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Photo by Renato Danyi on Pexels.com<\/a><\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n

D\u00f6den har alltid jagat mig. Jag har k\u00e4nt n\u00e4rvaron s\u00e5 l\u00e4nge att vi blev v\u00e4nner redan innan jag fyllde tolv. Nej, det \u00e4r inte r\u00e4dslan f\u00f6r att d\u00f6 som besv\u00e4rar mig. Det \u00e4r livets korthet som har pl\u00e5gat mig ett helt liv. Nu, som n\u00e4ra 65-\u00e5ring, \u00e4r det d\u00e4r s\u00e5klart p\u00e5tagligt. Hur skall man hinna med allt?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Det enkla svaret p\u00e5 den fr\u00e5gan \u00e4r s\u00e5klart att man hinner inte allt. Ingen g\u00f6r det. Det \u00e4r bara att acceptera l\u00e4get. Men hos mig \u00e4r insikten om det och allt annat inom mig som inte vill acceptera att det \u00e4r s\u00e5, mil fr\u00e5n varandra. Ja och har alltid varit. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Livet \u00e4r f\u00f6r kort.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Dagarna \u00e4r f\u00f6r korta.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Timmarna \u00e4r f\u00f6r korta.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Minuterna med. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Utom n\u00e4r man v\u00e4ntar p\u00e5 en buss…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Liksom<\/strong>.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

D\u00f6den har alltid jagat mig. Jag har k\u00e4nt n\u00e4rvaron s\u00e5 l\u00e4nge att vi blev v\u00e4nner redan innan jag fyllde tolv. Nej, det \u00e4r inte r\u00e4dslan f\u00f6r att d\u00f6 som besv\u00e4rar mig. Det \u00e4r livets korthet som har pl\u00e5gat mig ett helt liv. Nu, som n\u00e4ra 65-\u00e5ring, \u00e4r det d\u00e4r s\u00e5klart p\u00e5tagligt. Hur skall man hinna […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":24,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_crdt_document":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[24],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-40009","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-betraktelser"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":42121,"url":"https:\/\/www.akehedman.se\/wordpress\/?p=42121","url_meta":{"origin":40009,"position":0},"title":"Petitesser","author":"\u00c5ke Hedman","date":"2022-06-20","format":false,"excerpt":"En perfekt sommarmorgon vaknar jag till. 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