{"id":41198,"date":"2022-02-02T21:19:37","date_gmt":"2022-02-02T20:19:37","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=41198"},"modified":"2022-02-02T21:19:37","modified_gmt":"2022-02-02T20:19:37","slug":"brakigt-fast-inte-pa-kullen","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=41198","title":{"rendered":"Br\u00e5kigt, fast inte p\u00e5 kullen"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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Chips h\u00f6r l\u00f6rdagar till. Absolut. Men kan inte h\u00e5lla mig. Det finns lite chips kvar i en p\u00e5se. Moffar i mig. F\u00e5r d\u00e5ligt samvete. Kan lika g\u00e4rna ta lite glass…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Eller var det omv\u00e4nt?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sk\u00e4ms f\u00f6r min brist p\u00e5 karakt\u00e4r. Verkligen. Men det \u00e4r som det \u00e4r. Man d\u00f6r tidigt men lyckligare. Kanske. Ja och med st\u00f6rre mage \u00e4n man annars haft.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Jag brukar f\u00f6lja n\u00e5gra tr\u00e5dar p\u00e5 byggahus.se<\/a> Allts\u00e5 granns\u00e4mja, det \u00e4r sv\u00e5ra saker det. Varje villaomr\u00e5de verkar vara mer likt den fr\u00e5n staden r\u00e5dande f\u00f6rest\u00e4llningen om glesbygsbyarnas \u00f6vervakningssamh\u00e4lle och “ha koll p\u00e5 alla<\/em>” mentalitet. Jag blir skr\u00e4md av hur jobbigt det verkar vara. Hur sm\u00e5 saker kan man egentligen blir oense om? Hur sv\u00e5rt det kan det vara att prata med varandra. Oj Oj OJ. Liksom<\/strong>. Los \u00e4r rena lugnet i j\u00e4mf\u00f6relse.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Br\u00e5kigt \u00e4r ordet. Ja hantverkare… nope… orkar inte ens f\u00f6lja \u00e4mnet. Det gn\u00e4lls p\u00e5 byggahus.se<\/a>. Lovar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Dagen d\u00e5. Jod\u00e5 det b\u00f6rjar bra med flyt och koncentration. Sen avtar det. HELVETE<\/strong>. Det \u00e4r d\u00e5 det beh\u00f6vs tr\u00f6st. Chips. Glass. Tr\u00f6st i p\u00e5se och p\u00e5 burk. Hj\u00e4lper oftast. Men inte alltid. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ser en bild p\u00e5 ett dike taget under f\u00f6rra sommaren under en morgon. Ett helt vanligt dike. Men i det finns blommor och det \u00e4r sommar och man t\u00e4nker \u00e5hhhhh<\/strong><\/em>….. K\u00e4nns l\u00e5ngt bort de d\u00e4r nu. Lika l\u00e5ngt bort som Amerika. Om man levt n\u00e4r sl\u00e4kten utvandrade dit fr\u00e5n H\u00e4ssjaberg. L\u00e5ngt som fan det. Mod fanns hos de d\u00e4r m\u00e4nniskorna.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ig\u00e5r n\u00e4r jag fyller pellets, d\u00e5 m\u00f6ter jag “r\u00e4ven” d\u00e4r ute. Vacker. Full\u00e4ndad. Foxy Lady. M\u00f6jligtvis en hane. Men vacker \u00e4nd\u00e5. Minns f\u00f6rsta h\u00f6sten som boende h\u00e4r. Jag bodde i Stockholm under veckorna. Veckopendlade. K ber\u00e4ttade om r\u00e4var och \u00e4lgar och mornar i guld och bl\u00e5tt. Avundsjuk s\u00e5 jag h\u00f6ll p\u00e5 g\u00e5 s\u00f6nder d\u00e4r i min l\u00e4genhet. N\u00e4r jag \u00e5kte hem\u00e5t p\u00e5 fredagarna var det en k\u00e4mpig tur. Det var l\u00e5nga arbetspass under veckorna. Men n\u00e4r jag klev ur bilen h\u00e4r uppe. Tog det d\u00e4r f\u00f6rsta andetaget av ren klar frisk luft och kunde st\u00e5 d\u00e4r och titta p\u00e5 stj\u00e4rnorna. Ja d\u00e5 var jag hemma p\u00e5 riktigt. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Tyv\u00e4rr gl\u00f6mmer man s\u00e5dant d\u00e4r. Bergen. Luften. Stj\u00e4rnhimlen. Djuren. Man tar det f\u00f6r givet efter ett tag. Synd. F\u00f6rs\u00f6ker minnas s\u00e5 gott jag kan.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Aprop\u00e5 stj\u00e4rnhimmel s\u00e5 \u00e4r det mycket goda chanser f\u00f6r norrsken vid tiotiden ikv\u00e4ll. \u00c5tminstone str\u00e5lningsm\u00e4ssigt. Men \u00e4r det molnigt s\u00e5 hj\u00e4lper s\u00e5klart inte det. I alla fall inte om man har inte har ett jetplan eller en v\u00e4derballong s\u00e5 man kan se det hela ovanifr\u00e5n s\u00e5 att s\u00e4ga.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Att b\u00e4ra en gitarr tjugo meter fr\u00e5n studion och placera den h\u00e4r bredvid mig f\u00f6r att ibland kunna ta upp den och spela lite \u00e4r en o\u00f6verkomlig uppgift. Varf\u00f6r det? N\u00e5got inom mig vill mig inte v\u00e4l. F\u00f6r jag tror n\u00e4mligen jag skulle m\u00e5 bra av n\u00e5gra mikropauser med gitarr i h\u00e4nderna. Ja och om inte s\u00e5 spelade det ingen alls roll. Kul \u00e4r kul. Men \u00f6verm\u00e4ktigt f\u00f6r mig. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Liv som trippar fram\u00e5t. I ett stort gult hus p\u00e5 en kulle.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Liksom<\/strong>.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Chips h\u00f6r l\u00f6rdagar till. Absolut. Men kan inte h\u00e5lla mig. Det finns lite chips kvar i en p\u00e5se. Moffar i mig. F\u00e5r d\u00e5ligt samvete. Kan lika g\u00e4rna ta lite glass… Eller var det omv\u00e4nt? Sk\u00e4ms f\u00f6r min brist p\u00e5 karakt\u00e4r. Verkligen. Men det \u00e4r som det \u00e4r. Man d\u00f6r tidigt men lyckligare. Kanske. 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