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“Don’t try so hard<\/em>” sjunger Queen och jag k\u00e4nner mig tr\u00e4ffad varje g\u00e5ng. Jo jag \u00e4r lite vidskeplig p\u00e5 det d\u00e4r viset. Set tecken \u00f6verallt. S\u00e5 veckan efter att farsan dog. “Ge mig ett tecken<\/em>” liksom<\/strong>. Sa det h\u00f6gt i bilen p\u00e5 v\u00e4g n\u00e5gonstans. Man s\u00f6rjer och undrar \u00f6ver liv efter detta. Tycker det \u00e4r ett sl\u00f6seri om han \u00e4r bara borta. Men upplever inget tecken. Stroppar in en bland-cd i CD-spelaren ist\u00e4llet. Eagles med ABBA. Ja kan det bli tydligare \u00e4n s\u00e5 “t\u00e4nker man<\/em>“. Ja j\u00e4vlar liksom… Fast klarhet f\u00e5r man ju inte. Man tvekar… Lite vett i skallen har man ju \u00e4nd\u00e5 kvar. Ja tyv\u00e4rr. Man skulle kunna skita i vett och sans ocks\u00e5 och bara tro. Men s\u00e5 funkar man ju nu inte. Det \u00e4r n\u00e5got inbyggt. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men “Don’t try so hard<\/em>” skulle kunna vara tr\u00f6stande om man kunde l\u00e5ta bli 08-00 med pause f\u00f6r lunch och Rapport och f\u00f6rs\u00f6ka och chilla lite ist\u00e4llet. Jag har egentligen gjort mina timmar. Kunde ligga p\u00e5 soffan hela dagarna om jag vill. Ingen skulle kunna s\u00e4ga n\u00e5got om det. Ja eller i all fall \u00e4gna mig \u00e5t det som bara \u00e4r roligt. G\u00f6ra s\u00e5dana d\u00e4r halvprojekt. Som vilken universitets\/h\u00f6gskole-lekar-snubbe som helst. L\u00e4mna n\u00e4r det \u00e4r dags att produktionsanpassa och allt s\u00e5dan d\u00e4r. Hoppa p\u00e5 n\u00e4sta akronym. Ja kanske till och med flabba vissa dar, ja k\u00f6ra bil med full gas genom byn till och med. Vara en tuffing. Men armen ut genom sidorutan. Barbr\u00f6stad. Urk…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fast provade det d\u00e4r n\u00e4r vi en g\u00e5ng skulle \u00e5ka genom R\u00e4ttvik och det var den d\u00e4r bilveckan d\u00e4r (Classic Car Week). K pratade inte med mig p\u00e5 en vecka efter det. Tyckte v\u00e4l det d\u00e4r var pinsamt med raggartag i en r\u00f6d Renault bland 50-tals mullrande fordon och stor publik.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u00e5 flabba f\u00e5r v\u00e4l den som flabba kan. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men “Don’t try so hard<\/em>” allts\u00e5. Skriva n\u00e5gra l\u00e5tar ist\u00e4llet. En och annan novell. B\u00f6rja r\u00f6ka igen. Sova till halv tolv och l\u00e4gga sig vid tre fyra. B\u00f6rja dan med en b\u00e4rs. Inte f\u00f6rs\u00f6ka s\u00e5 mycket.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ja kanske. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

F\u00f6r inte skulle det inneb\u00e4ra n\u00e5gon skillnad egentligen. Det \u00e4r helt s\u00e4kert. 100% Man kanske till och skulle bli en glad prick av det d\u00e4r. O-SUR.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Matar in r\u00e4kningar. Finner en gl\u00e4dje i det. Att kunna betala allt i r\u00e4tt tid. F\u00e5 lite \u00f6ver. Mer \u00e4n man f\u00f6rtj\u00e4nar. Kommer aldrig att gl\u00f6mma hur det var att inte kunna g\u00f6ra det. Fan, har inte ens \u00e4tit br\u00f6dkanter under januari ju. Inte ens varit n\u00e4ra. HURRA liksom<\/strong>.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men skiter nog i det h\u00e4r f\u00f6r idag. Allts\u00e5 lyssnar p\u00e5 Queen och f\u00f6rs\u00f6ker inte s\u00e5 j\u00e4vla mycket. Skiter kanske till och med i att fylla pellets. Hulken kan f\u00e5 hungra. Ja katterna kan f\u00e5 vara utan mat dom med. Hungra var ordet. Bara sova. Fast stackars Hulken… Stackar katter. Inte kan man g\u00f6ra s\u00e5. N\u00e4\u00e4\u00e4\u00e4\u00e4ee… Men ge sig kan man. Ingen bryr sig om det. Eftersom ingen bryr sig om n\u00e5got annat. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u00e5<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Slut f\u00f6r idag.
….<\/em><\/p><\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

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“Don’t try so hard” sjunger Queen och jag k\u00e4nner mig tr\u00e4ffad varje g\u00e5ng. Jo jag \u00e4r lite vidskeplig p\u00e5 det d\u00e4r viset. Set tecken \u00f6verallt. S\u00e5 veckan efter att farsan dog. “Ge mig ett tecken” liksom. Sa det h\u00f6gt i bilen p\u00e5 v\u00e4g n\u00e5gonstans. Man s\u00f6rjer och undrar \u00f6ver liv efter detta. 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