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Yngste sonen fyller trettio idag. Sv\u00e5rt att ta in p\u00e5 alla s\u00e4tt och vis. Jag f\u00f6rs\u00f6ker minnas hur man upplevde v\u00e4rlden sj\u00e4lv som trettio\u00e5ring. Ja Stockholm. T\u00e4by. D\u00e4r bodde vi. Inb\u00e4ddad programmering. Jobbade j\u00e4mt. Men vi var nog p\u00e5 v\u00e4g hit redan d\u00e5, f\u00f6r kamraterna p\u00e5 kanalv\u00e4gen gav mig en yxa men en inskription p\u00e5 till mig som present. Jo jag har den kvar. Borde slipas. F\u00f6r det \u00e4r en fin yxa. Anv\u00e4ndbar till vedklyvning. H\u00e5ller en generation till. Eller tre.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c4nd\u00e5 var det 1986 d\u00e5. Farsan var sextiofyra och man tyckte nog att han var urgammal. Ja morsan med s\u00e5klart. Ett \u00e5r yngre. Sj\u00e4lv \u00e4r man allts\u00e5 \u00e4ldre nu \u00e4n vad dom var d\u00e5. Otrolig tanke. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men man var b\u00e4st i v\u00e4rlden d\u00e5 s\u00e5klart. Kunde allt. Visste allt. V\u00e5gade allt. Det tog n\u00e5gra \u00e5r d\u00e4rifr\u00e5n innan \u00f6dmjukheten hann ifatt en igen efter Uppsala och universitetet. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Jag minns en g\u00e5ng, troligen under den d\u00e4r h\u00f6sten, n\u00e4r jag \u00e5kte upp till farsan. N\u00e4r jag knallade in hade han lagt tv\u00e5 korvar i br\u00f6d till hunden vid hundsk\u00e5len. S\u00e5klart hunden skulle ha samma mat som han skulle \u00e4ta. Jag fattade s\u00e5klart hur mycket den d\u00e4r hunden verkligen betydde f\u00f6r honom fast den inte ens var hans. Men flinade lite \u00e5t det d\u00e4r d\u00e5. Men uppskattar k\u00e4rleken till och fr\u00e5n en katt (eller tv\u00e5 stycken) p\u00e5 samma s\u00e4tt jag med idag. Man tar den k\u00e4rlek man f\u00e5r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ett annat minne fr\u00e5n den d\u00e4r g\u00e5ngen \u00e4r stj\u00e4rnhimlen. D\u00e4r ute d\u00e4r inga ljus fanns var den enorm och klar och m\u00e4ktig. Man var n\u00e4r han\/hon\/det\/gud. F\u00f6rresten m\u00e5ste det ha varit p\u00e5 v\u00e5ren f\u00f6r jag h\u00f6rde en morkulla flyga f\u00f6rbi n\u00e4r jag stod d\u00e4r ute under o\u00e4ndligheten minns jag. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men yngste sonen trettio idag allts\u00e5. Den \u00e4ldste tre \u00e5r \u00e4ldre. H\u00e4rifr\u00e5n f\u00e5r dom klara sig sj\u00e4lva. Dom \u00e4r vuxna nu precis som jag var (ganska) vuxen d\u00e5. Dom har egna liv. M\u00e5ste ta sina egna beslut och v\u00e4gval helt oberoende av oss “gamla”. Det \u00e4r dom som skall vara kvar n\u00e4r vi en g\u00e5ng \u00e4r borta. Kanske t\u00e4nka p\u00e5 samma s\u00e4tt en dag om mig och oss. Och inse att precis som farsan (troligen) inte k\u00e4nde sig gammal den d\u00e4r dan s\u00e5 g\u00f6r inte jag inte det heller och det kommer antagligen inte dom heller att g\u00f6ra. \u00c4nd\u00e5 tar ett liv slut under den d\u00e4r v\u00e4ntan p\u00e5 att \u00e4ntligen bli vuxen och gammal. Men \u00e4r man trettio \u00e4r det l\u00e5ngt dit s\u00e5klart.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Yngste sonen fyller trettio idag. Sv\u00e5rt att ta in p\u00e5 alla s\u00e4tt och vis. Jag f\u00f6rs\u00f6ker minnas hur man upplevde v\u00e4rlden sj\u00e4lv som trettio\u00e5ring. Ja Stockholm. T\u00e4by. D\u00e4r bodde vi. Inb\u00e4ddad programmering. Jobbade j\u00e4mt. Men vi var nog p\u00e5 v\u00e4g hit redan d\u00e5, f\u00f6r kamraterna p\u00e5 kanalv\u00e4gen gav mig en yxa men en inskription p\u00e5 […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":24,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_crdt_document":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[24],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-41462","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-betraktelser"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":20269,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=20269","url_meta":{"origin":41462,"position":0},"title":"Trettio \u00e5r, precis idag","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2016-05-01","format":false,"excerpt":"Idag. 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