{"id":40140,"date":"2021-10-29T16:26:05","date_gmt":"2021-10-29T15:26:05","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=40140"},"modified":"2021-10-29T16:26:05","modified_gmt":"2021-10-29T15:26:05","slug":"zero","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=40140","title":{"rendered":"Zero"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
\"close
Photo by Greta Hoffman on Pexels.com<\/a><\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n

Noll. Zip. Zero. En hel dag. Ja en kv\u00e4ll f\u00f6re det ocks\u00e5. Tamefan en hel vecka om man t\u00e4nker efter. L\u00e5gvattenm\u00e4rke. Det blir inte mycket gjort.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men ibland f\u00e5r man offra en vecka. Som i milit\u00e4r strategi. Retirera. Omtag. F\u00f6r att f\u00e5r andra veckor d\u00e4r det g\u00e5r b\u00e4ttre. Anfall<\/strong>! Fram\u00e5t<\/strong>!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Allts\u00e5 finns h\u00e4r stora f\u00f6rhoppningar om att n\u00e4sta vecka blir en kanonvecka i full koncentration. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men Bolln\u00e4s idag. En heldag i de stora ink\u00f6pens tecken. Fyller p\u00e5. Betalar ut. Mest \u00e4r det mat och reservdelar till bil. N\u00e5got lite l\u00e4ggs pengar p\u00e5 gl\u00e4dje ocks\u00e5. Ja mer \u00e4n vanligt definitivt. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

I Bolln\u00e4s \u00e4r det en s\u00e5dan d\u00e4r dag n\u00e4r man f\u00e5r lotter f\u00f6r sitt handlande. Sen kan man vinna och f\u00e5r femtio tusen att handla f\u00f6r under en dag. V\u00e5ra kuponger ligger nedpackad i en kasse med mat inhandlat p\u00e5 n\u00e4tet. Vi hittar dom f\u00f6rst n\u00e4r vi \u00e4r hemma. K\u00e4nns lite attans. Men man kan ju inte \u00e5ka tillbaks till Bolln\u00e4s f\u00f6r en s\u00e5dan sak. Fast hur det \u00e4n \u00e4r. Jag vann Ljusdals motsvarighet till det d\u00e4r en g\u00e5ng. Fick tjugotusen att handla f\u00f6r. Tror fortfarande inte att det \u00e4r sant. Att lyckas tv\u00e5 g\u00e5nger med den bedriften… ja det \u00e4r r\u00e4tt osannolikt. Men det var det \u00e5 andra sidan ocks\u00e5 att vinna en g\u00e5ng. S\u00e5 vi brukar l\u00e4mna in dom d\u00e4r. Man vet \u00e4nd\u00e5 aldrig<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Nu sitter jag och v\u00e4ntar p\u00e5 kaffe. det droppar och s\u00f6rplat i k\u00f6ket h\u00e4r p\u00e5 l\u00e5tsaskontoret. En r\u00e4ddning efter inmundigad mat. Eller m\u00f6jlig r\u00e4ddning. Troligtvis somnar jag senare p\u00e5 en gr\u00f6n IKEA-soffa n\u00e4ra mig i alla fall. S\u00e5 k\u00e4nns det \u00e5tminstone. F\u00f6r \u00e4ven om det inte blivit mycket gjort s\u00e5 har det gjorts idoga f\u00f6rs\u00f6k att f\u00e5 n\u00e5got gjort under veckan. Jod\u00e5. Definitivt. Ocks\u00e5 att f\u00f6rs\u00f6ka kostar energi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Varmt h\u00e4r p\u00e5 l\u00e5tsaskontoret. F\u00f6r varmt. Men jag unnar mig. Skall \u00e5terst\u00e4lla till mer normala temperaturer snart. Fast kanske n\u00e4r “l\u00e5tsas” ger sig iv\u00e4g. Fr\u00e5n och med tisdag n\u00e4sta vecka finns det inte l\u00e4ngre n\u00e5got l\u00e5tsas varesig \u00f6ver mitt arbete eller mitt kontor. Noll l\u00e5tsas allts\u00e5. I det finns en k\u00e4nsla kring identitet som \u00e4r enormt viktig f\u00f6r mig. Mer s\u00e5 \u00e4n jag n\u00e5gonsin kan f\u00f6rklara. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men nu g\u00e4ller det fr\u00e4mst att ta sig igenom inkorgens all sm\u00f6rja. Man \u00e4r som ett anrikningsverk i en guldgruva d\u00e4r. Promille r\u00e4knas. Det mesta \u00e4r skit. Sen fredagsbackup. Skickar lite filer till New Zeeland . Det \u00e4r en galen v\u00e4rld. Och man h\u00e4nger med i det galna. F\u00f6r s\u00e4kerhets skull beh\u00e5ller jag en kopia h\u00e4r med utifall Nya Zeeland sjunker. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Kaffet smakar utm\u00e4rkt kan jag meddela. Giftigheterna sprider sig redan i blodet och kanske sparkar det ig\u00e5ng n\u00e5gon cell som ligger d\u00e4r och sover, f\u00e5r ig\u00e5ng en uppvakningsprocess och kedjereaktion i gamla kroppen s\u00e5 att man piggnar till lite. Av det k\u00e4nns dock \u00e4nnu inget. Troligen kommer det aldrig g\u00f6ra det. Att anv\u00e4nda kaffe som r\u00e4ddning gav jag egentligen upp f\u00f6r tjugo \u00e5r sedan. Men ger s\u00e5klart inte upp hoppet.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Med +200 mail pockar p\u00e5 att f\u00e5 min uppm\u00e4rksamhet. Kattguld de mesta. Men ett och annat riktigt guldkorn finns det allt i det d\u00e4r. Dom f\u00e5r man ta vara p\u00e5 d\u00e5 allts\u00e5. Men det tar alltid en stund att g\u00e5 igenom malmen, eller mailen. Things real men have to to<\/em>. M\u00f6gligen skall det vara “has” d\u00e4r. Men s\u00e5 \u00e4r det v\u00e4l. Kanske. Jo s\u00e4kert kvinnor ocks\u00e5. Vad vet jag. Och de med annan k\u00f6nstillh\u00f6righet. Alla m\u00e5ste ta sig igenom skiten f\u00f6r att komma till ljuset eller n\u00e5got. *\u00c4hhhh fan s\u00e5 pretenti\u00f6st det blev. Nakna flickor. Friarbrev. Arv. G\u00e5vor. Skall \u00e5r ett h\u00e5ll. Ointressant t\u00e5t samma h\u00e5ll. Intressant kan sparas till veckan. \u00d6vrigt, som kanske kr\u00e4ver en reaktion, ja dem f\u00e5r man tas sig ann. Det var nu l\u00e4nge sedan dom var m\u00e5nga s\u00e5klart. S\u00e5 n\u00e4r man n\u00e5tt den punkten \u00e4r man vanligtvis – \u00e5tminstone i princip – klar. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u00e5 jag \u00f6nskar trevlig helg h\u00e4rifr\u00e5n. Lev gott d\u00e4r ute. T\u00e4nk p\u00e5 att det bara gives ett liv. Man b\u00f6r \u00e4gna det livet \u00e5t att g\u00f6ra det man vill. Inte det som andra vill.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Liksom<\/strong>.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Noll. Zip. Zero. En hel dag. Ja en kv\u00e4ll f\u00f6re det ocks\u00e5. Tamefan en hel vecka om man t\u00e4nker efter. L\u00e5gvattenm\u00e4rke. Det blir inte mycket gjort. Men ibland f\u00e5r man offra en vecka. Som i milit\u00e4r strategi. Retirera. Omtag. F\u00f6r att f\u00e5r andra veckor d\u00e4r det g\u00e5r b\u00e4ttre. Anfall! Fram\u00e5t! Allts\u00e5 finns h\u00e4r stora f\u00f6rhoppningar […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":24,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_feature_clip_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2},"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[24],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-40140","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-betraktelser"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":36232,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=36232","url_meta":{"origin":40140,"position":0},"title":"Morgonstund","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2020-09-22","format":false,"excerpt":"Morgonstund har guld i mun s\u00e4gs det. Vet inte om jag alltid h\u00e5ller med om det. Fast oftast \u00e4nd\u00e5. Men min mobilkamera med beauty-filter och allt klarar definitivt inte av min nuna varesig det \u00e4r morgon eller kv\u00e4ll. Gr\u00e5h\u00e5rig blir man och trettio \u00e5r \u00e4ldre. Men kanske \u00e4r det just\u2026","rel":"","context":"In "Betraktelser & Ber\u00e4ttelse"","block_context":{"text":"Betraktelser & Ber\u00e4ttelse","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?cat=24"},"img":{"alt_text":"","src":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/09\/IMG_20200919_123343.jpg?resize=350%2C200&ssl=1","width":350,"height":200,"srcset":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/09\/IMG_20200919_123343.jpg?resize=350%2C200&ssl=1 1x, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/09\/IMG_20200919_123343.jpg?resize=525%2C300&ssl=1 1.5x, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/09\/IMG_20200919_123343.jpg?resize=700%2C400&ssl=1 2x"},"classes":[]},{"id":28086,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=28086","url_meta":{"origin":40140,"position":1},"title":"M\u00e5ndag","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2018-04-23","format":false,"excerpt":"Jod\u00e5, b\u00f6rjar dan med att besiktiga bilen. Eller \u00e5terbesiktiga. Tre dagar f\u00f6re k\u00f6rf\u00f6rbud. Det g\u00e5r bra. Den k\u00e4nslan \u00e4r alltid god. Fattar dock fortfarande inte det d\u00e4r med fjortonm\u00e5naders besiktningsperiod. St\u00e5r fortfarande samma tidsspann p\u00e5 papperen jag f\u00e5r. Men sk\u00f6nt att det d\u00e4r \u00e4r klart. Bra start p\u00e5 veckan. 33700\u2026","rel":"","context":"In "Betraktelser & Ber\u00e4ttelse"","block_context":{"text":"Betraktelser & Ber\u00e4ttelse","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?cat=24"},"img":{"alt_text":"","src":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/04\/tallar1-925x1024.png?resize=350%2C200","width":350,"height":200,"srcset":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/04\/tallar1-925x1024.png?resize=350%2C200 1x, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/04\/tallar1-925x1024.png?resize=525%2C300 1.5x"},"classes":[]},{"id":51401,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=51401","url_meta":{"origin":40140,"position":2},"title":"Sentimental","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2026-03-15","format":false,"excerpt":"S\u00e5 g\u00e5r Edsbyn och blir m\u00e4stare igen i bandy och \"byn\" blir guldbyn igen. T\u00e4nka sig. Sicken l\u00f6rdag. Man blev alldeles svettig. I soffan... Jag f\u00f6rs\u00f6ker k\u00e4nna ingen supportrar man ser p\u00e5 tv. Siktar in sig p\u00e5 de gr\u00e5a. Men inte en kotte k\u00e4nner jag igen. Ljusnan har en bildserie\u2026","rel":"","context":"In "Swedish"","block_context":{"text":"Swedish","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?cat=2"},"img":{"alt_text":"","src":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/03\/ebbc7e34-5130-49b0-b332-4c28a6994c59.avif","width":350,"height":200,"srcset":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/03\/ebbc7e34-5130-49b0-b332-4c28a6994c59.avif 1x, https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/03\/ebbc7e34-5130-49b0-b332-4c28a6994c59.avif 1.5x, https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/03\/ebbc7e34-5130-49b0-b332-4c28a6994c59.avif 2x, https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/03\/ebbc7e34-5130-49b0-b332-4c28a6994c59.avif 3x, https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/03\/ebbc7e34-5130-49b0-b332-4c28a6994c59.avif 4x"},"classes":[]},{"id":33316,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=33316","url_meta":{"origin":40140,"position":3},"title":"Mysfredag","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2019-10-18","format":false,"excerpt":"Nyss, alldeles nyss, f\u00f6r en liten stund sedan var det m\u00e5ndag. Man hade en hel obruten vecka framf\u00f6r sig. Skulle hinna... ja rent av g\u00f6ra \"klart \"saker. Men nu siter man h\u00e4r. Det \u00e4r en kvart kvar p\u00e5 veckan. Den l\u00e5tsasarbetande delen allts\u00e5. Man har inte hunnit me allt man\u2026","rel":"","context":"In "Betraktelser & Ber\u00e4ttelse"","block_context":{"text":"Betraktelser & Ber\u00e4ttelse","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?cat=24"},"img":{"alt_text":"","src":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/10\/akhe_20180727.jpg?resize=350%2C200&ssl=1","width":350,"height":200,"srcset":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/10\/akhe_20180727.jpg?resize=350%2C200&ssl=1 1x, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/10\/akhe_20180727.jpg?resize=525%2C300&ssl=1 1.5x"},"classes":[]},{"id":35719,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=35719","url_meta":{"origin":40140,"position":4},"title":"Steg 2","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2020-08-09","format":false,"excerpt":"Photo by Engin Akyurt on Pexels.com S\u00f6ndagskv\u00e4ll. En ny vecka. Vecka 2 efter ledighet. Om man nu ser n\u00e5gon skillnad. De \u00e4r \u00e4nd\u00e5 r\u00e4tt lika. Om man nu inte tittar efter. Noga. Eller \u00e4gnar sig \u00e5t att oja sig. Prickar av lite punkter p\u00e5 listan under helgen ocks\u00e5. \u00c5h vad\u2026","rel":"","context":"In "Betraktelser & Ber\u00e4ttelse"","block_context":{"text":"Betraktelser & Ber\u00e4ttelse","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?cat=24"},"img":{"alt_text":"assorted color umbrellas","src":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/08\/pexels-photo-1486861.jpeg?resize=350%2C200&ssl=1","width":350,"height":200,"srcset":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/08\/pexels-photo-1486861.jpeg?resize=350%2C200&ssl=1 1x, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/08\/pexels-photo-1486861.jpeg?resize=525%2C300&ssl=1 1.5x, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/08\/pexels-photo-1486861.jpeg?resize=700%2C400&ssl=1 2x, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/08\/pexels-photo-1486861.jpeg?resize=1050%2C600&ssl=1 3x, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/08\/pexels-photo-1486861.jpeg?resize=1400%2C800&ssl=1 4x"},"classes":[]},{"id":38254,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=38254","url_meta":{"origin":40140,"position":5},"title":"\u00d6verdrift","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2021-03-25","format":false,"excerpt":"Tomater gillar man ju men m\u00f6jligen \u00e4r m\u00e4ngden just idag en \u00f6verdrift. Men snart dagas att flytta \u00f6ver i solit\u00e4ra hemvister. Den bl\u00f6dige skall allts\u00e5 v\u00e4lja ut en f\u00f6rsta g\u00e5ng vilka som skall f\u00e5 \u00f6verleva och vilka som inte skall f\u00e5 det. Ja det d\u00e4r \u00e5terkommer ju sedan ocks\u00e5. Bort\u2026","rel":"","context":"In "Betraktelser & Ber\u00e4ttelse"","block_context":{"text":"Betraktelser & Ber\u00e4ttelse","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?cat=24"},"img":{"alt_text":"","src":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/03\/IMG_20210325_074755-scaled.jpg?resize=350%2C200&ssl=1","width":350,"height":200,"srcset":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/03\/IMG_20210325_074755-scaled.jpg?resize=350%2C200&ssl=1 1x, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/03\/IMG_20210325_074755-scaled.jpg?resize=525%2C300&ssl=1 1.5x, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/03\/IMG_20210325_074755-scaled.jpg?resize=700%2C400&ssl=1 2x, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/03\/IMG_20210325_074755-scaled.jpg?resize=1050%2C600&ssl=1 3x, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/03\/IMG_20210325_074755-scaled.jpg?resize=1400%2C800&ssl=1 4x"},"classes":[]}],"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/s68PL2-zero","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/40140","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/24"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=40140"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/40140\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":40142,"href":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/40140\/revisions\/40142"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=40140"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=40140"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=40140"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}