{"id":41877,"date":"2022-05-12T07:54:57","date_gmt":"2022-05-12T06:54:57","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=41877"},"modified":"2022-05-12T07:54:57","modified_gmt":"2022-05-12T06:54:57","slug":"i-helvetet","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=41877","title":{"rendered":"I helvetet"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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St\u00e4dning och bokf\u00f6ring p\u00e5 samma dag. F\u00f6r m\u00e5nga ett bes\u00f6k i helvetet. Kanske inte det roligaste jag vet heller. Men normaldag. \u00d6verlevnadsbart. Har varit med om v\u00e4rre dagar. Mycket v\u00e4rre. Vissa saker \u00e4r det bara att g\u00f6ra. G\u00e4rna h\u00e5lla k\u00e4ften medans man g\u00f6r dom ocks\u00e5.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Det \u00e4r n\u00e5got lustigt med bokf\u00f6ring. N\u00e5got slags ordningssinne man inte visste man har triggas ig\u00e5ng av den. Nu speciellt s\u00e5 in i hellskotta s\u00e5klart eftersom jag byter bokf\u00f6ringsprogram till moderna grejer. ALLT \u00e4r annorlunda. Det som f\u00f6rr tog tv\u00e5 timmar tar nu allts\u00e5 tv\u00e5 dagar. Men man f\u00e5r inte ge sig. V\u00e4l inl\u00e4rt g\u00e5r saker kanske fortare. Man hoppas det. P\u00e5 hoppet lever m\u00e4nskligheten.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Annars \u00e4r livet gott h\u00e4r. Vaknar vid fem. Gammelgubbevaknar. Men dennna morgon somnar jag om igen och d\u00e5r g\u00f6r ju inte det n\u00e5got att \u00e4gonen \u00e5ker upp vid okristlig tid. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Korth\u00e5rig som fan. Bad om “inte s\u00e5 kort<\/em>“. Undrar lite hur det hade blivit om jag inte bett om “inte s\u00e5 kort<\/em>“. Men ingen f\u00f6rstod ju vad jag sa i alla fall s\u00e5klart. Men h\u00e5r v\u00e4xer ut. Har i alla fall gjort det hittils. Det man har kvar. Inte s\u00e5 viktigt. Jag ingen p\u00e5f\u00e5gel. Ingen har blivit attraherad av mig de senaste fyrtio \u00e5ren. Det l\u00e4r inte b\u00f6rja nu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Allt drar sig ner mot noll. Till och med bloggen. Den har annars tickat p\u00e5 stadigt under alla \u00e5r. Man \u00e4r liksom p\u00e5 v\u00e4g ut ur tiden k\u00e4nns det som. Bortgl\u00f6md \u00e4r bara f\u00f6rnamnet. Men om man nu \u00e4r en som har haft som h\u00f6gsta \u00f6nskan i livet att bli l\u00e4mnad i fred s\u00e5 skall man s\u00e5klart inte klaga. H\u00e4r och nu \u00e4r man n\u00e4ra nirvana i det avseendet. Lever man blir det b\u00e4ttre \u00e4nd\u00e5 skulle jag tro. Jag blir v\u00e4l en s\u00e5dan d\u00e4r man hittar i en stol mumifierad efter sex m\u00e5nader. D\u00f6d sedan l\u00e4nge. Hoppas bara attd et sista jag g\u00f6r \u00e4r att f\u00e5 igenom en ren kompilering. Sk\u00e4mmigt om det \u00e4r n\u00e5gra errors s\u00e5 d\u00e4r i slutet. Man vill sluta p\u00e5 topp.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Har inte riktigt h\u00e4mtat mig efter s\u00e5gklingeincidenten ig\u00e5r. “Grejer som man anv\u00e4nde p\u00e5 40-talet<\/em>“. Ja j\u00e4vlar. Man borde ha blivit ryss.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Skit samma. Jag var v\u00e4l b\u00e4st p\u00e5 70-talet jag med. Troligen. Eller ocks\u00e5 \u00e4r det nu. Alltid b\u00e4st i \u00f6gonblicket. Jo s\u00e5 \u00e4r det s\u00e5klart. Vill man tro i alla fall. \u00c5tminstone sikta p\u00e5 det. Alltid g\u00f6ra s\u00e5 bra ifr\u00e5n sig som man kan. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men nu telefon i fickan. \u00d6ronsn\u00e4ckor in. Musik och dammsugare p\u00e5…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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St\u00e4dning och bokf\u00f6ring p\u00e5 samma dag. F\u00f6r m\u00e5nga ett bes\u00f6k i helvetet. Kanske inte det roligaste jag vet heller. Men normaldag. \u00d6verlevnadsbart. Har varit med om v\u00e4rre dagar. Mycket v\u00e4rre. Vissa saker \u00e4r det bara att g\u00f6ra. G\u00e4rna h\u00e5lla k\u00e4ften medans man g\u00f6r dom ocks\u00e5. Det \u00e4r n\u00e5got lustigt med bokf\u00f6ring. 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