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Tr\u00f6tthetens monster kl\u00e4ttrar upp p\u00e5 mina axlar och h\u00e4nger sig kvar d\u00e4r. En tung j\u00e4vel. Eller dj\u00e4vel<\/em>. Eller kanske rent utav dj\u00e4vul<\/em>. Inte vad jag r\u00e4knade med att b\u00e4ra p\u00e5 nu ikv\u00e4ll. Tanken vara att sitta n\u00e5gon timme till h\u00e4r p\u00e5 l\u00e5tsaskontoret. Bli “klar”<\/em> med delmoment. Men “\u00f6rsker int mer idag<\/em>“. Tror jag. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men en bra dag fram hit. Caddar om lite kort. En halv millimeter hit och en halv millimeter dit spelar stor roll ganska ofta d\u00e4r. G\u00f6r om g\u00f6r r\u00e4tt<\/em> som en gammal chef ofta sa. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Att n\u00e4rma sig pensions\u00e5ldern \u00e4r mentalt p\u00e5frestande p\u00e5 m\u00e5nga s\u00e4tt. Skall man ta ut den d\u00e4r tj\u00e4nstepensionen under livstiden. Eller skall man sikta p\u00e5 fem \u00e5r, eller tio \u00e5r som livstid. Anv\u00e4nda pengarna till att g\u00f6ra n\u00e5got medans man kan. Farsan blev sjuttio och n\u00e5gra m\u00e5nader. Vad s\u00e4ger att jag blir \u00e4ldre? Eller att jag blir sjuttiofem. Hur mycket ork finns det kvar d\u00e4r om man blir det? B\u00e4ttre att ta en \u00f6l eller tv\u00e5 i Prag de h\u00e4r \u00e5ren kanske \u00e4n d\u00e5 som dement p\u00e5 ett \u00e5lderdomshem eller som uppeldad och utsl\u00e4ngd.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sv\u00e5rt.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men v\u00e4rst \u00e4r alla seniorerbjudanden. Eller allt som handlar om det seniora livet. Sommarkollo f\u00f6r pension\u00e4rer. De som \u00e4r sextiofem och upp\u00e5t \u00e4r v\u00e4lkomna… Ja j\u00e4vlar. Eller dj\u00e4vlar d\u00e5. F\u00f6redrar den f\u00f6rsta varianten dock. Den har mindre med dj\u00e4vlar att g\u00f6ra. Sakrala monster i overklighetens dimmor.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fast t\u00e4nker inte s\u00e5 mycket p\u00e5 det d\u00e4r annars. Kopplar liksom inte mitt jag med den verkliga \u00e5ldern. Det g\u00e5r inte. Om\u00f6jligt. Har man ens blivit vuxen \u00e4nnu? N\u00e4r h\u00e4nde det is\u00e5fall.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men sen “ocool gubbe<\/em><\/strong>” d\u00e5. Den insikten har jag. Hur man ses utanf\u00f6r sig sj\u00e4lv. Jag har sv\u00e5rt f\u00f6r kvinnorna och m\u00e4nnen \u00f6ver femtio som jaga det unga f\u00f6r att f\u00f6rs\u00f6ka h\u00e4nga sig kvar i n\u00e5gon slags egen ungdom. Inte s\u00e5 att jag tycker att man inte skall f\u00e5 det. Alla f\u00e5r vara hur f\u00e5niga och l\u00f6jliga och patetiska man vill. Men man b\u00f6r \u00e5tminstone tillk\u00e4nnage det f\u00f6r \u00e5tminstone sig sj\u00e4lv. Inse att man \u00e4r r\u00e4tt skadad d\u00e5, om man h\u00e4nger sig \u00e5t det d\u00e4r. \u00c4r lite dum i huvudet. Eller faktiskt ganska mycket dum i huvudet.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men allts\u00e5. Alla g\u00f6r som dom vill. S\u00e5klart. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00c5lder \u00e4r v\u00e4l bara ett p\u00e5hitt \u00e4nd\u00e5.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men det man upplever i tiden \u00e4r det inte. F\u00f6r det flesta r\u00e4cker det inte bara med att knulla. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men vad vet jag om s\u00e5dant. Gl\u00f6m allt jag skrev. Lev. Som du vill. Och lite till. Om det d\u00e4r \u00e4r vad du dr\u00f6mmer om min v\u00e4n.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Jod\u00e5. Tr\u00f6ttheten h\u00e4nger kvar. Lika bra att ge sig. Centralorten skall bes\u00f6kas imorgon. Inte ofta den bes\u00f6ks. Men ibland m\u00e5ste man. Ljusdal \u00e4r betydligt b\u00e4ttre och vackrare \u00e4n sitt rykte. Det \u00e4r inte bara en ful gammal bandyboll liksom<\/strong>. Dexcupreliker. Men den man \u00e4lskar agar man. Heter det ju. Men jag f\u00f6rst\u00e5r och hejar p\u00e5 ungarna som vill d\u00e4rifr\u00e5n och faktiskt drar iv\u00e4g. Man b\u00f6r prova. Ljusdal finns kvar. Man kan \u00e5terv\u00e4nda om man k\u00e4nner f\u00f6r det. Ofta lyft till en annan niv\u00e5 d\u00e5. En b\u00e4ttre m\u00e4nniska. Ja eller s\u00e4mre. S\u00e4nkt. Allt \u00e4r s\u00e5klart m\u00f6jligt. Men att uppleva st\u00e4rker. Att se st\u00e4rker. Att k\u00e4nna st\u00e4rker. D\u00e4rmed inte sagt att man kan g\u00f6r allt det inom Ljusdals kommuns gr\u00e4nser ocks\u00e5. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u00e5klart.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men jag tror att jag g\u00e5r och l\u00e4gger mig. Ny bok finnes. Verkade vara liten text. Mina glas\u00f6gon \u00e4r definitivt p\u00e5 gr\u00e4nsen. Tr\u00f6ttheten accelererar d\u00e4r i s\u00e4ngen n\u00e4r man skall l\u00e4sa allts\u00e5. Man somnar snabbt. Sidorna r\u00e4cker l\u00e4nge. Gott. Allts\u00e5 bra rent utav. Man k\u00f6per inga nya glas\u00f6gon. Spar pengar. Sover ut. K\u00f6per inte b\u00f6cker heller. Spar \u00e4nnu mer pengar. Blir glad. Allt gott. Till slut. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Kortmeningarnas kulle. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

T\u00e4nk om man bara ocks\u00e5 hette Julle. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u00e5 bra allt blivit d\u00e5. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Men nu g\u00f6r man inte det. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Allt \u00e4r r\u00e4tt bra \u00e4nd\u00e5. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

God natt!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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