{"id":40226,"date":"2021-11-08T08:14:38","date_gmt":"2021-11-08T07:14:38","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=40226"},"modified":"2021-11-08T08:14:38","modified_gmt":"2021-11-08T07:14:38","slug":"den-forsta","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=40226","title":{"rendered":"Den f\u00f6rsta"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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M\u00e5ndag. F\u00f6r mig inneb\u00e4r m\u00e5ndagar oftast f\u00f6rv\u00e4ntan. En hel obruten vecka fram\u00f6ver. Det b\u00e4sta som finns. Men lite annat som m\u00e5ste ordnas ocks\u00e5 den h\u00e4r veckan. Vattenm\u00e4tarbyte bland annat. Jag s\u00e4tta upp en konsol f\u00f6rst. Jo man kan ringa en r\u00f6rmokare f\u00f6r s\u00e5dant. Men jag \u00e4r f\u00f6r sn\u00e5l f\u00f6r det helt enkelt. Vill sj\u00e4lv. Kan sj\u00e4lv. Tror jag.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fast minsta lilla s\u00e5dan d\u00e4r grej st\u00f6r kraftf\u00e4ltet. Jag beh\u00f6ver lugn. Avsp\u00e4nning med tillf\u00f6rsikt s\u00e5 att jag bara kan dyka ner i den d\u00e4r p\u00f6len av koncentration. Men man f\u00e5r hoppas p\u00e5 veckan efter. N\u00e4… visst…ja, det var n\u00e5got d\u00e5 med. Jaha, s\u00e5d\u00e4r skall det v\u00e4l forts\u00e4tta fram\u00e5t jul. Efter ny\u00e5r kanske…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

L\u00f6jligt s\u00e5klart. Jag har hur mycket tid som helst. Men \u00e4r v\u00e4l en alldeles f\u00f6r k\u00e4nslig och sv\u00e5rstartad sj\u00e4l f\u00f6r att n\u00f6ja mig med det. Bortsk\u00e4md.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u00e4tter p\u00e5 dagens f\u00f6rsta tv\u00e4tt maskin h\u00e4r p\u00e5 morgonen. M\u00e5ndagssyssla. En jag g\u00e4rna g\u00f6r. Det tar en halv dag att ta sig igenom veckans tv\u00e4tt. Man beh\u00f6ver knappt t\u00e4nka en tanke f\u00f6r att \u00e5stadkomma det d\u00e4r. Inte mycket svett genereras heller. Men en cirkel \u00e4r det. Den tar aldrig slut. Rena kl\u00e4der tas f\u00f6r givna och jag f\u00f6rst\u00e5r hur en husmor p\u00e5 femtiotalet upplevde tillvaron. Men vi delar p\u00e5 den d\u00e4r k\u00e4nslan ganska v\u00e4l h\u00e4r i huset. Annars hade det nog varit skit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

N\u00e4r jag ser floden av fredligt protesterande m\u00e4nniskor i Glasgow v\u00e4rms jag i mitt hj\u00e4rta. Alla har inte blivit lallande Facebookidioter. Det finns m\u00e4nniskor kvar med k\u00e4nslor och handlingsf\u00f6rm\u00e5ga. Tack f\u00f6r det. De d\u00e4r m\u00e4nniskorna \u00e4r planetens r\u00e4ddning. Kanske.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Jag f\u00e5r fyr p\u00e5 ljuset h\u00e4r p\u00e5 bordet. Kokar lite te. Ute \u00e4r det minus fem. Vinter. Men h\u00e4r p\u00e5 kontoret en behaglig v\u00e4rme. Min nya skrivbordsplats levererar faktiskt. Inte samma kallras som p\u00e5 det f\u00f6rra st\u00e4llet. Tror det h\u00e4r kan bli en bra vinter \u00e4nd\u00e5. Hulken har hummande lovat att h\u00e5lla ut en s\u00e4song till och min pelletsleverant\u00f6r \u00e4r alert och p\u00e5 som alltid. Det borde g\u00e5.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u00e5 f\u00e5r min vecka b\u00f6rja.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

M\u00e5ndag. F\u00f6r mig inneb\u00e4r m\u00e5ndagar oftast f\u00f6rv\u00e4ntan. En hel obruten vecka fram\u00f6ver. Det b\u00e4sta som finns. Men lite annat som m\u00e5ste ordnas ocks\u00e5 den h\u00e4r veckan. Vattenm\u00e4tarbyte bland annat. Jag s\u00e4tta upp en konsol f\u00f6rst. Jo man kan ringa en r\u00f6rmokare f\u00f6r s\u00e5dant. Men jag \u00e4r f\u00f6r sn\u00e5l f\u00f6r det helt enkelt. Vill sj\u00e4lv. 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