng till. Det \u00e4r alltid sv\u00e5rare att resa sig efter den andra g\u00e5ngen. Man orkar inte hur mycket som helst. Nisse blev ensam.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Som ensam s\u00e5 var det s\u00f6ndagens skidt\u00e4vlingar som fortfarande var hans gostunder. En p\u00e5se godis. Tidningen. Sen soffan framf\u00f6r tv’n. Men ensam.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Men varf\u00f6r jag t\u00e4nker p\u00e5 honom \u00e4r f\u00f6r att de sista \u00e5ret, ja d\u00e5 satt han s\u00e5d\u00e4r som jag satt nu. Med solen i \u00f6gonen i sin \u00e4lskade tr\u00e4dg\u00e5rd. D\u00e4r somnade han och satt i sin stol och sov gott. Och h\u00f6sten eller om det var vintern efter s\u00e5 gick \u00e4ven han bort. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Hans vita Opel \u00e5ker f\u00f6rbi ibland fortfarande. I minnet. Stannar till en stund och vi pratar lite. Pytt-Nils. Jag skulle vilja att han fick se framsidan h\u00e4r. Grusplanen. Den vi gav oss fan p\u00e5 skulle bli gr\u00e4smatta. Nisse trodde inte det gick. Men tji fick han. Nor \u00e4r den det. Vi skulle jiddrat lite om det. Skrattat. D\u00e4r fanns noll prestige. B\u00e5da l\u00e4mnar bara goda minnen efter sig.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ja s\u00e5d\u00e4r \u00e4r det som gammal ocool gubbe att sluta \u00f6gonen. Man minns eller hittar p\u00e5. Ingenting \u00e4r m\u00e4rkv\u00e4rdigt. Bara precis som det \u00e4r f\u00f6r alla andra. F\u00f6r mig r\u00e4cker det. Mer beg\u00e4r jag inte. En stund i solen \u00e4r alldeles gott nog liksom<\/strong>.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Nu \u00e4r det allts\u00e5 jag som sitter d\u00e4r. Ingen kommer minnas mig sittande s\u00e5d\u00e4r. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Jag g\u00f6r klar den d\u00e4r l\u00e5dan av skr\u00e4pvirke. Fuller den med tv\u00e5 och en halv skottk\u00e4rror kompost. Sen \u00e4r mitt jobb gjort. K f\u00e5r plantera. Det \u00e4r arbetsf\u00f6rdelningen. Som om jag f\u00f6rtj\u00e4nar det s\u00e4tter jag mig i utem\u00f6blerna. Solen har precis tittat fram efter en dag som mest har spelat i regnligan. 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