{"id":41656,"date":"2022-03-31T07:55:15","date_gmt":"2022-03-31T06:55:15","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=41656"},"modified":"2022-03-31T07:55:15","modified_gmt":"2022-03-31T06:55:15","slug":"en-idiot-troligen-alltsa","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=41656","title":{"rendered":"En idiot troligen allts\u00e5"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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Det \u00e4r m\u00e4rkligt hur man kan k\u00e4nna att vissa personer inte tycker om en f\u00f6rsta g\u00e5ngen man tr\u00e4ffar dom, ja ocks\u00e5 om man sj\u00e4lv st\u00e5r d\u00e4r med ett \u00f6ppet sinne. Eller det d\u00e4r att man kommer in i ett rum med ok\u00e4nda och n\u00e4stan direkt vet vilka man kommer att fungera med och vilka man inte kommer att fungera bra med. Ja det finns ju grader och gr\u00e5zoner h\u00e4r ocks\u00e5 s\u00e5klart. Men i stora drag st\u00e5r det klart efter bara en liten stund.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Jag har funderat mycket p\u00e5 det d\u00e4r om \u00e5ren. Verkligen anstr\u00e4ngt mig att f\u00f6rs\u00f6ka vara blank n\u00e4r jag tr\u00e4ffar nya m\u00e4nniskor. L\u00e5ta det bli vad det blir. Men v\u00e5gar p\u00e5st\u00e5 att den d\u00e4r f\u00f6rsta analysen fr\u00e5n intutionen som s\u00e4ger hur “relationen” kommer att utvecklas, eller inte, st\u00e4mmer n\u00e4stan alltid till hundra procent.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c4r man d\u00e5 en synnerligen icke popul\u00e4r person som jag \u00e4r, allts\u00e5 en som de flesta inte gillar, ja d\u00e5 kan ni ju fatta vad de d\u00e4r k\u00e4nslorna g\u00f6r med ens sj\u00e4lvf\u00f6rtroende. Inget man kan flina \u00e5t ens i sina lyckligaste stunder allts\u00e5.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men man kan ju l\u00e4tt t\u00e4nka ut att det d\u00e4r har med en d\u00e5lig sj\u00e4lvk\u00e4nsla att g\u00f6ra men jag sj\u00e4lv tror inte p\u00e5 det. Min intuition \u00e4r mitt starkaste vapen och den har aldrig n\u00e5gonsin svikit mig. Jag liter p\u00e5 den till hundra procent. Utan den ingen “jag”.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Nu tr\u00e4ffar jag s\u00e5klart inte s\u00e5 mycket m\u00e4nniskor \u00f6ver huvud taget numera. N\u00e4stan noll. Ja och \u00e4nnu mer s\u00e4llan m\u00e4nniskor jag inte redan k\u00e4nner p\u00e5 n\u00e5got vis. Blir noll. S\u00e5 allt det d\u00e4r l\u00f6ser sig \u00e4nd\u00e5. Jag kan liksom<\/strong> sitta h\u00e4r p\u00e5 min kulle och l\u00e5tsas att jag \u00e4r en ganska OK person \u00e4nd\u00e5. En som man skulle kunna gilla, \u00e5tminstone lite, eller i alla fall acceptera om han h\u00f6ll tyst och stannar p\u00e5 sin kulle.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Mitt intresse f\u00f6r det som h\u00e4nder inne i m\u00e4nniskors huvud \u00e4r s\u00e5klart helt of\u00f6rst\u00e5eligt utifr\u00e5n det h\u00e4r. Men kanske \u00e4r det just f\u00f6r att jag aldrig riktigt f\u00f6rst\u00e5tt mig p\u00e5 m\u00e4nniskorna.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Slutsats:<\/strong> Jag \u00e4r antagligen den idiot som redan grundskole\u00e5ren i Edsbyn f\u00f6rs\u00f6kte f\u00e5 mig till. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fast… just nu har jag inte tid med det d\u00e4r och skall jag knappa mig lycklig. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u00e5 det s\u00e5.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Det \u00e4r m\u00e4rkligt hur man kan k\u00e4nna att vissa personer inte tycker om en f\u00f6rsta g\u00e5ngen man tr\u00e4ffar dom, ja ocks\u00e5 om man sj\u00e4lv st\u00e5r d\u00e4r med ett \u00f6ppet sinne. Eller det d\u00e4r att man kommer in i ett rum med ok\u00e4nda och n\u00e4stan direkt vet vilka man kommer att fungera med och vilka man […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":24,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_crdt_document":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[24],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-41656","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-betraktelser"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":16653,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=16653","url_meta":{"origin":41656,"position":0},"title":"Jippie, \u00e4ntligen m\u00e5ndag.","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2015-02-23","format":false,"excerpt":"M\u00e5ndag morgon. 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