{"id":40168,"date":"2021-11-01T21:49:20","date_gmt":"2021-11-01T20:49:20","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=40168"},"modified":"2021-11-02T08:04:01","modified_gmt":"2021-11-02T07:04:01","slug":"en-raknare-pa-noll","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=40168","title":{"rendered":"En r\u00e4knare p\u00e5 noll"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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R\u00e4knaren hamnar p\u00e5 noll till slut. Det trodde man ju knappt skulle ske n\u00e5gonsin f\u00f6r fem \u00e5r sedan. 1797 dagar har g\u00e5tt. H\u00e5rd tid. Stundtals k\u00e4mpiga dagar. Men tid g\u00e5r. Tickar p\u00e5. Sakta kan man tycka n\u00e4r man befinner sig i fl\u00f6det. Men fram\u00e5t g\u00e5r den. Tills man d\u00e5 har r\u00e4knat ner till noll som h\u00e4r idag.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

“Frihet<\/em>” \u00e4r v\u00e4l det ord som kan sammanfatta det hela med. “M\u00f6jligheter<\/em>” \u00e4r ett annat ord som passar in. Fast hos mig samlar sig de d\u00e4r fem \u00e5ren som en stor tyngd just nu idag vid noll och g\u00f6r mig s\u00e5 tr\u00f6tt s\u00e5 tr\u00f6tt s\u00e5 jag n\u00e4stan m\u00e5ste l\u00e4gga mig ner och vila under delar av dan idag. Jag k\u00e4nner mig ledsen n\u00e4r jag borde k\u00e4nna mig glad. Men det goda kommer v\u00e4l ikapp. Man beh\u00f6ver tid f\u00f6r att fatta och f\u00f6rst\u00e5. S\u00e5 mycket energi har anv\u00e4nts till att bara \u00f6verleva under s\u00e5 m\u00e5nga \u00e5r. Trettio \u00e5r av ens liv.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Om ytterligare bara n\u00e5gra timmar blir jag pension\u00e4r. Intr\u00e4der i den d\u00e4r sista etappen av livet och har bara d\u00f6den att se fram emot efter det. Vilan. “Frihet<\/em>” kan v\u00e4l ocks\u00e5 det sammanfattas. Klockorna tickar p\u00e5 ett annat s\u00e4tt nu. Mer f\u00f6rl\u00e5tande. Tick tack i viskande melankolisk mollst\u00e4md klang. Ackompanjemang f\u00f6r den tr\u00f6ttes resa mot slutet i en l\u00e5ng existens. I allt. Gott \u00e4r det. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

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R\u00e4knaren hamnar p\u00e5 noll till slut. Det trodde man ju knappt skulle ske n\u00e5gonsin f\u00f6r fem \u00e5r sedan. 1797 dagar har g\u00e5tt. H\u00e5rd tid. Stundtals k\u00e4mpiga dagar. Men tid g\u00e5r. Tickar p\u00e5. Sakta kan man tycka n\u00e4r man befinner sig i fl\u00f6det. Men fram\u00e5t g\u00e5r den. Tills man d\u00e5 har r\u00e4knat ner till noll som […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":24,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_feature_clip_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2},"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[24],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-40168","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-betraktelser"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":25253,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=25253","url_meta":{"origin":40168,"position":0},"title":"Semlor, k\u00e4rlek och musik","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2017-09-05","format":false,"excerpt":"Lugn, jag t\u00e4nker inte prata om mina kr\u00e4mpor ock sjukdomar.\u00a0 S\u00e5 andas lugnt. 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