{"id":40110,"date":"2021-10-25T17:35:41","date_gmt":"2021-10-25T16:35:41","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=40110"},"modified":"2021-10-25T17:35:41","modified_gmt":"2021-10-25T16:35:41","slug":"en-knol-pa-en-knol","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=40110","title":{"rendered":"En kn\u00f6l p\u00e5 en kn\u00f6l"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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Magnetkamera. Negativ. Positiv f\u00f6r mig. Kn\u00f6l. Bara fettv\u00e4vnad. Jod\u00e5. Det har man ju mer av. Tack f\u00f6r det liksom.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Det negativa svaret \u00e4r brev ett. Ja positivt f\u00f6r mig. Brev tv\u00e5 \u00e4r en tid f\u00f6r vaccinering. S\u00e4songsinfluensa vaccin. Gratis. “F\u00f6r dig \u00f6ver 65<\/em>“. Vi har k\u00e4nsligare hj\u00e4rta och lungor i v\u00e5r \u00e5lder. S\u00e5 st\u00e5r det. Jod\u00e5. Man blir n\u00e4stan f\u00f6rbannad. S\u00e5 k\u00e4nns det minsann inte. Men r\u00e4knar man efter finns s\u00e5klart inget att argumentera om. Det d\u00e4r tillsammans med seniorrabatt p\u00e5 ICA och rabatt inom kollektivtrafiken tar n\u00e4stan k\u00e5l p\u00e5 alla sj\u00e4lvk\u00e4nsla. Men gratis \u00e4r gott. S\u00e5 naturligtvis tar jag det d\u00e4r vaccinet. Fast lite under protest.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Okoncentrerad dag fram till hit. Irriterar mig. Som varje g\u00e5ng. Vill dyka ner. Hela v\u00e4gen. Hela jag. Uppfyllas av det jag jobbar med. Men allts\u00e5 inte idag. Men kv\u00e4llen kvar. Morgondag. Mer vecka. Man hoppas p\u00e5 den tiden ist\u00e4llet. T\u00e4nk om det kom en dag n\u00e4r allt det h\u00e4r f\u00f6rsvann. Vad fanns kvar av mig d\u00e5?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men jag har s\u00e5klart offrat saker f\u00f6r det h\u00e4r. Socialt umg\u00e4nge. Mer. Annat. Mycket. Men folk har \u00e4nd\u00e5 antagligen aldrig sett mig som en s\u00e5dan d\u00e4r trevlig m\u00e4nniska. Ingen skada skedd allts\u00e5. Jag hade \u00e4nd\u00e5 hamnat h\u00e4r. Utanf\u00f6rskapet h\u00e4r i Los \u00e4r perfekt. Landsflykten.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

River den r\u00f6da packb\u00e4nken. Den d\u00e4r det packats s\u00e5 m\u00e5nga saker. Kryddor och tre ocks\u00e5. M\u00e5nga p\u00e5sar. K. Men beh\u00f6vs inte mer. Bygger en liten ist\u00e4llet. Senare. I det som var kallst\u00e4llt f\u00f6rr. H\u00f6rnet d\u00e4r den stod t\u00e4nker jag sj\u00e4lv ta i besittning. Finns n\u00e4mligen ett synnerligen varmt element d\u00e4r. Ja och h\u00e4r, i mig, finns en synnerligen frysande person. The perfect match<\/strong>.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fast fryser g\u00f6r ingen h\u00e4r i huset just nu. Mycket varmt. T\u00e4ndelementet p\u00e5 pelletsbr\u00e4nnaren trasigt n\u00e4mligen. F\u00f6rs\u00f6ker balansera k\u00f6rningen s\u00e5 att den inte beh\u00f6ver t\u00e4nda allts\u00e5. Resultatet \u00e4r ett mycket varmt hus. Men f\u00f6r mig som \u00e4r en fryslort, inte f\u00f6r varmt, s\u00e5klart. Fast egentligen \u00e4r det ju det s\u00e5klart. Men ordning mot slutet av veckan. B\u00f6r dyka upp reservdel d\u00e5. Sexhundrasjuttiosp\u00e4nn<\/em>.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

En dag n\u00e4r jag blir rik skall jag ha ett t\u00e4ndelement som bara ligger d\u00e4r i reserv i en l\u00e4tthittad l\u00e5da. V\u00e5ta dr\u00f6mmar f\u00f6r gamla gubbar som bor i stora gula hus p\u00e5 t\u00e4mligen sm\u00e5 kullar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

ETMGIESGHPEK<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

En T\u00e4mligen Misslyckad Gubbe I Ett Stort Gult Hus P\u00e5 En Kulle<\/em>.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

G\u00e5r det bygga n\u00e5gra sp\u00e4nnande ord av det d\u00e4r?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Antagligen.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Mer \u00e4n s\u00e5 \u00e4r det v\u00e4l inte med ett liv. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ingen ide att inbilla sig annat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Man m\u00e5ste bara veta att jag har ganska sm\u00e5 problem med just det d\u00e4r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Vore s\u00e5klart v\u00e4rre om man inte ins\u00e5g sina nederlag.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men ljuset \u00e4r t\u00e4nt h\u00e4r bredvid mig. N\u00e5gra kompileringsfel lyser r\u00f6tt p\u00e5 sk\u00e4rmen som st\u00e5r till v\u00e4nster. Ja och gubben, han \u00e4r visserligen lite “kn\u00f6ven<\/em>” men lik f\u00f6rbaskat r\u00e4tt sugen. Jod\u00e5. Faktiskt. S\u00e5 dags att ta tag i det d\u00e4r. N\u00e5gra timmar till. Sen sova och hoppas p\u00e5 morgondagen. Att den inneh\u00e5ller en okn\u00f6ven gubbe i stort gult hus p\u00e5 kulle i Los. En som d\u00e4rmed \u00e4r sugen. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Liksom<\/strong>.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

ps<\/strong> “Kn\u00f6ven<\/em>” \u00e4r Ovan\u00e5kersm\u00e5l f\u00f6r att m\u00e5 (lite) d\u00e5ligt. Ni vet f\u00f6rkylning-p\u00e5-g\u00e5ng k\u00e4nslan s\u00e5d\u00e4r. ds<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Magnetkamera. Negativ. Positiv f\u00f6r mig. Kn\u00f6l. Bara fettv\u00e4vnad. Jod\u00e5. Det har man ju mer av. Tack f\u00f6r det liksom. Det negativa svaret \u00e4r brev ett. Ja positivt f\u00f6r mig. Brev tv\u00e5 \u00e4r en tid f\u00f6r vaccinering. S\u00e4songsinfluensa vaccin. Gratis. “F\u00f6r dig \u00f6ver 65“. Vi har k\u00e4nsligare hj\u00e4rta och lungor i v\u00e5r \u00e5lder. S\u00e5 st\u00e5r det. 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