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Jag sitter h\u00e4r och funderar p\u00e5 att st\u00e4nga ner. F\u00f6r dagen allts\u00e5. Kontorsst\u00e4ngning. Fast trivs liter \u00e4nd\u00e5. K\u00e4nner mig inte s\u00e5 tr\u00f6tt heller. S\u00e5 kanske k\u00f6r jag en stund till. Fast bara kanske. Det \u00e4r en dag imorgon ocks\u00e5 ju. Fast fredag. Fredagar \u00e4r mest som halvdagar fast man jobbar hela dan. Det finns n\u00e5got okoncentrerat \u00f6ver den d\u00e4r dagen.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Jod\u00e5 det knappas p\u00e5. Men m\u00e5nga moment p\u00e5 varje del s\u00e5 det tar tid i alla fall. F\u00f6rs\u00f6ker att inte bli stressad \u00f6ver det. H\u00e4r m\u00e5ste det f\u00e5r ta den tid det tar f\u00f6r tillf\u00e4llet. Finns inga val d\u00e4r. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men levererat ljudkort g\u00f6r s\u00e5klart att man f\u00e5r en l\u00e4ngtan efter att g\u00f6ra musik. Den \u00f6versk\u00f6ljer mig just nu. \u00c4nd\u00e5 sitter jag h\u00e4r. Knappar p\u00e5. F\u00f6rdr\u00f6jd njutning \u00e4r dubbel njutning. Ja eller ingen njutning alls.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Det \u00e4r synd om ryssar som mister sina jobb. Det \u00e4r programmerarna jag h\u00f6r om s\u00e5klart. M\u00e4ngder av duktiga killar och tjejer. Nu \u00e4r det stopp p\u00e5 allt. Dom borde vandra mot Moskva som en man hela g\u00e4nget och s\u00e4ga stopp. F\u00f6r dom h\u00e4r m\u00e4nniskorna \u00e4r inte pro krig mot n\u00e5gon kan jag lova.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

En Ukrainsk musiker som tvingas fly, l\u00e4mna gitarrer, studioutrustning och livet drabbar mig h\u00e5rt. Men hus och grejer har s\u00e5klart inget v\u00e4rde om det g\u00e4ller livet. Fast tufft. Man kan vara s\u00e4ker p\u00e5 att inget finns kvar n\u00e4r man \u00e5terv\u00e4nder. Om man g\u00f6r det. Ja m\u00e5nga f\u00e5r ju l\u00e4mna husdjur ocks\u00e5 s\u00e5klart. Eller f\u00f6r\u00e4ldrar som inte orkar. Hemskt. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Man blir mordisk i sinnet n\u00e4r man t\u00e4nker p\u00e5 hur on\u00f6digt allt detta \u00e4r. S\u00e5 fullst\u00e4ndigt vansinnigt. S\u00e5 mycket el\u00e4nde och d\u00f6d f\u00f6r ingenting. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men man m\u00e5ste skjuta undan en del av det d\u00e4r. F\u00f6r att kunna leva. F\u00f6r att kunna jobba. F\u00f6r att inte sjunka ner i en evig depression. F\u00f6r \u00e4r det n\u00e5gon g\u00e5ng som det nedsjunkandet vore ber\u00e4ttigat s\u00e5 \u00e4r det v\u00e4l nu. En swishad slant d\u00f6var en del av det d\u00e4r. Men k\u00e4nns inte nog. Man vill skicka raketer och skjuta. Ja, jag som ser mig som en fredlig man.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

N\u00e5ja. Torsdag \u00e4nnu. Fredag imorgon. Man f\u00e5r knappa p\u00e5. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Jag sitter h\u00e4r och funderar p\u00e5 att st\u00e4nga ner. F\u00f6r dagen allts\u00e5. Kontorsst\u00e4ngning. Fast trivs liter \u00e4nd\u00e5. K\u00e4nner mig inte s\u00e5 tr\u00f6tt heller. S\u00e5 kanske k\u00f6r jag en stund till. Fast bara kanske. Det \u00e4r en dag imorgon ocks\u00e5 ju. Fast fredag. Fredagar \u00e4r mest som halvdagar fast man jobbar hela dan. 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