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En del f\u00f6rs\u00f6k f\u00e5r fornminnesskylt. Blir adlade till “borg<\/em>“. Sj\u00e4lv tycker jag nog att alla f\u00f6rs\u00f6k \u00e4r v\u00e4rd den d\u00e4r \u00e4ran. Att f\u00f6rs\u00f6ka \u00e4r \u00e4nd\u00e5 att g\u00e5\/n\u00e5 halva v\u00e4gen. Det finns s\u00e5 m\u00e5nga som inte ens kommer dit. S\u00e5 miljarder forntidsborgsskyltar skulle jag vilja se. Jag skulle gl\u00e4djas \u00e5t var och en.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Innan jag kommer till skylten som pekar ut “Tryggens f\u00f6rs\u00f6k<\/em>” har jag g\u00e5tt uppf\u00f6r den brantaste av backarna. Solen st\u00e5r precis i kanten d\u00e4r upp i toppen av backen. Bl\u00e4ndar mig med sin full kraft. Fotonbombardemang. Uppstigningen k\u00e4nns som att d\u00f6. Ni vet s\u00e5d\u00e4r som m\u00e4nniskor ber\u00e4ttar om att man g\u00e5r in i en tunnel mot ljuset och d\u00e4r i \u00e4nden av det d\u00e4r ljuset s\u00e5 st\u00e5r n\u00e4ra och k\u00e4ra och v\u00e4ntar. Men n\u00e4r jag fl\u00e5sande n\u00e5r toppen finns ingen d\u00e4r. Om det \u00e4r \u00e4nnu ett tecken p\u00e5 det solit\u00e4ra i mitt liv eller om jag nu \u00e4nd\u00e5 inte \u00e4r d\u00f6d, det har jag ingen aning om.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Tele2mastens fl\u00e4kt ylar fortfarande. PWM-styrning k\u00e4ra Tele 2. Och kullager. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Jag best\u00e4ller tid f\u00f6r besiktning av den nyinstallerade kaminen. \u00c4ntligen. Storebror skall komma och titta och godk\u00e4nna. Gillar inga av de d\u00e4r uppifr\u00e5n och ner kollerna. Som bilbesiktning. Jag blir s\u00e5 liten b\u00e5de till person och tanke i det d\u00e4r. K\u00e4nner mig f\u00f6rminskad. Det \u00e4r ofta inte p\u00e5 n\u00e5got logiskt saker och ting faller. N\u00e4stan alltid handlar det om n\u00e5got tyckande. Men i grunden bra och n\u00f6dv\u00e4ndigt s\u00e5klart. L\u00e4ngtar efter v\u00e4rmen den kan ge under de kallaste vinterdagarna. F\u00e5r st\u00e5 ut. Muta med kaffe.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Hittar en rad till en l\u00e5ttext d\u00e4r ute i skogen. Spelar in p\u00e5 telefonen. Det d\u00e4r h\u00e4nder f\u00f6r ofta. Skulle definitivt kunna g\u00f6ra en ny l\u00e5t varje dag. Om jag best\u00e4mde mig f\u00f6r det. Men vill jag det? Nope. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

H\u00e4r och nu brummar en oskriven vecka framf\u00f6r mig. Det gillar jag. Mycket man kan hinna med. Det \u00e4r gott att leva. Det kan inte hj\u00e4lpas men s\u00e5 \u00e4r det. Ja och k\u00e4nner man s\u00e5 \u00e4r det ju inte l\u00e4tt att ta sig ner i den ljuvliga melankolin. Lite shit ocks\u00e5 \u00f6ver det. Men man f\u00e5r f\u00f6rs\u00f6ka hitta inspiration \u00e4nd\u00e5.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

En framtidsdag n\u00e4sta Losvecka? N\u00e5ja. Det vore v\u00e4l \u00e4nd\u00e5 att ta i…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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En del f\u00f6rs\u00f6k f\u00e5r fornminnesskylt. Blir adlade till “borg“. Sj\u00e4lv tycker jag nog att alla f\u00f6rs\u00f6k \u00e4r v\u00e4rd den d\u00e4r \u00e4ran. Att f\u00f6rs\u00f6ka \u00e4r \u00e4nd\u00e5 att g\u00e5\/n\u00e5 halva v\u00e4gen. Det finns s\u00e5 m\u00e5nga som inte ens kommer dit. S\u00e5 miljarder forntidsborgsskyltar skulle jag vilja se. Jag skulle gl\u00e4djas \u00e5t var och en. 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